No more mosquito bites
I have always been small breasted. I was a late...
I have always been small breasted. I was a late bloomer and didn't get my period until age 14. While small, my breasts were lovely in shape. The rest of me was slender and a bit petite - I'm 5feet 4 inches tall. I definitely wanted to have larger breasts when I was a teen, and in my early 20's, but accepted them as they were. In spite of the fact that my mother and sister were full-breasted D-cup women, I was happy with my shape and slightly less than A-cup size. Fast forward 30 years plus... including a 10-pound baby, breast-fed for 14 months, a maximum weight of 170 pounds prior to birth, loss of 45 pounds, then gaining over the years to 164 pounds - yikes!
Two years ago I realized I had to take back control over my body and lose the weight and get fit. I lost 40 pounds in one year and gained a huge amount of strength and fitness. My dress size dropped from 12/14 to 2/4. I now wear size 4 jeans. My body fat percentage fell from 36% to 18%. My breasts became deflated, wrinkled bags. It's hard to type that, but it is true. I tried to talk myself into accepting this as a badge of motherhood, having brought a beautiful, healthy baby into the world (now a teenager, 5'9" tall).But , dammit, I want to look as good as I feel, and I want to feel sexy like I did when my breasts were a C-cup during pregnancy and nursing, and I want to look normal in a swimsuit. I want a B-cup, so I am not asking for much, just want to proportionate for my 5'4", 123 pound frame, and not be flat as a board with shriveled bags. I'm turning 50 this year, so this BA will complete my transformation into feeling as fabulous as I am fit!
I understand there are risks and no guarantees. This site has been so helpful with helping me see all sides to the BA, both for and against it. I was considering a tummy tuck too, as my tummy is saggy and wrinkly. But I don't feel as strongly about fixing my tummy at this time. The BA seems to me to be reasonable for my body and frame of mind.
These past several weeks since I decided to pull the trigger, I have had plenty of ups and downs. Sometimes my mind is screaming at me, "are you crazy"? I feel great, I'm super healthy and fit, and want my breasts to be fuller and more beautiful. I am so inspired by many of the courageous stories I see on this forum and hope to help others with their journey to self-fulfillment.
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Aug 29, 2012, the day before surgery. I took care...
I took care of many tasks at work and am prepared to take off Thurs, Fri, and Tues (Monday is a holiday). I was a mess the past 2 weeks, with self doubt and worries about what the hell was I thinking to have implants. The pain is scary and the possibility of revision is super scary. The reviews I read of easy healing are from young women. Then I look at my brests and know I want to enhance them, my doctor is excellent, the facility is accredited. I read others reviews and realize everyone is different. I am believing in my doctor and the experience of many on this site with excellent outcomes. Now I am calm and looking forward to taking the leap.
The last stressor was how to tell my DD. She is prone to telling friends a lot of detail of things her parents do. I feard this appearing on FB so i chose to wait till now to tell her. This evening I told my DD I needed to talk to her about a private family matter; I had her undivided attention. I told her I was having surgery tomorrow. DD: (very concerned) what for? Me: a very personal female issue that I did not want disclosed outside our family. DD: are you getting your tubes tied? Me: no, but it is related to my weight loss and fixing a part of me that suffered from weight gains during pregnancy and then the past 10 years. DD: I understand that some things are private...I might tell my friends about the funny outfits you wore in the 80's... Me: I'm getting my breasts fixed. And I want my tummy fixed but will wait on that to see if the loose skin will tighten up in a year. DD: oh, that's great mom! I understand. What can I do to help? Is this a serious surgery? Will you be okay? Is it dangerous? Me: it has risks but I have a very good doctor, great health, and am very fit. I should be fine in a couple days. DD: mom, of course I understand why you want this private. Me: (tears and hugs)
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Aug 30, 2012. Day of surgery Last night I slept...
Last night I slept very well. I misunderstood the medication directions and took a muscle relaxant last night...I was thinking the "evening of surgery" meant the night before. FML. DH drove me to the surgery center for the 10:00 am time, with sugery scheduled for 11:00am. Super nervous and excited. In the exam room, I told the anesthesiast nurse about my taking the pill last night; she said it was probably okay but would check with the doctor to make sure. She came back and said it was not a problem, then laughingly asked me if I slept well. Why, yes, I slept better than I have the past two weeks!! DH was called into the exam room and he joked with the nurses, and than the doctor. So funny, and I was laughing so hard! My doctor has a great sense of humor! After I was marked up, I was taken to the OR. After laying down on warmed blankets and getting an IV put in, the anesth nurse gave me a little cocktail to relax me. A little more banter and joking, then next thing I knew I was waking up in a haze. I asked if the surgery was done yet... Yes and it went very well. LOL, I said "I'm alive!" Nurses joked back, of course and we haven't lost a patient yet! After a while, they dressed me. I had worn a soft tee shirt to the center and had brought a button front shirt which I forgot to put in the surgical bag. So I had to have the pullover tee put on but my arms are flexible and it was no problem.
Surprisingly I felt fairly good except a bit of stiffness in my pecs. It just felt as if I'd done a really hard upper body workout in the weight room. I felt fairly groggy all the rear of the day. DH set up the recliner for me and I watched tv and napped. My mouth was super dry. Drank lots of water and took the oxy with saltines. The saltines were extremely hard to chew and swallow, so I switched to watermelon cubes...much much better.
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Thanks for sharing your story.
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Hello bloom, what a great story! I too suffered for many years with "mosquito bites" and my self esteem suffered terribly! Having a BA has changed my life. I finally feel like a curvy, Real sexxy" woman!!! How many cc's did you get/saline or silicone/mod or HP? Hope your new ta ta's as beautiful as you dreamed they would be. Any piks to share?? would love to see the results! take care :))
What a well written story! Thank you for sharing your journey with us. It really sounds like you've thought this through. Do you know what sort of implants you're going with yet?