Go Big or Go Home! Resigning from the Itty Bitty Titty Committe - Commerce Township, MI

Well here it goes. Ive been wanting this procedure since I was 15. I belive I was suppose to have big boobs since my mom and sister do. I was anorexic for 6 years from 10 to about 16 to 17 years old and i believe that messed with my estrogen when I hit puberty at least thats what I tell myself and it makes me blame myself even more. Anywho now that im 20 I finally decided to get it done and I finally got the ok from my fiance. My breast were always small but at least they were perky. Well I have a one year old son and lets just say there not as perky anymore :/ I went to a consultation about 3 months ago and I felt nothing but unwelcome and rushed. I pretty much drove an hour away to be handed a panflit on everything I already knew and was sent on my way. So it kinda bummed me out and I tried to forget about wanting to having one. Well I couldn't so I finally went to another consultation and the doctor was nothing but amazing! He was straight to the point and honest about everything. I felt very welcome and at ease. I didn't set a date yet but Im going to call him up later in the week to set it up for sometime in may! Im so excited I just can't hide it! lol I think my Fiance is getting annoyed. Anywho, I got to try the implants on and i picked between 425cc to 450cc. Im 5,6 and 106 pounds. I went in thinking id be going with 375cc to 400. But those just seemed to small. I hope im not going to big and being boob greedy! but I'll keep you guys updated. I don't think id be going through with this though if i didn't come across this site! Thanks guys!

So the other night I had a good dream about getting my bj and last night I had a horrible nightmare! My boss was the one who did my implants and did the complete opposite of what I wanted! I was freaking out and sweaty when I woke up lol creepy. Anywho I still didn't call to schedule my date yet. I'm kinda dragging my feet. My work is physical and I know I won't be able to get off a full week :/ so its kinda bumming me out. On a brighter note my suergon said he doesn't mind writing me a restrictions note which was nice!

So I was just thinking. As of right now I'm a 32a I Dont portray my boobs to look bigger. I wear a little bit of push up so they look perky but with a push up bra you can still tell I'm a small a. With that being said. I work in a place that consist of 98% of men. Once I get my bj there all going to be able to tell! I'm freaking out about this. I Dont want anyone to know. I've only told my best friend my mom,sister and fiance but that's it. I Dont want them to judge me and the few girls here to talk about it. What do you guys think I should do?