Life Changer but Don't Want to Be Crippled. Decatur, TX

It's been a very long road but worth every ER visit and doctor visits, I'm still dealing with chronic pain daily and could not even imagine caring around that extra 187 pounds that I had on me I would be in my bed unable to move. After having the sleeve done it took a very long time to adjust my mind set on not eating like I use to, my stomach was basically brand new and everything I put in either like it or did not it's been rough because before I made my decision on the sleeve surgery I was caring around so much weight I never thought I would ever be this skinny I don't really think of it much other than I'm happy I don't weigh close to 300 pounds. I'm down to 115 pounds I have kept my weight there in between 115 to 120 size 1 to 3 in clothes. I would say that I have learned a lot about my mindset they way I use to look at food compare to they way I look at it today. I use to think so non stop on what my me as long was going to be and shoved so much in. I have learned not to worship food only eat when I feel hungry and several small meals.

It has now been one year since my sleeve has been done, I'm down to 115 pounds. I've never been this tiny I'm wearing a size 1 to 3 in clothes, I have tried to gain alittle weight but seems like impossible. I'm very happy the weight is off I could not image caring that weight of the 167 pounds lost that almost two people. My health is still bad with dealing with ongoing chronic pain and my back pain is still the same after now having a 2nd open back surgery that happen in July this year, my doctor said that he found 9 things wrong with me from the first surgery doctor and it was very important that I had my surgery for I was looking at being paralyzed and possible still face that.
Its been hard and everyone ask if I'm enjoying my weight loss haven't been able too much because of the pain I deal with my mind is on other things, it only comes to me when I put on my clothes I used to wear and I can't wear them anymore swallow me whole. I have attached a few pictures of my weight loss, the outside looks good but the inside is in a lot of pain.

I always here you look like nothing is wrong with you because I have been successful with my sleeve surgery, but I'm lucky to even be standing, and it is uncertain the stableness of what is inside me. This photo was taken coming back from church Sunday its hard to whip the pain off the face to smile wanted to share.