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I was called by my PS office and they are waiving all the fee's! Thank goodness. I'm scheduled for my revision for September... now time to get the healthiest I've ever been.

I finally had the courage to go in for my 6mo checkup. I was so nervous I cancelled my appointment 2x. I’ve had such bad anxiety about this…. last week I was 7mo post op. They compared before and after pictures and all I see is my scar. It’s so ugly… and huge. I have the worst belly button ever, no skin only scar from my belly button to my pubic area. I feel like Frankenstein. Honestly I’ve been fighting depression since my surgery and the only thing that has helped hold on his my Dr telling me “Don’t worry, we will see you though this till the end”. My worst fear is having to go through this again. I was advised a mini tummy tuck with a belly button revision was recommended to fix everything. I will be left with a small vertical scar. The end of the summer would be a great time to complete the procedure. They called me today and said they will waive the surgeons fee’s however I have to cover everything else…. $2500. I was floored. After everything I have paid… still paying I can’t imagine having to dish out more money. From the wound vac to missing work (commission based) this is costing me more money!?! I didn’t go cheap when choosing PS, my health was worth paying more but I’m so upset right now. More money… plus the fear of doing this all over again. I just don’t know what I’m going to do. I figured I would have to pay something for the revision maybe $500 tops. Maybe if they had prepared me I wouldn’t be so upset. I really thought they would take care of it all. When I questioned I was told there is always a risk when having these types of surgeries. Well I didn’t even know about this one…. still have to tell my husband.

So I took some pics today. I'm horrible at taking them! They don't do me any justice. I'm feeling amazing. My journey has been tough and I am so grateful and thankful for all the support I received on here. It's only been 4mo! I'm really looking forward to working out and maintaining my new body. I take my health so much more serious now. I'm eating healthy and maintaining a healthy lifestyle. If I can help anyone going through this please let me. It's tough for sure. Happy Sunday.