27 Years Old 2 Children Bbl 3/26/2015

I'm 5'2 145 - 150lbs I have lots of fat around my abdomen as well as some excess skin. Everywhere I go people think I'm pregnant and it is causing me to feel very insecure about my body. I decided not to do a tummy tuck because I will be getting married in September and i may want more children in the future. I also wanted the bbl so that I can look more "womanly" I have always been small with big breast so now I want my body to be more proportionate and curvy. (Round butt, more hips and a tummy that doesn't poke out like I'm 7 months pregnant! Lol

Anyway, now let's get down to my FEARS. I booked my surgery 3/3/2015 for 3/26/2015. I was so excited about it until about 2 days ago. Now, fear and doubt has been clouding my head...

FEAR 1:
I have a skin graft on my lower back that extends to about 1/2 of my buttocks. I got this scar at age 4 or 5 from an attack and I was seriously burned. My fear is that my butt will look worse after the bbl. The last thing I want is to look even more deformed than I already do....Right now with my clothes on, no one tell there is anything wrong but I have to look at myself everyday and see the damage that person did to me. I'm scared I my fat won't survive and I'll be left with a "deflated ass cheek" or a lumpy booty that can't be hidden with clothes.

FEARS 2:
Before booking my surgery I asked my coordinator Jessica if a bbl could be done with my skin being scared. And will it look worse. She assured me it could be done and I had nothing to worry about. So I paid $3800 and will pay my remaining balance Monday. I'm scared the when I arrived at the office the doctor will tell me he can't do my bbl and that I can only have liposuction and I will have spent all this money for no reason.

My hotel is booked. My flight is booked. My fiancé has booked a car for us and everything is in place.

At times I have felt guilt for spending so much money on something that is considered VANITY. I pray it is worth it and I am happy with my results.

Now, I'll talk about my experience with Spectrum as a whole. At the time I paid the $3800 My coordinator Jessica was VERY nice helpful and answered all of my questions. She walked me through the process of what will take place over the next few weeks. (Contract, blood work, Medical clearance, etc.) After that initial phone conversation I haven't had much contact with her. When I call the office it's very hard to speak to anyone who knows what's going on. That is if you speak to anyone at all. I tried calling about 5 times about my blood work results and left messages. No one ever called me back. When I FINALLY talked to rose 5-6 hours later she had sent me an email saying I was cleared for surgery.

I feel like the staff should work on better communication with patients that have surgeries scheduled and even more so with out of town patients flying in.

However I make an effort not to be to demanding and get upset. I know EVERYBODY AND THEY MAMA is trying to get these specials during TAX SEASON. Lol
So I can only imagine how busy that office is right now.

Besides the fact I have my fears I am also excited about the positive effects this can have on my life. I am ready for the next chapter in my life. I'll update you guys after I get marked up!

Ps. I'll post some photos of my scar and tummy. Etc
Bye Felicia!!! (Jus kidding )

It took a lot of courage for me to post these but here you go. These photos are graphic.

Here are some photos of the shape I want. Round hips and round booty! I DOT want to look like a stripper. Lol