Is this all worth it?

I wasn't going to post again, but I feel that I really owe it to my doctor. I have had so many ups and downs going through this whole process, but now that I'm 2 months post-op I can now say I am definitely happy I went through with it. I really like my results now and know there are still changes to come. I think why I had so much trouble with this whole process was for 3 reasons: 1. I kept reading how this was such a mild surgery 2. I was going through it completely alone 3. I'm impatient. Looking through so many recovery pictures on here and reading surgeon "what to expect" write-ups really convinced me that it would be terrible for a week and then you basically forget you had surgery. This may be the case for some, but I feel like I had a much harder time and that every time I was supposed to hit some sort of milestone my results always took twice as long. My bruises took so much longer to fade than the average patient's (a full month with dark purple bruising) and swelling was not noticeably going down until just now (2 months after surgery). I honestly don't think my doctor normally has these recovery times, I think my body is slow to heal. I already knew I bruise so easily so I think with everything... my body is just slow. Anyways, I was so not mentally prepared for awkward smiling for months after surgery. This week is the first time I feel like my nose doesn't feel like a foreign object to my face and I can genuinely smile. Also, I guess one side of my nose had more work done during surgery because it swelled more which made me think my nose was just uneven now. This wasn't even that bad but it freaked me out. Again, this week the swelling has really gone down and I can't even notice any unevenness now. It really is incredible. My nose is looking smaller in a totally natural way, my smile is much cuter and I am definitely feeling more confident! I can now say that I recommend Dr. Bustillo to anyone considering a change. Not only is he extremely skilled, but he is so patient and kind with me even in my most irrational, freaked out moments.

Really!? How are my bruises still purple. I thought they'd at least be yellow by now. I've tried applying heat to them and it does seem to help but now I feel like the skin is sore there. It is, however, getting easier to cover them with makeup.

So I really like my nose sometimes, but am afraid it was overly thinned at times. One thing I will say is that it is soooo much more photogenic! Which is why I was so self conscious about my nose in the first place! So that's a plus.