Scared?? A Lot to Say! - Dallas, TX

Well, I am back among the living. Starting yesterday I feel really good. Weird it's like it was a switch turned on. Only very slight discomfort around the nipples. Feeling like brain fog is lifting, more energy. Hard to tell if its is because of the happiness that they are out (like a mental thing) or it's a true physical thing (implant toxicity). I can't imagine those things still inside of me. I can only imagine it will get even better. Don't want to get my hopes up too much though. It's unexplainable to most people but it just feels like I can start living again. I started taking a nurse refresher course online several months ago but just couldn't muster anything up to study. Well, I've been studying!!!!! Yea!!! It helps that I can't clean really (that's what i do when I procrastinate Haha!
I feel so normal that it is really hard to continue to restrict movement. It is so tempting to just go full throttle but I just keep thinking about the cost of them eeek and a set back. I bet it would be fine and that they just tell you three weeks to be doubly sure. But I'll try not to take any chances just in case.
I put on a new bra I bought last week for the first time. It's just a cheap bra. I just guessed I would be 36b and I was right. So went from d/dd to b, It fits. Wow, it looks so much better in clothes than a sports bra. And I just realized (dumbly) that I can put on non button up shirts without raising my arms (remember I am coming out of a brain fog don't judge)!
A negative though is that I feel and look more thin (isn) to myself without those big knockers that I am not watching what I eat and been indulging a lot! I haven't gained weight from not exercising but wow, am I pigging out. I keep justifying it that I need the nutrients to heal. Gotta get control!
Well, just thought I needed to post that I am coming out of the funk from last post. Stopped taking the pain meds too a few days ago maybe that is part of it too, that it is out of my system. Whatever, I don't want to keep questioning it.
My next step is to try and taper of these anti-depressants I've been on. Gonna do it very slowly but depression is one of implant toxicity symptoms so I want and need to get a baseline so gonna be a trial...or maybe not :):)...
IF YOU HATE YOUR IMPLANTS GET THEM OUT WHEN YOU CAN!!!

Well one week. I think they are looking good. I think my husband was trying to give me a compliment cause he said, "I hate to tell you but they don't even look like you got your implants removed"... so that made me feel good...
It's a weird feeling because I'm not exactly in pain but A LOT of discomfort. It feels like the bras are getting tighter. Oh wait...could that be the "fluffing"...just thought of that as I type this....or it could be just getting so tired of wearing them. I usually take my bra off when I'm home cause I hate the feeling so this 24/7 thing is a pain. I realize I should be taking advantage of this "recovery" period because I have an excuse to do nothing, read and watch tv and not exercise for real! But...I guess you always want to do what you can't.
Oh I have my implants on the counter and can't believe those were in me for over four years. How ridiculous! Yuck!

Weird. Today is my 5th day of being implant free. They are looking good in my opinion. Just like my boobs! MY boobs! It's really weird to me that I'm not having any regrets and I feel like I made the RIGHT decision and can start LIVING. I say that because I am a VERY indecisive person and usually ALWAYS wonder if I made the right decision blah blah (usually I don't either)...but none at all regarding this. Im a little down cause my mom/nurse left today. She lives 4 hours away and I'm here again with my husband (who hasn't even commented or barely looked at them) and teenage son. Still the same problems at home so I'm sure I would be even More elated if things at home were good. It's really weird...to not be questioning this!!! Not being able to lift my arms for 3 weeks is the worst! He showed me how to wash my hair by bending over but...I have really thick hair. I think I'm getting down from not being able to do anything or maybe it's the discomfort or pain med. I stopped taking them today just in case it was that and because I am hearing from you ladies that sometimes week three and on can be worse so I'm gonna save them...But I love seeing my profile!!!! It's just so much more me and I think I look so much thinner, even though I gained a pound or two. I using surgery as an excuse to pig out! Gotta stop that! Anyway. Luckily my husband despite our arguments is gonna stay home a little longer to help out...Anyway, glad to have some place to vent...I'll post more pics soon...