Where to start...
Well I'm 30 years old, no kids,...
Where to start...
Well I'm 30 years old, no kids, I have lots almost 70 pounds since March of this year! I've been overweight for majority of my life :( with this weight loss I am left with a bunch of saggy skin under my belly button and some very stubborn fat around my belly button that just will not go!
Because of this, when I look in the mirror..I don't see the changes to my body that I've made. I see just the fat in my belly and the pouch of skin :(
At first I thought I was being vain, so what my tummy isn't flat? Do I really want to put this kind of cash into that? Then I thought, I have quite literally worked my butt off....and there's no reason I shouldn't have the results I want. It's my body, how I see it greatly affects my thoughts. I should feel confident in how far i've come and how hard i've worked to get here!
Coming from someone who has been overweight for so long, I need to do this. I went from a size 20/22 to a size 10/12 with no surgery, just changing my lifestyle and I exercise anywhere from 20 to 45 minutes 6 days a week (except this past week, dealing with surgery stuff) I deserve to have the body I am working for! I am worth it!
I had my consult with Dr. Brian Dorner last Tuesday, we went over everything! Because of the stubborn fat around my belly button he's going to do liposuction. He answered every question (I had like 30) down to asking if I wanted to know what type of suture he'd be using. My surgery is scheduled for September 16th!
I'm at the stage now where I'm researching pre op supply gathering and reading others reviews, partially wondering if I know what I'm getting myself into! I have a very physical job! I'm a registered veterinary technician so I am on my feet all day, bending, kneeling, lifting, crouching, sometimes on the floor, working with big dogs, sometimes aggressive dogs..so i'm prepared for 4 full weeks off work..
I'm just....nervous! Hopeful that for the first time in my life I can be 100% comfortable in my skin.
3 1/2 weeks away!!
It seems so far away.. I'm going back and forth between hopeful for good results and knowing it will be good.
I've got a wonderful caretaker lined up..gathering supplies, looking at reviews...
Guess I should upload pre op pictures!
The folder is here!
I received my folder yesterday from Dr. Dorner's office. It contained lots of pre and post op information, since I'm having two procedures they sent me both but the information is relatively the same. Consent forms, risk information, information about the surgery center and directions.
I'm not going to sign the consent forms just yet, reading through the information I have a few more questions to ask.
It says he only recommends stage 1 garments, has anyone else's PS done this? It says if I feel like I want to switch to stage 2 to talk to him first. Also, has anyone experienced partial or total sensation loss long after surgery?
Ultimate wish/goal pictures!
As of today I have officially lost 70 pounds since March of 2016! My ultimate goal is not to be completely cut and muscular, I don't need/want a 6 pack..but I do need/want to be fit. I know the lipo and tt will not give me the end look I want, I'll keep working on that later. It will get rid of the hanging skin and stubborn belly fat though and that's a start! Once I'm healed and cleared to return to exercise I can continue where I left off..hopefully not having gained to much weight (hello maintenance calories!)
Anywho, these are some of my wish pics...
Day before pre op
So tomorrow I have my pre op appointment with Dr. Dorner at 8:30 am. Last night I watched a video on YouTube of a procedure being done, it didn't seem that bad surgery wise. I expected worse. I see surgery daily though so maybe that's why. Anyway, it did raise a few questions for me to ask tomorrow before I sign all of the consent forms and pay the final amount due.
I'm in the final stages of getting everything prepared. Still nervous, still hopeful, I'm also excited because my wonderful caretaker will be here 2 weeks from tomorrow! I found some Arnica cream at Kroger of all places so I picked that up.
2 more weeks...with this saggy, flappy skin. I can handle it. Just can't wait until it's gone!
Today was my pre op appointment with Dr. Dorner.
The girls at the front desk are very nice! I was taken to a room and told to change into their robe leaving on my bra and panties. The nurse put me in front of a blue screen and took photos with a numbered thing to stand over for positioning.
After that the nurse practitioner came in. She was very nice, took my history, vitals, asked questions about past surgery, allergies, etc. She was a bit surprised my resting heart rate was 54 bpm and asked if that was normal, which it is, now. She said I appear healthy and she sees no need for any lab work besides a routine pregnancy test the morning of surgery. Yay!
Dr. Dorner came in and we went over any new questions I had (several popped up between the consult and the pre op). We discussed long lasting pain injections, suture techniques, clotting sprays, compression garments, drains, and a few other things. He showed me again where the incision is going (it's so so so low!)
After that I got dressed and headed out front to turn in my consent forms. Around this time things got a little confusing..mostly with the payment part. I knew the balance was due today, the nurse practitioner asked me to see the office manager before leaving and then came back to tell me to sit in the private waiting area for her to get me.
I sat in that waiting area for about 15 to 20 minutes. I was told the pre op appointment would be 45 minutes so I accounted for that. The office is 45 minutes from where I work/live. My appointment was at 8:30 and I didn't see the OM until maybe 9:45, I'm not sure what the delay was. This is where things got confusing. She told me the balance and I had to split it between accounts which was fine. I had to ask what time my surgery was (7:30 am) because they didn't tell me. Then she made a follow up appointment the week after, which I had to ask the date and time of and told her I didn't want that time as its during early morning rush hour for work (it took me over an hour to get there today). She just seemed very not with it. I don't know.
Long story short, pre op went well, balance is paid and surgery is scheduled for September 16th at 7:30 am!
Organizing supplies and nesting?
Figured I'd organize my post op supplies today! I'm just trying to stay busy. I'll post a list of what I have if anyone's interested.
- hydrogen peroxide
- baby wipes
- paper tape
- assorted sizes of gauze squares
- rolled gauze
- q tips
- acetiminophen 500 mg
- arnica gel
I got to 158.8 today which is below my goal for surgery, I wanted to be below 160. So yay! To keep myself busy I'm cleaning and organizing everything. I cleaned out my basement and all the old clothes I can't wear, including my closet and dresser. I ordered my food from Papaya Fit yesterday so that's done. I've gathered plenty of pillows and movies to watch during recovery.
Soon I will start deep cleaning since I won't be able to do much after surgery. I also need to give my dog a bath!
Just trying to stay busy...
It's almost here!
I spent today cleaning just about everything! Through out the week I have loose ends to tie up. Since I'm not going to be able to see my chiropractor for a few weeks we've been doubling up on appointments so that's Tuesday and Wednesday. I've ordered food from a local place that I'll need to pick up Wednesday or Thursday, this way no one has to prepare food for me :) My wonderful caretaker is coming in to town Thursday through Monday so we're going to go out to dinner Thursday night. Then Friday is the big day....I'm to the point where I just want it done already. It feels like it's been dominating my life!
Blood clot machine?
So my PS office called yesterday and told me there's a machine I need to come pick up that helps keep blood clots away???
To be honest, I'm getting frustrated with the OM. First, it sounded like she was eating on the phone while talking to me. Second, she didn't explain the machine at all, she just said "it's to help with blood clots. I don't know how you got out of here without us talking about it." Then she tells me there's a rental fee thats refunded when the machine is returned and it's at the front desk to be picked up. How unhelpful is that? Hopefully someone explains/shows me how to use this machine.
I'm not trying to be nit picky, I understand people need to eat (but at least wait for the 5 minutes it takes for you to be vague and unhelpful), I understand things get forgotten (seems like this is a big part that should be remembered), to me it just seems like for an OM this lady is unprofessional and unorganized.
Every encounter with other staff members, excellent.
T -3 DAYS!!!
Rough start to the flat side
Wow. Yesterday was extremely rough and exhausting.
I got to the surgery center at 6:35. Surgery started at 7:40. It was 2.5 hours. When I woke up in recovery I felt no pain. My blood pressure was extremely low. They kept me in recovery until about 1:30. I was dizzy and nauseous so they gave me Zofran in my iv. They stood me up to put the binder on and walked me to a chair to sit. Checking my BP every 10 minutes. It normalized and they let me go. On the ride home I felt completely normal. I got home and slowly made it inside. I was awake for a few hours. Around 3 I took a percocet, slept for maybe 2 hours. I had to get up to urinate, that's a feat in itself! After I was waiting for my boyfriend to empty my drain, I got the chills, my ears started ringing and I felt dizzy so I immediately sat down.
According to my boyfriend, I passed out within 10 to 15 seconds. My mom and dad were there and called the squad. I was awake by the time they showed up. They asked what happened and if I wanted to go to the hospital. I said no, just check my bp. They took it 3 times and it was 50/20, dangerously low so they gave me no option, I had to go to the hospital. They were worried I was bleeding internally. In the squad it took multiple attempts to place an iv. They gave me oxygen and hooked me up to an ekg and started fluids. OH! I vomited twice while the medics where in my house, OMG, talk about pain!
At the hospital they placed a second iv and gave me 2 bags of fluids. They kept me hooked up to everything and gave me zofran. They checked my hemoglobin levels which were normal. The doctor looked at my incision and it was normal. They gave me food since all I had eaten all day was crackers and I vomited those up. My bp would not go above 91/58. They delayed giving me any pain medication because of that but eventually decided since my heart rate was 50 that that might be my normal blood pressure so the doctor gave me morphine. 10 minutes later she had me walk around to see if I got dizzy, I was fine so they released me.
When I got home I was exhausted. She said I could take my gabapentin so I did and went to sleep. They think the percocet caused the drop and told me to take half my recommended dosage. I woke up at 5 am very stiff and painful. I called Dr. Dorner, explained what happened, he was very concerned and asked a bunch of questions. He said he'd call me in an rx of tramadol because he was nervous to give me anything stronger. Since it was so early and the pharmacy didn't open until 9, he told me to take acetiminophen.
It was a scary day and night. Thank God my boyfriend is here, he's been an absolute God send. If he wasn't with me I would have hit the floor when I passed out. He's been amazing, emptying my drain (I only have 1), helping me up and down, he's helped me adjust my binder multiple times (it's to big!), he's rubbed my feet and legs, he's just absolutely amazing. Even brought me flowers and a stuffed animal.
My pain is about a 4, I'm about 6 hours out from the acetiminophen dose, currently waiting to get my tramadol. I'm draining a lot, it was over 100 cc yesterday and about 75 cc this morning. I can't stand up even remotely straight. Very hunched over. My back does not hurt but my neck is very stiff. The "pain" I feel is the tightness in my core, either from the muscle repair, the lipo or the skin being pulled tight. I've seen the results, it looks very good, my incision is super low, everything is FLAT! There is swelling around my hips and mons. I am numb in the area around incision, I can feel my hips and mons. Due for another gabapentin in an hour...I've been drinking and I've eaten a little. My boyfriend made me scrambled eggs at like 6 am.
I'll add a binder picture and update more later.
I'm feeling much better today! I'm in very little pain. I actually haven't taken any pain medicine or muscle relaxers since 8 am. I was able to shower today, complete heaven. I was starting to feel that special kind of yucky you get from sitting around. I'm still very hunched over, my lower back is starting to hurt. The drain is doing very well, I've had little problems with it. The only problem I'm having is the binder, it doesn't fit me right at all. There's no shape to it, no contour. So even though it's "snug", there's a huge gap on the sides and in the back. I'm going to look for a new binder.
Showering was interesting. My boyfriend helped me, the shower itself was great. I got nauseous for some reason. I also get tired quickly. It takes a lot out of me to move around, get up, walk. Like right now I could just fall asleep.
Managed to snap a picture with my binder off, I think dr. Dorner did a great job.
Day 4, pictures!
I was fairly stiff when I woke up this morning. I took a dose of Tramadol to help with that. Since my boyfriend was leaving to go back to PA today, he helped me shower so he could wash my hair. Learning from yesterday I made sure to eat something and I took a Zofran prior.
I sat down on the edge of the tub instead of standing which I'm sure helped quite a bit. I've been using Hibacleanse for my incision and belly button. I'm nervous to "scrub" at my new button so I just pour the Hibacleanse in it and let it sit for a few then let the water run over it. I do lather up the cleaner and get at it around the drain opening. That's the last thing I want to get an infection. After I wipe it down with 70% rubbing alcohol and put a dry gauze around it, cutting a slit in the edge so I can get the whole opening covered then tape it in place. The drain is doing very well, it's at over 100 ml in 24 hours so that's probably going to be around for a while.
I'm surprised there is no bruising where he did the lipo on my abdomen. Not that I'm complaining. I've just seen a lot of pictures of bruising from lipo. My binder has been total garbage. It didn't fit me at all. Even before I went to surgery I had curves and this binder does not support that. It's literally just a tube that's all in one piece. So while it was snug around my hips it was loose around my mid section. So much so that it would ride up and cover my chest. So after my shower my boyfriend and I cut the binder into 3 parts so I could tighten it to each individual part. Now it feels like the binder is actually doing something! Although it is itchy, I put a cami on underneath it today which helped.
My muscles are definitely sore but moving is easier. Sitting up and down, getting up on my own, laying flexed are all easier. I'm not standing straight at all. Walking is very slow. I can't wait for that to go away.
Today was the first day I actually "saw" the results. I may have teared up a little because the results are better than I expected and it's only day 4. I don't know how much he removed, I will ask Thursday at my first post op appointment. It had to be a bit though, the lower stretch marks on my abdomen were up top and in the photos there's a brown dot on the left side of my tummy that was up further by my ribs. I really like my belly button, I need to get the junk out of it so I can see what it looks like. There's also a "dip" below my belly button that I like.
I'm so happy with my body right now. I can't wait to see what it'll look like in several weeks!
Technically day 4?
Apparently we don't count the day of surgery as day 1? I don't know.
Today: SWELL HELL!
Oh my God, the swelling is real today. I feel like a bloated water balloon. The feeling alone is weird, I have random areas of numbness - mostly around my new belly button about a 1/2" around it and below it along my incision. So I can't "feel" my fingers on my skin but I can feel inside the "squishy" feeling. That sounds ridiculous but it's the only way I can explain it.
The drain out put is just as much, 125 ml today. My tape started to peel while cleaning my incision so I cut part off. My pain is about a 2, mostly coming from my lower back. Everything else is just pressure. Movement is getting easier as far as getting up and down, slightly turning and I don't bend if I need something low - I squat. My posture is no better than it has been. That's about all I have to update.
I was asked what I couldn't have gotten through this surgery without earlier, lots and lots of pillows for sure, loose and comfy clothing, probiotics and laxatives, and my boyfriend - he was so helpful and absolutely amazing.
The pain is not what I expected at all. I was preparing for the worst including bruising. I have no bruising at all from the lipo or the table. The lack of pain actually surprises me. The highest I ever got on a scale of 1 to 10 was on surgery day after I passed out and it was about an 8 when my medicine wore off. The next day about a 4 and I was off the Percocet and taking Tramadol instead. Then every day it goes down.
I'm gonna end this here, good night lovelies!
Finally some relief! I hadn't been taking any laxatives as I wasn't taking the Percocet. Silly me thought, "No opioid. No opioid induced constipation." Ladies. Don't be fooled. Tramadol may not be as strong as Percocet but it will keep you from going to the bathroom.
So I busted out the laxatives this morning. I've been taking my usual probiotics since surgery. I can say though that vomiting the day of surgery beats a BM 5 days after the fact.
My binder is looser today and the drainage is slowing down. Still no where near removal but that's fine as it doesn't bother me what so ever (the drain that is). Swelling was minimal today, let me tell you...last night my mons was swelled so much it physically hurt to touch it!
I have my first post op appointment tomorrow at 11 am. I assume he's just going to be inspecting things. I wonder if he will take any of the tape off? I need him to examine my drain hole as it looked a little angry this morning. Maybe he can give me a smaller binder....or I can switch to a cg.
I was debating on wearing jeans tomorrow but I think I'll stick with my loose, comfy pants. No need to push anything to soon. I only took a single dose of Tramadol today, mainly to help the pain in my lower back. No muscle relaxers today. That's about all I have for today!
Good night dolls!
First post op
Today was a good day. I saw Dr. D this morning for my first post op visit. Everything looks great! He didn't remove any tape - I'm to keep cleaning and it will come off on its own, if not it will be removed next week. My drain hole is not infected which was a concern for me because it looked angry. I have to continue wearing the binder for a week or two. My drain stayed in, it'll probably be out sometime next week. It only drained about 50 ml today and has to be 30 ml or less to be removed. My only gripe about the visit is it was only about 5 to 10 minutes! I had to have my mom drive 45 minutes to get there! LOL
After that I took my parents to lunch for all the help they've given me over the last week. It was so nice to get out into the sunshine! Even if people were staring at me..I'm not sure if it's because I look fairly young and I'm hunched over or if it's because my drain was attached to my binder and could be seen over my jeans (yes I wore jeans!).
Then I needed to pick up this week's food order from Papaya Fit delivered to Supzilla. Papaya Fit has the BEST food! They're a locally based restaurant that specializes in clean food. They'll help with weight loss, bulking, cutting, etc. Or you can give them specifications for your macros (protein, carbs, fat, calories) and they'll make meals for you. They don't use anything but clean food! No artificial anything! You can even give them your likes, dislikes, and preferences (like I don't eat red meat, low sugar, no grains) so they do low carb for me and add extra protein. It's no more in cost than shopping myself so I might continue to use them after recovery.
Then I went to Walgreens, I needed a new bottle of Hibiclens. It seems I have to use a fair amount to get it lathered enough to clean my incision and belly button. Walmart only had the small bottle but Walgreens has 4 different sizes of it.
From there I came home. Cleaned up my house a little. I was feeling pretty good! My back started killing me so I sat down. It hurt enough that I needed to take a Tramadol. No muscle relaxers today. While I was at Walgreens I picked up some leggings (never before have I gotten leggings! The kangaroo pooch did not look good in them!) So I put them on with my cami. I felt amazing! That I actually look GOOD in leggings and a cami. ME! Crazy.
The nurse tightened my binder today, I'm not sure what it looks like under there right now but I'm itchy down the sides. I have a cami under my binder and I'm not sure if that's the cause or not. Minimal swelling and minimal draining today! However being out that long kicked my butt! I was really tired a few hours later.
Got my 2nd post op scheduled next Thursday.
Good night lovelies!
Rough day today!
Today started off pretty good and just kind of slid downwards. I got up and drained my drain, gathered supplies to clean my incision and belly button and set out to do so. Tape is starting to lift and I can see the edge of my incision near the drain hole. It looks pretty good, what I can see of it.
I was curious about the incision placement and dug out the lowest cut pair of panties I own. To my delight they cover the incision perfectly! I got even more curious and dug out the matching bra like a make shift bikini. I was pretty delighted at what I saw.
I got dressed, cleaned up some more around the house, grabbed some food and kinda hung out. I was planning on venturing outside but didn't make it after I put in the Friends DVD. From there I became irritated..I'm tired of being "down". I want to get back to my daily routine. My back hurts because I'm not standing as straight as I thought I would be by now. How long does it take for the MR to stop hurting and pulling? How long until I can stand up for more than 15 minutes at a time? I tried to stand up a bit more and it felt like if I tried anymore I'd rip something apart! There's a pulling sensation down the front of my body on both sides.
Also, I'd like to see my chiropractor! My back was screwed up for the longest time going into this and we've worked really hard to straighten it out. Because I've missed getting my weekly adjustments, my neck and back hurt. The way I'm sleeping (sitting up) is screwing with my neck too. I can't wait to lay flat, stretch out, on my tummy or my favorite...my side.
I'm just being whiny. I'm really ready to get back to "me", being down like this is killing me.
Ni ni dolls!
New pictures and a small let down
I hope your weekends are going well! Mine hasn't been to bad. Figured I'd update with some one week pictures and a few incision pictures since my tape is peeling more every day.
I think my drain will come out this week, it was under 30 ml yesterday for the 24 hour period.
I'm also pretty sure I have a dog ear on the left hip. At first I was super sad after seeing it. Like I almost cried. Then I just told myself it's something I knew could happen and in the grand scheme of things it's a minor blip that can be fixed. Also it's easily hidden. What I can see of the right side looks normal where the tape's lifted.