Mum of 2 Reinventing Herself - Denver, CO

Have been lurking for about a year and have gone from looking at lower body lift to "no I will bust my butt with weights" to "hmmm..... maybe a little help is ok". I have lost about 100 pounds over 3 years and I am nearing the end of the weight loss portion of my journey. I have 31 pounds to go and whilst I think I am rocking it up top (expect for new girls), from the belly button below, I need help. It seems not matter how clean I eat or how much I workout I can't get rid of the flap under my belly button or the get the cellulite and skin in legs to do anything but hang. I am now at the point of thinking that a MM might be a viable option and it is ok. I have had to come to terms with doing it is not cheating and I sort of deserve it. I have worked my butt off trying to change my lifestyle and my health but feeling like I still have a huge mountain to climb because of these areas I loathe. I have just started researching and decided that next month is the month that I start doing consults. I am going to start so I can see if the work as much as I think or will I be pleasantly surprised that really it is small potatoes. I also have started savings as the thought of financing scares me and I would much rather now that once I am done, the money is too, but we will see ;-)

So I am hoping that from what I have been reading that recovery will be so much easier now that I am so healthy. I exercise 6 days a week and eat probably 95-97% clean and even my junk food is sort of clean as we are foodies and would much rather spend money on good quality ingredients than junk.

I am so looking forward to completing this journey and being the whole new me that I have worked so hard for.

As I mentioned in an earlier post, I have sort of ran the gamete in thoughts on surgery. I have followed blogs of both surgical and non surgical people and while I thought I could so do it without surgery, I don't have hours and hours a day to spend in the gym with a trainer and I am a good 10 years older so I am sure that my time doing it would be worse.

I knew I would always have the "girls" done but it was only whilst we were looking for wish pics for that, that I have decided a mommy makeover. I am now a million percent sure I want it done however now husband is like "maybe we should see what can be done with exercise?" What? I know that I have another 30 pounds to go and I know that will be a huge difference but I think that areas like my thighs and tummy will always need some major help. I kept telling him that I can lose in specific areas. Yes I can tone but I would probably have fat and skin over the toned muscles. I told him we got to a trainer of course they are going to say they can do it, just like a surgeon would say the same. I don't know an independent party that would give you a good opinion.

I just want to start saving and know that that chapter is upcoming with a date. I am sort of over this old flabby body. It reminds me of the bad choices I made and how bloody hard it was to correct it at this age.

So we have started the "surgery fund". I am really wanting to save at least 75% of it so I I don't have the moneitary worries of paying it off over my head. I feel like I have been on this journey so long I sort want to mentally close the book.

Also being the anal retentive list junkie I am I have done my list of questions for the PS at consults and also started making a list of supplies with figures so I can also save for them.

While I am saving for the higher end of figures that I have seen in the Denver market, I am trying to stay motivated and know that once I am at goal I can start consults and schedule this thing. It is hard to stay focused now and not just say "screw it just do one thing at a time and start now" but I know that even though it is only 30 pounds, if I could loose more in the tummy/bum/saddle bags, it only helps me have to pay for less to be done.