I have gone into a very deep depression as a result of my rhinoplasty surgeries. I have chosen to write this review as I hope some of you have some experience which might help my situation, so here goes:
I have had a bump shaven down a year ago in local anesthesia, it took about 10 minutes, and I healed within a week - no swelling, no nothing because it was such a minor thing.
Unfortunately I developed a cartilage graft in the middle of my bridge and a bump in the same spot as before.
A year later I was sure it couldn't be worse, so I booked an appointment with a new doctor to fix my nose. This was a bigger procedure as he wanted to thin my nose-bridge and take a little of my tip.
The surgery went fine and so far it has been two weeks since surgery, and one week exactly since I had my cast removed. I am very scared as I have been told the nose looks 80 pct of what the final result will look like at this point, and I am horrified.
When the cast was removed I LOVED my nose, I even spoke to my boyfriend about writing my surgeon a "thank you for saving my self-esteem" card and buying him some fine wine.
But the day the cast was removed I awoke to a very crooked and blue nose. The skin on the right side of the nasal bridge had "sunken" in - which scare me as I haven't heard of this issue ANYWHERE. It makes my nose look beyond crooked and it has turned purple-ish at the spot.
I am horrified as I have heard the swelling only goes down further from now on, and now after a week has passed nothing has really changed. I have called the hospital and I am seeing my surgeon tomorrow, but I don't see how this can be fixed. I know about restylane and such, but I don't want to inject my face every 6 months for the rest of my life!
I look at it all day long and think the bone has actually been rasped down more in one side than the other (just a little) and this has left this huge hollow, sunken in side. So I am not sure injecting something would even fix the problem.
It is not possible just to rasp the other side to make them look the same, as the bridge of my nose already have been made super thin. I do like my new nose from the side, but from the front it just looks awful and I don't think I can go though another failure, but at the same time I cannot live like this.
I have isolated myself completely, and I only talk to my boyfriend. I get anxiety attacks whenever I go outside and feel like I am going to faint or throw up. I have considered going away to a place where no one knows me, because confronting people is like a stab in the chest. I am ashamed because I caused this myself - people only seem to feel compassion when someone have surgery because they have to - I feel they laugh at my vanity, that it is my own fault.
I am living in a nightmare and I cannot wake up, ever. I keep taking pictures of myself in hope it has magically changed in five minutes but it just makes me depressed, so depressed I have had thought about killing myself.
I am afraid I won't ever feel beautiful again..
Please if someone know something which can be done, let me know.