It's Finally my Turn!! - Dallas, TX

Please forgive me for posting way too many pictures. I am totally in love with my boobs and can not believe that they have almost completely dropped in just 4 weeks. I finally stopped hurting at just over 3 weeks. I had bad pain at the outer sides near the bottom (I asked for lots of side boob and the muscle hard a hard time adjusting). Still have lots of crazy nerve pain. Today was the first day that I tried gardening. I didn't carry anything to heavy but I was able to do a lot of bending and reaching. Its been a crazy busy week and I was able to keep up. My internal sutures dissolved quite a bit this week. One night after my shower I ran my finger under my boob and it sounds like bubble pop. I had not idea what was going on. It didn't hurt, so I did it to the other and it made the same sound. After staring at them for about 20 minutes and rubbing them without them making another sound, I finally realized that tiny puckers were gone and the discomfort I had left with them. As of today I only have a couple of knots that can still be felt.

So now I just have to wait a few more weeks to return to normal activity and to wear a bra again. I am amazed at the job Dr. Meade did. I never dreamed they would look this beautiful!! My wish is for everyone to find to find this happiness in her journey.

After breezing through the first two weeks, this week was a struggle. I have gone without support for one week now. This must be what it feels like for many of the girls who are wearing bands. This was the first week I felt the pressure on my chest I expected to feel after surgery. I did not realize how much pain would accompany going without a bra. I live in the country with lots of dirt roads. I looked quite funny driving down the road holding my left boob because it's the one with the weaker muscles and is feeling much more of the strain. With the difference in dropping this week, my new boobs are resting against the incisions which are still healing creating most of my complaints in pain this week. I do have the crazy nerves waking up also. I have moments I am scared of my new identity. Not of my boobs...I feel like these were the boobs I was always meant to have. It might come from standing in front of the mother in law and wishing I could put back on my old boobs until she left. Or my husband's grandmother who couldn't look me in the eyes. (I only know this because hubby told me because I could look her in the eyes either.) I did this for me, not to change who I am, but emerging into the world with a new look makes me feel exposed. So I might be hiding behind sweaters and jackets a little while longer. Time for me to get to know my new body, introduce it to my husband, and enjoy this time before we take on bathing suits and tank tops in front of others.