for real! - Dallas, TX

Exactly two weeks from today I will be (by choice, may I add) undergoing a full Mommy Makeover. I will be having a Tummy Tuck, Breast Lift, and Lipo to the flanks and back. It's impossible to try to explain the endless amount of different emotions I am going through. I am scared, happy, excited, anxious and fearful.....in a nutshell, I am FREAKING OUT! I keep fighting off the many thoughts that go through my head everyday trying to get me to back down from going thru with this surgery. And it doesn't help that I am a Director for a women's Fashion, Beauty and Health Company, so I get the endless amount of comments from hundreds of women both Good and Bad but at times even Ugly. Today's comment from one very wealthy, trendy and happening Fashion Editor was, and I quote her, "Honey, it's not a good sign to be doing this surgery this year, when you have lost both your Fiance and Father. " Lol, yes she is correct in the fact that 2014 has not been a Lucky year for me. But I am of the mind set that: IF NOT NOW, WHEN? I waited far too long to do this for myself. So I Invite you to follow me on this Journey of mine where I will be very detailed, very honest and very graphic. I will post pictures as well as videos and I will also be doing a lengthy video diary that I am doing for my company since so many of our clients (and they are all women) want to know the ins and out of this experience. Hopefully it can help a lot of women thinking of having this type of surgery done. Stay tuned.

One week from today I will be on the flat side. The vast emotions that are raging through me are so intense that I cant even describe them. Lucky for me that my period decided to come today. I am glad it did because it would of made things worse if I had to deal with my period on top of healing from my surgery. In the next few days I will be posting the before pictures.

It's really frustrating that the doctors are always saying that we should be as close to our ideal weight as possible before surgery. However, that seems to be such an unrealistic thing to achieve. It seems, at least for me, that as much as I tried to lose wight, the stress of thinking about this sugery only made me gain weight. No matter how hard I tried to eat well and excerse, the scale would not move downward. If anything, I actually gained weight. I am at the heaviest I have ever been. I am 30lbs over my ideal weight. ugh!!