The day is finally near!

I am trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel, the surgery or the results play with your emotions in a crazy way, one day I love it the next I hate it. I guess I will let it take its course and chill out.

I had my surgery April 18 with Dr. Ghurani. Do believe the stories that they are unorganized at the front desk. The day of surgery I told the doctor that I have wish pictures of the ideal body I would like. He didn't seem interested to see my wish pics, he saw them for a quick second and said what I wanted can not happen, he can only give me some hips and a butt that would not be even visible. My ass was flat to start off with I get it that he has to follow the law etc.. but it kind of sucks to spend 5Gs to see a change that the doctor can't provide. I want to cry every time I look at the mirror, I don't feel or see a difference. I'm only 2 weeks post op and I get it I'm swollen now but as it's going down I see an indentation on my right side and on my left as a full hip. I look crazy, if this surgery didn't hurt so bad I would do it all over again with another doctor who respects and listens to what you want. I felt like he looked at me like there was no hope. Dr. Duran makes miracles with the skinniest person to the fattest person.. I am so frustrated at this point because I'm missing time out of work and I spent so much money on hotel stay and also after care for massages. I feel like my time was wasted, I saw some of the other Ghurani dolls at spectrum and some looked good, once the swelling goes down I'm not going to have nothing behind me at all, my friends and family couldn't really tell a difference. I'm so upset! If I EVER do a second round it will be in DR I should of stuck with my first choice..

As my surgery day approaches I'm starting to freak out a bit. I pray that God will guide the doctors hands on the day of, I would like to see my four year old and my husband at the end of this. I am ready for 04/18/17 never thought I would of really gone through with the procedure, but I am tired of looking crazy. After working out and dieting it doesn't work well when you have a hectic schedule every week. Tomorrow I will finally start heading out to Miami and we're all excited! I would of went with Dr. Mallol but leaving my 4yr old behind was not a choice and that is why I decided to stick to doing it in the states. I will update as soon as I get to Miami