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Hello everyone! Let me introduce myself and my...

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Chengwu
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Hello everyone!

Let me introduce myself and my story firstly. My name is Cheng, originally from China and doing school in Colorado. At the end of September, I made a super big mistake which is getting a tattoo done. Seriously, I have been thinking about this tattoo design for around two years. As an international student, live by myself in a foreign country is tough. I felt life is just like feather, and what support you to move on is love and hope. This is the meaning behind this tattoo. Especially when I met my girlfriend this summer who is my 7 years old close friend. I have a stronger motivation to get the tattoo done. But just right after I finish my tattoo, every time I looked at the mirror, I just feel this is not my body and not me. Black ink let me feel cold and afraid of myself. During past 20 days, I cannot sleep, study, eat. The depression is killing me in slow motion.
I did lots of research, and pick a local clinic they are using RevLite and a 10 years experienced CLS will do the treatment for me.
My first treatment is Oct. 28th. I really need some support from friends. Feel really such a down time.

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October 10, 2013
Hi Cheng! I know exactly how you feel. I got a tattoo done from a reputable tattoo shop in August and it came out crooked! You can imagine how distraught I was. I felt exactly how you are feeling. Depressed, no appetite, insomnia and even suicidal at times. Think positive! Tattoos are no longer permanent and CAN be removed.At least you can cover it with a shirt throughout your process. Some people aren't that lucky. Mishaps happen and the world isn't over Hun. Your tattoo will be gone eventually. Each session will give you relief and this will all be in the past! :)
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October 11, 2013
So did you start your treatment yet? How was it? I kinda concern about my asian skin type.
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October 10, 2013
Welcome, Cheng. You'll find lots of support here from a lot of people at varying stages of the tattoo removal process. You've taken the first step to putting things right and you'll feel more and more relief after each session, as your tattoo fades away. Try not to be hard on yourself - nobody is perfect and we all make mistakes - it's part of experiencing life! You will rectify this. Be sure to keep a diary of your progress on here. It helps to get things out and write them down and it'll also help others too!
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October 11, 2013
Thanks so much for your reply! Right now I just concern about my asian skin type, not sure laser can react well for my skin type.
October 11, 2013
Hi Cheng, I just want to tell you I have felt similar feelings as you. Back in March I got a tattoo on my back (script). It was of a quote I really liked. I had regret once I took off the padding and saw one of the words was crooked. For months I was depressed. I didn't like to do any of the things I normally liked to do. I was a student at the time and I couldn't focus. I was missing school and everything. I even had to see a therapist to help me through. I had one laser session on just the crooked word and now I am thinking of starting on the whole thing. I just want you to know that time will help you. As time goes on you will feel less pain. It will also help you to have a plan in progress. You are attempting to remove your mistake now and that plan will help keep you in good spirits. I hope you pull through and are able to focus on the things in life that are of greater importance. It will happen. Angelo
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October 11, 2013
Thanks so much for your support. How is your treatment going?
UPDATED FROM Chengwu
3 days post

Some thought

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Chengwu
Ok, so today I screwed up my midterm test, depressed. In addition, since my depressed mood also affect my family and friend even girl friend. And just one moment, I felt like I kinda don't really hate that tattoo. Since really I like the hidden message behind it. Thinking back, probably nothing can change my mind to get it. Just after I screwed my midterm, and after a long sleep, I realized I think I can accept it. Although I hope I didn't make this decision. But I already did, and nothing can change. I know laser removal is a long painful process. I am quite emotional for sure, I don't know during this process, if I will be more depressed for example if the progress is not really good. If the result is not perfect. I am hesitating right now.

What do you think fellows? Need some comment!

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UPDATED FROM Chengwu
3 days post

Anyway decision made

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Chengwu
Oct 28th, 1st treatment, hope I can stay positive

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October 13, 2013

Thanks so much for being brave and sharing your story with us :) Please keep us posted on what you decide to do. 

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October 13, 2013
The chest apparently responds very well to laser treatment. Your tattoo is relatively new and it's in black ink, both of those factors will work in your favour too. You'll do just fine!
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October 14, 2013
Thanks so much wilks! The only concern I have is just my skin type since I am asian
October 14, 2013
Hello, best of luck if you go on with the removals! I wanted to say something - I think for many people it can be normal to mourn the loss of the clean skin, or the new appearance, after first getting a tattoo. An adjustment period, full realization of what is permanently there now, and some people even say it's from coming down off from endorphins during the tattoo process. Not sure if that is what happened with you when you felt you could accept it, but I just wanted to pass along that information. Other times, of course, we just want the tattoo off!
October 14, 2013
Sorry, that was a bit unclear. I meant, when you went through a period of feeling very sad about it, then maybe later felt you could accept it - it could have been an adjustment period that some people do go through, and you could end up liking that tattoo :-) Otherwise, it's nice to have it off if that's what you want.
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October 14, 2013
Hey Chenwu, I have a 1.5" all black tattoo that I have been attempting to get rid of for almost 2 years now (come Dec). It is all outline and I have had 8 sessions so far. It has faded significantly but there is still a ghost shadow that remains. I even waited 4+ months in b/w some sessions for maximum healing time. The bottom line is, my tattoo was technically bad....shaky outline and poor design. I chose removal b/c of this. I have another tattoo that is really well done and looks technically beautiful, and I thought just for a moment about getting this one removed too.....BUT, after seeing my results from the laser and the time this whole thing is taking, I would never get my other tattoo removed. My skin is slightly discolored and I do not know if the ghost outline will ever be gone. I was treated w/ the Medlite C6 laser. I would advise you to really think about laser removal....your tattoo is beautifully done and it has special meaning to you. I am not trying to talk you out of laser, but just be forewarned: I am in my "final stages" of removal and am doubtful if I will see 100% clearing, and my skin color is slightly off. Just be forewarned that you may not have perfect results and your tattoo will probably not clear 100%. Anyone who wants to email me or add a comment can, but this is just my personal opinion. I truly wish someone would have told me this before I started removal, because it seems like I will have to get a cover up now, which is what I was trying to avoid with laser. Good luck on whatever you choose!
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October 14, 2013
Hey. I'm sorry to hear you haven't achieved full clearance. Can I ask whereabouts the tattoo is located on your body?
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October 14, 2013
Yes, sorry it is on my wrist. I know they say that areas closer to heart have the best clearing, so I do see that I am at a disadvantage here. I am still undecided if I will continue treatment or not....it is really faded but I want it gone...yet I do not want to cause further trauma to my skin. I am going to wait 4 months in b/w sessions and go from there. I was just letting Chenwu know my personal experience...like if I had a really nice tattoo, but just didn't like it, I would not undergo laser removal knowing what I know now. I just chose to get this one treated b/c it is on my wrist and was really crappy. My other nice one will never be lasered.
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October 14, 2013
Oh and it is really small.......only 1.5 inches. Anything bigger I would be very hesitant, unless I knew I was getting a cover up.
October 14, 2013
So true! I have had mine treated for 3 years, and full clearance is not going to be a possibility. People should definitely consider whether they would prefer to keep the tattoo vs. having some slight remainder of it (though that could be covered up with another tattoo). In my case, there are also scars.
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October 14, 2013
Hi Rachel, have you had several treatments? Whereabouts is your tattoo located, if you don't mind me asking?
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October 14, 2013
Yes Rachel, I am starting to lose hope. I only just found this website at about my 5th session...and even then saw very few stories of successful removal in regards to what I was hoping to see. I was originally getting treated by technicians; however, the last 3 treatments I had I were done by an actual licensed Doctor b/c it DOES take proper skill by the right person...some technicians just have no clue what they are doing!!! Although I am now getting better results, I still don't know if it will ever really be gone. I do know that TIME is a larger factor than what many ppl make it out to be...in fact, my doctor will not take me if I do not wait a minimum of 4mo in b/w sessions. He could have easily tried to get me in for the money, but this guy seems to really care and I am very fortunate to have found him. I cannot tell you how many consultations/clinics I went to and ended up leaving thinking to myself "these ppl are just about the money and really have no clue". I honestly think everyone should wait months in b/w treatments, because our bodies do the majority of the work and the laser is very traumatic. Best of luck to you; I hope yr tattoo continues to fade as you wait...I know I am hoping the same for mine.
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October 14, 2013
Actually after reading your friendly comments, I was really hesitating, because seriously, right now, I don't hate my tattoo that much. Just because some culture stuff and other stuff really affect me, for example, my girlfriend's parents' perspective, etc
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October 15, 2013
Hey Chengwu, I am glad you read my comments. Like I said I have been perusing around on this website for the lat few months. I will end up writing a review, but need to gather my photos up. Basically, I guess I have seen and experienced the results for myself...and like I said, I have a small 1.5inch tattoo. When I see others on here, especially with really nice tattoos, I get really concerned for them....b/c the lasering process is no small task. Not only is there no guarantee of removal, it's very painful, costly, and in my opinion, scars people with a ghost of their former tattoo. It's also VERY emotionally taxing. I have been having a rough time dealing with occasional headaches and just weird stuff. I fear that the release of the ink toxins may be playing a role in this. It's all around just not cool. I love my other tattoo, and I do want more, but I decided on removal for this little one b/c it is on my wrist and it's poorly done. Otherwise, laser would never be in my life. I guess I just wish the first place I went to for treatment (and yes there are MANY clinics like this), would have been honest and upfront with me. In my opinion, they withheld information and "sold" their services to get my money, not really being upfront with me about the true pain, cost, time, etc. I know for a fact that many treatment centers are doing this, just to get paid. It's sad really. You don't know until you experience it yourself, but then it's too late. My doctor now is very upfront and honest, and if you do seek removal please go to a Doctor who is skilled. I personally think your tatt is sweet and I wouldn't laser it if I were you. Stay tuned for my review.
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October 15, 2013
Also, I meant to tell you friend to friend....I understand cultural/social pressure. I have actually been working through some of those thoughts myself since this whole process began, bc my life has changed a lot in the last 2 years (career, relocation). What it boils down to after the fact: we are who we are. We are all different and that's what makes us unique. There is a lot of stigma to get people to fit this "mold", but it creates paranoia and regret of living one's life the way the want, bc they are afraid to be different Just be yourself and love yourself, regardless of what decision you make. A tattoo, at least for me, is a keepsake of time and a piece of me. And that is beautiful.
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October 15, 2013
You talk some real sense, you really do. I just had a moment in my bathroom where I just stared at this monster I've created on my arm. Part of my daily struggle is the not knowing. I hate not knowing if this brown shadow will be permanent once this majority of the ink has moved on. I hate spending 90% of my waking day thinking about this tattoo. I hate knowing I've got myself in to this mess. Sorry, just on a bit of a downer this week it seems :(
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October 15, 2013
Hello oneTime2many, have u ever think about like get couple treatment and then have a nice cover up?
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October 15, 2013
Same here, actually every time I watch my bands' concert, I felt super powerful inside, but every time I think I am going to be a father or something, and what my daughter or son is going to think about me, this emotion is killing me. I cannot sleep yesterday actually.
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October 15, 2013
Hey Wilks...sorry, I knew posting my doubts and experience would possibly have brought a few people down who are undergoing treatment...it always sucks a few sessions in, as you (I) keep waiting for "that next treatment" when the tattoo will be gone. In fact, I didn't even start documenting my removal (in terms of pics or anything) until after my 5th treatment. I was SO assured by the consultant at my 1st clinic that it would be removed after 6 sessions max that I just kept trekking through. It wasn't until after my 5th-6th session when I realized that the progress was dwindling. That wouldn't have bothered me so much really...the pain of the laser sucks but it is tolerable. What bothered me the most was that my skin kept getting more irritated and I feel like I now have some permanent hyperpigmentation. Also, the constant worry and lack of expected fading really took a toll on me emotionally. I also now got kinda sluggish and headachy for a few weeks+ after each session, and I never experienced this in my life before. I do believe it is related to the trauma of the laser and the toxins from the ink. I guess I just know that we can only really understand something AFTER we have gone through it. Had I known then what I know now, I would have probably just gotten a cover up, or at least sought out a real Doctor from the get-go, not a technician. I decided that I am going to start a review on here to help myself, and possibly help others. Perusing this website has helped me a lot and I hope that I can do the same to someone else. You need to stay strong and know you are not alone here. Take care of your body, exercise, drink plenty of water, and make sure your clinic is treating you right. My 1st one wasn't, but b/c I purchased a package deal upfront, I trapped myself. I'll go more into detail in my review. I sincerely hope you stay positive and don't lose yrself over this! There is always an alternate, whether it be getting a cover up or taking all the time you need in b/w each session.
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October 15, 2013
Yea, I really wanted it gone b/c it's on my wrist, and the design was a spiral so a cover up would have to be pretty dense. But, I'm really considering it now b/c it has faded a lot. I have to wait another 4-6months though to let my skin heal...but yes, a cover up is something I am definitely considering.
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October 15, 2013
Hey Chengwu, I just want you to know I am not trying to talk you out of laser treatment...I just know that it has been really hard for me, and mine was so small. When I look at my one tattoo that I love, it makes me strong, as it was and is for me. Yes, maybe others do not agree with tattoos, but it is for me, it is who I am and represents me. I used to worry, like you, about what other people thought but now I just want to be happy. And i really do like tattoos. The whole tattoo stigma is overrated in my opinion. I understand getting bad ink and wanting to get it removed, but a tattoo by a good artist is something beautiful. If I knew the laser was guaranteed 100%, I would say go for it. I just have my doubts. I am going to post a review on here w/ pics so please stop in.
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October 16, 2013

Look forward to your review oneTime2many, thank you for providing support to all the members in the forum :) 

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October 16, 2013
Thanks, it should be up in the next day or so :)
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October 16, 2013
Hey oneTime2many - don't be sorry, one thing I'm learning rapidly with this whole experience is to make sure you maintain realistic expectations throughout the entire process. It's such a bag of mixed emotions! I was down before I started the treatment (when I made the realisation that I wanted it removed) because I knew it would likely be at least a year to put things right. Now I've started treatment my spirits have lifted slightly as I can begin to see things happening, but are tainted by the fact that it (I feel) could be going better (in terms of skin pigment change etc). I know I probably have at least another 6 months before this thing has faded down significantly, and I worry what'll be left. Some days I wonder about the excision route - as I know the pigment would literally be lifted out - then I remind myself how costly it would be and again, it would still be a long term thing as more than one excision would be needed. When I take a step back and think about it it seems very extreme. Most doctors on here don't advocate it (versus laser) but I've read the odd account that does make it sound appealing. Is it something you've ever considered?
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October 16, 2013
Hey Wilks--I do have to say that if you give yourself time, all things will heal. I have noticed that the longer I waited b/w sessions, the more the redness would go down and even the fading. I guess I am just kinda pissed that A LOT of places out there are not upfront w/ people seeking treatment...like they say "oh yeah 2 months". That's bs in my opinion. They really should be saying 3-5 mo intervals. You save a ton of money, the ink still fades, and your skin has time to heal. Also, I just wish the people using these lasers were more controlled by the health department....it's just such a grey area...there are so many variables in tatt removal and I think anyone who operates the laser should be very skilled to know what to look for and give/have realistic expectations, and unfortunately not many are (from my experience). Just my opinion though..there are some very skilled Doctors/technicians out there, and if you found one, you are lucky. I have considered excision, but my wrist is a very tender area. It is an option for some, but not for me. It is timely though too and if larger, will take multiple sessions. I personally would rather have a tattoo cover up if need be.
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October 16, 2013
All very true. Part of the difficulty is that pretty much all of us go in to this completely and utterly in the hands of the technicians. Sure, we can look in to the basics and inform ourselves about the potential side effects etc but when it comes down to the actual treatment - the fluences, the spot size settings etc - we have to completely put our trust in them! You're right about the regulation thing, it is worrying. There are some horror stories floating about where you just know some places are in it for the cash. Once you've skimmed over that small print and signed that waiver, bam, you've got no real options should things go belly up (legally speaking). I think the waiting between sessions is open to debate. I think 6 weeks should be the bare minimum to ensure the surface is healed properly, but after that it's difficult to determine how much more fading will occur. There are so many variables involved. Someone with a really active, healthy immune system who exercises a lot might encourage the vast majority of fragmented ink particles to be moved on in the first few weeks after treatment. Someone who perhaps isn't so healthy and exercises less might experience a much slower dispersal of those particles small enough to be moved on. It's really down to the individual, the tattoo, the location, their lifestyle etc. Also, someone removing a discreet tattoo (say on their back) might be happy to wait 4 months in between sessions, whereas someone with a tattoo that's less discreet might not want to wait for that long, especially if they're pretty distressed about the whole thing. The money thing is a killer though. It's all about getting the balance right!
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October 16, 2013
Hey Wilks, you have some points there. Everyone is different and heals diff...and every tattoo is different. There are many variables. I just know that after seeking consults with at least 5 diff places, it's like they all treat every removal the same: laser it, bandage it and go. They never really discuss the physics behind it (for your particular variables) and sometimes I think they have no idea with the settings! I even went in for a test spot somewhere else and after like 2 seconds, the laser was creating immediate pinpoint bleeding on my UNinked skin! I told her stop and just left that place. It was terrible!!! they said it was normal, she even had her manager come in to reassure me...but the laser is not supposed to react to uninked skin! I called the machine's manufacturer and he said that the tech should not be practicing. It's all sad really. Like, if I didn't know this BY MYSELF, I would have gotten terrible treatment. I do think removal is a viable option, but b/c of all of the variables of the tatt, (the ink, the size, the depth, the location, the application, etc) and all of the variables of the person (skin color, skin type, diet, health, healing response, etc) this process should not be taken lightly. And I guess that is why I would advise some people to rethink the laser...b/c they may have some unfavorable variables which could most likely produce results that are not expected/favorable, and then couple that with a possible poor technician...it's just so risky.
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October 16, 2013

Awesome, look forward to it!