Coping with Tattoo Regret and Removal of Dense, Multicolored Tattoo - Dallas, TX

I got this horrendous tattoo Jan of 2013 for my birthday. My brother had just passed away so I was feeling very vulnerable. My thinking was "I need to live life to the fullest and do what I want because I may die tomorrow." Well I'm still alive and I have a tattoo that I absolutely hate! I was excited about it when I first got it but that feeling quickly diminished after about a month. I became very depressed like many of you on here. I couldn't sleep, eat and the thought of the tattoo consumed me. My poor husband tried his best to make me feel better but I just couldn't shake it off. He suggested that I should go see a therapist because I felt so horrible. I have to say that after meeting with the therapist, I was able to accept my mistake and move on. I still regret my tattoo and want to remove it badly but I've come to realize that it is what it is. After getting some mental help and after finding this site, I finally decided to start the removal process. I went to Dr. Tattoff (Dallas) and was quoted at 13 sessions but I am sure I will need more as my tattoo is so dense and has lots of different colors. I also have some raised lines from tattoo placement. I had my first session in June 2013. The numbing cream was placed on 45 min before my treatment and it still hurt but it was over pretty quickly. I followed their after care instructions of keeping the area elevated and iced immediately after treatment. Once healed I used aquaphor and Aloecort (a product they sell). Days following I developed small blisters but they healed quickly. My next treatment was to be in August but I had to cancel as I found out I was pregnant in July! Talk about a major plot twist!! Obviously I have not had any treatments since the first and probably will not resume until after I have my baby and once I stop breastfeeding. What has been interesting is that after taking a break and after one treatment , I have noticed a little fading in the red and black colors. There is minor breakup in some of the lines of the tattoo but not much. I have been following up on everyone's reviews and feel there is some hope for me. While on break from tattoo removal, I am looking into treating the raised lines in my tattoo with silicone sheets and scar gels but my OB said that I should wait until after I have my baby. I also am thinking of looking into getting a consultation for Picosure as I have lots of green and some blues in my tattoo. I guess the silver lining in this whole experience has been the fact that I will be having a baby soon and am sure he will be much more of a priority than this tattoo! I think we all have something or someone in our lives that are much more important than these tattoos so let's try to focus our energy on them! Good luck to all of us!