Won't Provide my Surgical Records

I have sent so many emails requesting my surgical records and heard absolutely nothing back.

Not dissimilar to the way I was ignored after my mastopexy and BBL surgery when I requested a revision to remove the giant lump in my butt.

Very responsive before you've handed over your money, but total silence afterwards.

That should tell you everything you need to know.

Tuesday marked 6 weeks post op for me. It's crazy how fast it's arrived, but also seems like the sx was months ago. I've been playing with what it feels like to place weight on my butt cheeks over the last week or so, just for a moment here and there, and I don't think I am ready to be sitting or laying on my back just yet. It's hard to describe the feeling but it feels vaguely tender or pressurized when I put weight on my upper butt cheeks, and I'm taking that to mean that they don't appreciate the squeezing. It's ok. I can handle another little while. It's nice to know that I can lean on them for a bit if I need to.

The all important question is: have I lost volume? It's odd how the answer to that question changes daily, but as of the last 4 days or so, the answer is a resounding "no". I have measured 36" across the hips same as I did right after sx, and it looks shapely. The pale lump is still there on my right hip although less noticeable and the good doc says that it will disappear when I've finished healing. He's confident.

My left inside thigh is still numb and hard in one small area, and the left feels thinner than the right but impossible to tell if this is just because the right is more jiggly because it's not as swollen. It's funny how each side of your body heals a little differently and nothing is ever really that symmetrical (or maybe that's just me - I was born wonky).

My waist is still at 24 - 24.5 inches and is still swollen. I know the doc was aggressive here and that my skin isn't as tight as it could be since I've had a baby and I'm not young, so I know that it will take time for the "redrape" and the swollen lumpiness to go away, but I'm very impatient with this part of my healing. My belly is not fit for public display. I've never had a belly that's too ugly for a crop top before, and half my wardrobe and personal style is based on this fact, so this is frustrating. I wish I knew how to hurry it along. It doesn't seem to make a big difference to the swelling whether I wear the garment or not. I start the day looking ok (and butt is smaller) and by the end of the day my belly is puffy but the booty is bigger. I look freakin INCREDIBLE in clothing!

Of course, I have discussed this with the doc who tells me I must be patient and I still have another 4 months of healing to go. He assures me, in his no-nonsense way, that there is no chance of him having missed any spots or over lipo'd anything, and that I will be smooth in the end. Patience then.

My waist is still a little sore (no pain, just tender, numb, and feels tight, if that makes sense). I have the most ridiculous coke bottle curves. He's reduced the love handle area to nothing and I love it!! Not much swelling at all in my back either so I have a very pretty scoop.

I'm in love with my boobs. They are a 32DD/30E depending on the bra, no implant, no sag, all me and all good. Like the rest of me, each boob has healed differently with the right one spitting stitches and generally less neat than the left. I pulled out 1" of undissolved suture from from the right today, and there are still another 6 or so sites where I will need to pull stitches from in the near future. But despite this, the scarring on the right is almost non-existent, whereas the left had the normal lollipop lines that you would expect. I am rubbing oil into the boobs every other night to help with scarring. I have the odd period of sharp pain every so often, and one stubborn scab is sore.

The 2 incision sites on my back have faded to near obscurity. The 2 groin sites from thigh lipo are visible as 2 hair-thin slits half an inch long. You wouldn't know they were there if you weren't looking for them. The doc placed another 2 incisions for belly lipo in my c section scar which has had the effect of darkening both ends of the scar a little. I am experimenting with Mederma on one side and a combination of oils on the other. Intuitively I feel that just the action of massaging in the gel/oil will be what makes the difference in breaking up scar tissue, but I'll keep you posted on the experiment.

Has my first proper 1 hour work out this week which felt great. I resume my 3 x 1 mile swims per week from this week so I can get back in shape and fit. Might give weight lifting or go too.

It still doesn't feel right to sit, so I am not doing it very much. I do wish my butt was as big as it was when it was swollen. I'm reading reviews from girls that are less than 2 weeks out who are all thrilled with their new projection and I feel like warning them that a lot of it is swelling, but I don't want to ruin their moments in the sun.

I won't be doing a round 2. I don't have enough fat to make a difference; I have better things to spend $10k; I know this surgery thing can be a slippery slope; I have ended up with what I originally wanted (I just want more because I got to wear the J-Lo suit for a few weeks). Now I just need to heal, work out and rock what I got.

I've really enjoyed the journey. It has been totally worth it. I feel like I've made real connections with some ladies through RS. I will keep posting periodic updates if it helps. It's all about the long term game for me. I'm counting on this investment giving me at least 10 years on dancing on the tables - haha!

Still swollen, but you can start to see what the final shape will be like. This is in the morning. Didn't wear a garment at night, and i don't use a cincher or binder so I'm not totally flat in the belly.