Life Changer but Don't Want to Be Crippled. Decatur, TX

I will start by introducing myself I'm a 44 year old woman that found myself standing at work and feeling a awful pain in my lower back hip area. This resulted in to seeing a spine specialist who order an MRI. Scan to notice I had a huge tumor crushing into my spine. I had open back surgery in March of this year which when the doctor started he told my husband and parents that my number L-5 crumble in his hands nothing there. He fused the L-4 to L-3 and took bone marrow spray. When I woke up from surgery I immediately knew something was wrong with my left leg. Since this I now have major nerve damage to my left leg and I'm in worse pain now more than before surgery. Chronic pain every day every minute. I went got a second opinion but was told there is nothing they can do for me. I felt hopeless feeling that I'm going to be crippled if this continues. This is when on my own doing thought of weight surgery. I figured I have lost 45 pounds since surgery if I lost 70 more this would benefit my back ,lifting the weight of my spine. When I meet with my weight doctor he agreed this would help me. I have been attending my office visits and weigh in for insurance request been a long journey. And just received word that I'm scheduled for surgery this Friday. I am very nervous anxiety always happens the what ifs.. before being cut on or open up. But I did have a nuclear stress test done in hospital that was intense because I couldn't exercise I was giving iv in my arms to induced like I was climbing mountain to check my heart if i could handle surgery also require before surgery. I was very sick from the iv meds. the next day as it left my body. I have already stop my food intake since Monday when I received call but I've been real sick because I take pain management for my chronic back issues and no food on my stomach not been fun. I will keep you posted as days get closer and surgery.

It's been 6 days and I'm still having trouble swallowing water and my pills for chronic pain. It hurts really bad. I've been able to have a popsicle but takes me 30 minutes to consume. Since weight on lady Thursday my weight was 201 pounds I'm 192 as of today. I haven't been able to get to this weight before even being on phentermine. Before only to 199. I'm going try to drink more sips of water today it's just very hurtful feel it all the way down. My back issues and leg is not helping I'm trying to stay ahead of pain but it's like putting a lot marbles in a bag that is empty.