30 - Rhinoplasty & Septoplasty & Turbinate Construction - Darien, CT

Sighhhhh, I'm so hesitant to post on this site....weird that I'm ashamed to claim my big nose even though I've decided I want a nose job? I'm embarrassed to even acknowledge this thing on my face. Ha ha! Oh life. So far I have gotten a consultation and I feel really good bout the procedure recovery time, the doctor, and how much it is going to change both my aesthetics and functions of my nose. I have really bad allergies and sinus are a nightmare constantly. My doctor said with surgery he could help me to breathe better while fixing the bump and tip of my nose. My insurance covered part of it but my deductible was $1200 dollars so the 5,000 quoted for cosmetic and however much the rest would have been is now $1200. I don't think that's bad because I have my pre op appointment with pictures and such, the surgery, follow up day after, then week after, then three months later! That's a lot!

I've battled the idea of getting rhinoplasty since I was a teenager. BUT I was fighting giving into what society thought my perception of pretty should be and blah blah blah... Long story short I really really wanted to like my nose. But it was always a struggle. Then about four years ago I was jumped and punched in my face which made my nose crooked, on top of being large. It's just horrendous. So since then, it's really escalated to hating certain pictures, trying to put make up on to make it look smaller, trying to always dress trendy to take away from my face. I'm becoming quite obsessed. And although I still want to hold individual beauty dear to me, I think it's time to cross the line. Eeeeek! I hope if I post pictures, no one makes fun if how ugly it is, but I am a grown woman so I should be able to take it ;)

Someone tell me they have a similar nose and are happy with the results!!! :)

I just wanted to reach out to the community to see how you cope with life before surgery but after deciding on the procedure? To be specific to what I'm going through....today (on my one day off on six days= Very enticipated) I went to the mall to buy a dress. Ladada I go in the dressing room and it's a three sided mirror! I had to look at my nose for the first time in a while from all angles without any warning. Honestly, I was so upset. It seems for me that now that I've decided I'm getting the surgery and it's set to go (a couple months from now) - I've just been totally disgusted with looking at myself. Have other people gone through this, and if so how do you get yourself out of it? I felt upset that I looked like that and was pissed I couldn't already have had the surgery. I felt ugly and I hate that feeling. Ruined my afternoon.

I know for one, that I'm not hesitant at all to go forward. I know some are on the fence about wanting surgery but I am 100 percent convinced that I have to have this surgery in order to fix this grossly disproportionate thing on my body.

I'm trying to tell myself that it's fine, I'm doing something about it. But the other anxiety driven and insecure side is telling me to stay inside and wear big sunasses until it's go time.

If you've gone through something similar, can you share how you try to jump back?

Thanks :)

Ahhh! I will be in surgery in 20 hours!

I have all the normal feelings of excitement and anxiety and anticipation, it's crazy! When I talk about what I am expecting post op to people, I feel like I'm talking about someone else. That hasn't quite sunken in that I will be in a lot of pain, I think I'm blinded by the thought of a smaller nose! haha

I have a little storage bin of all the goodies I'll need post op, the only thing I didn't get was Arnica. What are people's thoughts on that? But I have my humidifier, travel pillow, antibiotics, vicodin, ice packs, throat losengers, facial cleansing wipes, chapstick, tissues, straws. I also made some jello, pudding, applesauce, protein shakes, juices, italian ice ( I work in a hospital ;) ) - I'm trying to think of all the things we do for the pre surgery patients. I know I have to keep my head elevated and ice first and foremost! Ooo I am so excited!

Thank you to those who have supported me through this journey, it's been sometimes difficult to make the journey from when I decided I would have the surgery until now. So many different feelings about whether I should go through it, what it means to me in terms of vanity, having open conversations about vulnerability and how much I wanted this change, its just been a whirlwind. But I'm so excited to be going through with it. To know that I researched, saved my money, and made a decision to change something I did not like.

Here's to hoping I don't look like Michael Jackson!