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Scared?? A Lot to Say! - Dallas, TX
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Ok, I was approached to start a blog or my story,...
wanttobebOctober 22, 2013
$7,500
Ok, I was approached to start a blog or my story, I think because I have taken up too much room in the forum. I have read many of your reviews so I will try and follow somewhat of a format. First, I am 37 years old and have had implants for five years. I will start with the fact that I have silicone gels under the muscle, I believe 325cc and 300cc because my breast were asymmetrical. I totally got them for the WRONG reasons, I always liked to think I was a "nature girl" and always made fun of those people (I was young,now no longer so judgmental). I was recently married and knew that is what my husband liked and was desperate to make him want me. (I know sick, he wasn't even pushing for it). Needless to say he liked them but didn't fix our marriage AT ALL. I had serious doubts up until the day before surgery. But like someone on another forum said "I was like a dog with a bone" and made my decision and went along.
My initial intention was to get really small ones to end up as a large b or c, and lifted from breast-feeding. I was a small sagging c (doc said if I only got a lift they would look like little boys, the tissue was really mushy so I could see what she was saying) Of course like many of you I was talked into larger ones by the dr, (who by the way had huge ones) and the nurses. So I agreed (My fault, I know). They ended up a 34DD!!!! I wanted no more than a C. and the areola were misshaped (which were perfect before) and NUMB! Never the same. I hope to God I've grown in the years where I could stand up for myself if put in the same situation.
I never liked them, was ashamed, wore clothes to make them look smaller, felt they made me smaller, felt like they were holding me back from jogging and exercising comfortably, sleeping, moving my arms and bumping into my boobs and just being heavy and not feeling me, and having to buy large and extra large shirts and granny bras! And It's odd that I don't feel weird when others touch them because they just don't seem like a real part of my body. I would NEVER have less anyone touch them if they were real.
I am trying to work on myself, get closer to God. Start a new life. Become ME again, after being in a very controlling relationship. Go back to work, yoga...without having to by an xl scrub top (I'm a nurse or was a nurse in my past life)!
Also, I am having all of the symptoms you are all having, fogginess, FATIGUE, sleep apnea, neck pain, memory issues, depression. I really hope this is what is causing these issues or at least partly. It's worth a shot because it is pretty miserable. My doc said 85% some will go away but I'm not banking on it. Just hopeful. As least rule it out.
I'll stop here but boy do I have more to say! and hope someone is reading it and feeling like me and responds. Despite this seemingly sureness that I want them gone, I'm starting to get cold feet...as the date approaches.
Oh, Dr. Melmeds plans are to remove through areola, and do an internal lift and periolar lift (spelling wrong). He keeps emphasizing how much smaller they will be ( I guess so I know what I'm getting into) but they will look good.
I really hope some of you read and comment. I'll reread and edit in case it is too much.
My initial intention was to get really small ones to end up as a large b or c, and lifted from breast-feeding. I was a small sagging c (doc said if I only got a lift they would look like little boys, the tissue was really mushy so I could see what she was saying) Of course like many of you I was talked into larger ones by the dr, (who by the way had huge ones) and the nurses. So I agreed (My fault, I know). They ended up a 34DD!!!! I wanted no more than a C. and the areola were misshaped (which were perfect before) and NUMB! Never the same. I hope to God I've grown in the years where I could stand up for myself if put in the same situation.
I never liked them, was ashamed, wore clothes to make them look smaller, felt they made me smaller, felt like they were holding me back from jogging and exercising comfortably, sleeping, moving my arms and bumping into my boobs and just being heavy and not feeling me, and having to buy large and extra large shirts and granny bras! And It's odd that I don't feel weird when others touch them because they just don't seem like a real part of my body. I would NEVER have less anyone touch them if they were real.
I am trying to work on myself, get closer to God. Start a new life. Become ME again, after being in a very controlling relationship. Go back to work, yoga...without having to by an xl scrub top (I'm a nurse or was a nurse in my past life)!
Also, I am having all of the symptoms you are all having, fogginess, FATIGUE, sleep apnea, neck pain, memory issues, depression. I really hope this is what is causing these issues or at least partly. It's worth a shot because it is pretty miserable. My doc said 85% some will go away but I'm not banking on it. Just hopeful. As least rule it out.
I'll stop here but boy do I have more to say! and hope someone is reading it and feeling like me and responds. Despite this seemingly sureness that I want them gone, I'm starting to get cold feet...as the date approaches.
Oh, Dr. Melmeds plans are to remove through areola, and do an internal lift and periolar lift (spelling wrong). He keeps emphasizing how much smaller they will be ( I guess so I know what I'm getting into) but they will look good.
I really hope some of you read and comment. I'll reread and edit in case it is too much.
UPDATED FROM wanttobeb
11 days pre
Real personal but who cares I need HELP, 12 Days!! Wait??? What to tell teen son???
wanttobebOctober 24, 2013
Oh God. Getting really freaked out now. I called my dr. office to ask about compression bra's because many of you were talking about them. When I asked about it the nurse said, "Oh NO!!! That I need to go to wal-mart and get a cheap, soft, snap front bra that is one size up than current band size because they don't want them flattened out at all" and I'll be "living in them for three weeks". hhhhmmm.
Anyone elses Dr. say that? I'm really glad I called because I was about to drop a lot of money on a compression bra or two.
Whoa getting freaked out. I have to spend three nights in a hotel because Dallas is about 4 hours away from where I live. I'm not sure what to tell my 15 year old son, who will be staying home with his step-father. I don't think he knows about the implants, who knows? He was too young when I got them. We haven't been getting along too well (this is probably where the nerves and doubts are stemming from, the stress related to him if I really think about it). I guess I wonder if I just think everything in my life should be peaches and cream when I do something like this (Things weren't this bad when I scheduled the surgery). Will it ever be peaches and cream?
I feel i should tell him the truth in case anything were to happen and all that but I am so embarrassed and don't want him thinking less of me. I'm also worried about leaving him for three days with his step-father, my husband (none of us are getting along at the moment). But maybe it would be good for them to be away from me for a while. They seemed to be getting along better than me and any of them. Uuuuggggh I don't know. The dr. office said I could cancel up until a few days before which is nice but I don't know when I'll have everything set up: my husband off work, my mom off work to come with me, and I'm not working at the moment and Dr. Melmed isn't getting any younger. Any opinions ladies??? wait until things are all right in my world or just go for it? And any advice on how to phrase it with my son so he still respects me.
Anyone elses Dr. say that? I'm really glad I called because I was about to drop a lot of money on a compression bra or two.
Whoa getting freaked out. I have to spend three nights in a hotel because Dallas is about 4 hours away from where I live. I'm not sure what to tell my 15 year old son, who will be staying home with his step-father. I don't think he knows about the implants, who knows? He was too young when I got them. We haven't been getting along too well (this is probably where the nerves and doubts are stemming from, the stress related to him if I really think about it). I guess I wonder if I just think everything in my life should be peaches and cream when I do something like this (Things weren't this bad when I scheduled the surgery). Will it ever be peaches and cream?
I feel i should tell him the truth in case anything were to happen and all that but I am so embarrassed and don't want him thinking less of me. I'm also worried about leaving him for three days with his step-father, my husband (none of us are getting along at the moment). But maybe it would be good for them to be away from me for a while. They seemed to be getting along better than me and any of them. Uuuuggggh I don't know. The dr. office said I could cancel up until a few days before which is nice but I don't know when I'll have everything set up: my husband off work, my mom off work to come with me, and I'm not working at the moment and Dr. Melmed isn't getting any younger. Any opinions ladies??? wait until things are all right in my world or just go for it? And any advice on how to phrase it with my son so he still respects me.
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October 24, 2013
Yes, it is scary and I am already nervous two weeks away I have anxiety every day and can't wait to get these toxic balls out of my body and I really do think and have an intuition that we will both feel so much better after our surgeries. Absolutely fingers crossed and lots of prayers! xx
October 29, 2013
I don't think I'm getting all of these comments for some reason. I wish they were in order or something. Anyway, Thank you for the encouragement. I'm gonna go read your review now.
UPDATED FROM wanttobeb
11 days pre
Feeling the frantic need to lose 5 or 10 lbs before explant?!
wanttobebOctober 24, 2013
Hhhhmmmm 12 days left. Ok. just realized I've got to be PMS'ing. All of these emotions! I'm feeling a serious need to lose 5 or 10 pounds before the explant! If I'm gonna have tiny ones I don't want them smaller than my belly?? Especially cause no exercise for a while after. Ok. Exercise now for all of these emotions, may help!
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October 25, 2013
Diff docs are diff, with regard to what bra they put people in afterwards, whether they provide it or if you have to buy it. You can see what I woke up in after surgery...the half-torso bra with the velcro on the bottom. My doc just told me to go buy a front-clasp bra and that I'll be in that for a month, so I wouldn't worry there. Dr. Melmed has a good reputation...as long as you feel safe w him, I wouldn't worry there either. Another thing is some docs do drains, some don't. There is conflicting evidence to whether they help or not. So put your doc fears aside.
As to whether you should go through with it? You were adamant in your review that you've always hated them. Re-read your review and see if it feels true to you. If it does, I think you are making the right decision, and should go through with it.
Regarding your son, I don't think there's any need to tell him exactly what you're doing. Tell him you're going for a breast lift if you like. The danger is with the anesthesia and the surgery complications at this point--it has nothing to do with the implants. I haven't told anyone who didn't know I had implants that i'm doing an implant removal (including my boss, who i had to get permission to be off work). I just told them i'm having minor breast surgery.
Good luck. Be true to yourself. Find what feels right and do it!
All I can say is I LOVE my smaller, natural breasts, and can't imagine anyone NOT being happy they made the decision to explant.
October 25, 2013
I had small implants 260cc placed under muscle and I lost most of the sensation in my right breast and the lower side of my left. It's been 5 years but sensation has been almost completely restored in my left breast just in the last couple of months. I hope my right breast will follow. So don't give up hope. Lightly massage your breasts a couple days a week. That's what I did. I would give so much to have my little sensitive boobs back. But I wouldn't be me today and I like me. I am however afraid that I'll hate the loss of sensation in my right breast even more after x-plant. It's the only thing holding me back. But sooooooo many women have felt much sexier after coolant cause they are them again! You are strong!
October 25, 2013
Oh, Good. Good to know. Yeah, me too, would give anything to have normal little ones back. Guess we have to try and let those thought go. I think about women who are forced to remove ALL of their breast because of cancer etc. And think well, we are lucky! But to think I did it voluntarily. I'll do that massage them more often. Its such an uncomfortable sensation, not exactly painful but kinda..so I just avoid them. And I'm right there with you, the more loss of sensation is one of the biggest reasons I'm having doubts too. Well Ill try and post after and let you know. It may be a looong time till I know though. I'm just gonna take the chance, It's hard to accept we butchered our bodies for "beauty". And thank you for saying I'm strong. You are too!
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Thank you for starting your story! You were NOT taking up too much forum space at all (no such thing in my opinion). I just like for each lady to have her own page and mini support group to update. I think it really helps you go through the process and, of course, it helps others considering explant as well.
I'll be looking forward to your updates. Write all you want. We're listening! :)