Lip lift

It’s been several years since my surgery and my life has changed so much, I’ve accepted the good and bad but realizing how my social life fundamentally changed after my lip lift. I stopped dating and stop socializing, I refused to let anyone into my life because of the shame of how I looked. When people talk to me I try to smile to try to hide my scars but I always notice their eyes tracing my face and eventually realizing that something is wrong. My scars are permanent and noticeable. The scars never healed beautiful as I thought they would. I rushed into a surgery based on just a few reviews here and one being from another black woman who healed better. I regret everything about this surgery. The side of my nose is full disfigured and the scar under my nose large. My faced changed and not for the better, I realized how beautiful my face was and that no one except me cares about a little extra skin, my lip shaped changed. I absolutely hate looking at myself in the mirror.

So, apparently, my body doesn't like stickers being placed on the right corner of my nose. Two of the three blue stitches have since come out. Dr. M did warn me before I left FL, that I shouldn't be surprised if they "spit".
I texted Dr. Mascaro yesterday to update him about things, and he was reassuring, kind, caring and prescribed me 7-days of antibiotics. He said that they're multiple anchor sutures in place, so nothing is going to suddenly open up. He said it's not uncommon for things like this to happen around the corners of the nose, especially if there is a nice crease there.
Right now I just have to wait and allow things to heal naturally and then figure out what to do in a month with I see him again for my steroid injection.
I'm a bit bummed out that I didn't have the flawless healing, like I had hoped, but I'm thankful that Dr. M is my surgeon. His attitude has remained exactly the same since our first consult. When I texted him yesterday, he responded back within 15 mins and then proceeded to answer all my concerns. THAT is the sort of doctor you want. Reachable. The kind who will be there if and when complications arise. No voicemails, or waiting all day for a response. He made it very clear that he cares about the scar. He really does want you to have the best possible results, so I know that we'll figure it things out should this setback cause additional scarring. Worst-case scenario, I have a second lip lift, but I highly doubt we'll even get to that point.

So, Sunday morning I noticed a little white fluid build-up on both the corners of my nose. The right side of my nose had a little bit more than the left. I grabbed my makeup mirror and realized that the hair-strand-like clear sutures were loose and the area was slightly exposed. I started to worry, but I got in contact with Dr. M and I sent him over some photos, and he said it wasn't bad enough that he would need to see me any sooner. He told me to keep my ointment on it, and don't add any stress to the area.
I flew down Monday night and went for my visit Tuesday morning. Dr. M removed the sutures, and we discussed what to do about the corner of my nose. He gave me a couple options. 1) Place some dissolvable sutures, but the chance for scarring is higher. 2) Leave the area alone and allow my body to heal naturally... a small chance for scarring, or place 2-3 little stitches and have them removed locally. This would give me the best chance of having no scar. I decided to have him place some new stitches -- He placed 3 in total.
To be honest, I have no clue what happened over the weekend. I was literally eating soup with a fork because they prohibit you from using spoons for a few days after the procedure. Even when I laughed with someone, I would fake laugh with a frozen mouth, because I knew I couldn't make any real expressions. I also didn't use a toothbrush, as they also warn you against that too.
I was careful, but apparently not careful enough. Maybe the traveling back home just put too much stress on the area. POP, they went, lol. I do remember when I was on the OR table, Dr. M said that my skin was "very thick". He said this twice, so maybe I just needed a little more reinforcement. Perhaps 2-3 extra sutures would have kept things together. Who knows!
Anyway, I still very pleased with my results and I'm not worried about the small setback. I'm going to have surgery on my nose and my nostrils at the end of the year, so even if a little scar creeps up, it's going to be cut out later when my nose is corrected.