21 Year Old, Irish Female Very Very Nervous for Rhinoplasty Surgery! - Dublin, Ireland

Hey! I have been reading this site a while now and just wanna say thanks to everyone for submitting reviews as it has really helped me in deciding about the procedure!I have hated my nose as long as I can remember, now I despise it. There's not one thing I like about it, therefore I am not as worried about results as most out there as I feel like anything is an improvement to what it is now. I would love to have most of the noses you lot have on your before pictures! I have stopped going out so much and really restricted myself because of this as I get so so paranoid I don't even look at people passing me anymore, I cannot stand pictures no matter what angle they are from. I have no other major body issues apart from this (well one ear comes out too far but hey ho!) so I feel this will really help my confidence (I'm also having my braces put back on a couple of months after surgery) I work in the beauty industry so looks are really important to me no matter how shallow that sounds, I mean my own looks and not others.

I decided enough was enough a few months ago and with financial help I finally went and booked consultations in Dublin. I remember distinctly being on the phone to a receptionist for one clinic for about 45 minutes just chatting about everything and she informed me that many people come to the clinic very withdrawn, shy and looking away..yet after the op they almost skip out of the hospital! I checked back on all my research and it seemed this hospital came up a lot, the surgeon was highly recommended so I booked the consultation (pm me if you want to know the surgeon!). Luckily I got a cancellation consultation appointment and so it was sooner than was planned but I was excited.

When I got there I met the surgeon and warmed to him right away (I am now used to not very nice doctors so this was a nice change!) He was smiley and welcoming, he took my pictures profile, middle side and front view, he could tell straightaway I hated my picture being taken. He then had a chat with me about my life, my job, the surgery and of course the risks and dangers. He then showed me a digitally morphed picture of what he would like the result to be, I am very aware this is not a promise as he said he hopes to achieve 80% of this. I was shocked when I seen the picture..my instant thought was "That's how I should have been born", he commented that I have a very pretty face and with some work to the nose I will make a very beautiful woman, I thought this was really nice and I was so happy that he just got what I wanted right away.

It worked out a little more expensive than expected by about €1,500, but I knew he was the surgeon I wanted to go with and I cancelled my other consultations (He did say to still go see other surgeons but I felt very happy with how things were here and he has such great reviews that I didn't see the point shelling out hundreds more 'just to see')

As part of this surgeons requirements he sends you to see a phsychologist to see if you are mentally stable for the surgery, able for the outcomes, and that you aren't being unrealistic, she also checked for disorders such as body dysmorphia to be sure you are seeing in the mirror what others really see. I had this today and found it hard, because I have never ever openly talked about my nose and I had to tell her everthing I hated about it and what names I have been called, this was pretty tough but I understand it's necessary for them.

My surgery is on the 25th of April and I can't stop thinking about it, I am so nervous my stomach is just turning! I have never really had a proper operation in my life so this is huge for me, I have anxiety and even just thinking about the walk down to surgery and going under anasthesia are terrifying me. I am also so scared of waking up not being able to breathe because I know I will freak out, I know I wont breathe from my nose but I'm afraid of my throat being blocked too! I'm also scared of the recovery time and in general feeling sick and the many horrible things that goes along with this! I am really hoping someone can help & reassure me on this because I'm starting to get really freaked out by it all and I am getting so anxious! :(

Thanks so much for reading! Ill be happy to answer any questions!

Bit late updating but I had my second consultation last week. I explained how scared I am about everything to my surgeon and asked him to talk me through the whole day and experience start to finish, he really did relax me (and my boyfriend and mother) about the whole process in general, he said they can give me anxiety medicine in the morning, put me to sleep in a different room than theatre, give me medicine through my IV for upset tummy (I have IBS, worsened by stress.) and explained how lovely the hospital staff are, and that surgery will not be rushed as he gives himself plenty of hours for rhinoplasty. The hospital have also said they will allocate me a semi private room so that my boyfriend can stay with me for the night for free as I am too anxious to stay alone. He said he will see me before surgery, I will meet the anasthesiologist and nurses, will wait in my room for a while and then be brought down to a small room and put to sleep, he will see me a few hours after surgery before he goes home to check up on me and explain how things went and then will remove the light packing the next morning before I go home.

I am now more worried about the final look though than I was before. I am so afraid that it will look little or no different than it does now as he doesn't seem to want to take too much off, and believe me I need ALOT off! I am so so afraid that I will have all this money to pay back for years, go through all that pain and healing, and all this pre op anxiety all for nothing. :( I have eailed this concern but I am not able to attend another consultation to discuss further due to lifts & time off so I am now worried about this more!I am sure he has to explain all of these risks and tell me all the bad things to be sure I am aware of everything and anything but I am secretly hoping he is saying all this stuff just to cover everything!

Currently taking rescue remedy every day & my whole body shakes whenever I think about it!

Slightly freaking out as I'm writing this, as there is only really 3 days left as its almost tuesday! Cant believe the time has gone so quick and still cant believe that I am finally having this done, hasn't sank in at all yet.

I received a call fr in the hospital the other day telling me I had to come up there before the operation because I have tachycardia (however you spell that) which means basically my heart beats very very fast sometimes especially when I'm anxious, there was many mix ups with them not knowing if I had to go down or not as my surgeon never mentioned this to me so they said the anaesthesiologist is happy enough to do an EKG and some cardio tests on the morning of the surgery, this has made me ten times more nervous as now I have this feeling they are not going to do it if my heart is going too rapid (which it definately will be from nerves) and all this worry will be for nothing. I am scheduled in for some time in the afternoon and they are being kind enough to give me a semi private room so that my boyfriend can stay with me for the night free of charge due to my anxiety about the whole thing, I reall appreciate that as the nurse said they wouldnt usually do that but the liaison offer I spoke to said it was no problem as sometimes it can be scary for people to be alone.

I am just terrified about the whole thing, going in, getting tests & how they turn out, going down to the room to go under , going asleep itself, so scared of waking up, how I will feel, if I will feel panicked, if surgery went well (I have a feeling it wont and he will tell me they could only take the tiniest bit off-this is a big fear of mine), getting the packing out, recovery and swelling, feeling sick from the meds and thats not to mention how it will turn out In the end and how people will react to the fact that I have had it done.

I cant tell anyone else these worries as not many people know and my boyfriend is also scared for me because I have never had surgery & neither has he so I'm just pretending I'm completely fine about it all for now, that will all change friday though!

I need to just calm down now and would really appreciate some feedback from others who have had it?

Thanks for reading if you made it this far in my crazy babbling!