23, No Kids. Lost Self Esteem

Hi dolls, I have completely gone MIA. But here i am back on here to talk, since you guys have provide so much comfort to me in the past. I am a year and six months post op. And my first year was a little tough, I had some insecurities that caused me to enjoy my body with some limitations. But none the less I still enjoyed it and still showed it off, huge confidence booster!! However, since i started back into school this past January I have gained some weight and I decide to take this break to shed it off.

It has been hard y’all. I am currently struggling with my self esteem. I don’t go out unless it’s with my family because I don’t feel good enough to be outside. I am currently at 168 pounds which by all means is the heaviest I’ve been my whole life. People tell me stress adds to the weight gain but I feel like I’m in a full on depression phase that I can’t shake off.

I come here to voice my concerns because I know this community is so great because you guys offer that support. I have attached recent pictures. My concerns are simply that pouch !!! Like you can tell I’ve gained weight, and also not a concern but just an observation ... MY BUTT IS HUGEEE !!!! I guess cus I now weight 168lbs!!!!

Here are some pics of me. The ones with the white dress are the most recent. I’m having a little problem with my gut, as you can see I? have a little pouch but oh well. I?ve had it before the surgery so there’s not much I? can do. I? work it 3 times. Week and I? try my hardest to eat as healthy as I? can. In two months I? will be 1 YEAR POST OP !!! Omg time flies

Hope each and everyone of y'all have enjoyed the summer since it is now September and I am now 8 months post op!
It's been harder than I thought to maintain the weight off. I am still sensitive on my sides but It's wearing off some. I find I can squeeze them a little, just not other people! (The struggle).
I've been lighting working out I do watch what I eat, although at times I do some anxious eating.
I'm working still feeling comfortable with what I look like. I do get ppl on they nerves when I sit around and complain about oh man my double chin coming back, or damn I feel fat. Lol friends have run out of patience lol. All in all I have tried to enjoy myself to the most I can, giving I'm all jacked up in the head with insecurities :(