29y/o Fibrocystic Breasts ADH 5 Kids - Columbus, GA

After discussing all of my risk factors, family history, mammograms, Excisional biopsy, and tamoxifen, I decided to just completely eliminate any risk and have PBMX and pedicled TRAM Flap reconstruction. My breast care specialist was supportive and amazing. Right now I'm 5 weeks out and can't really say I'm satisfied with the plastic surgery part. I admit I have never really supported PS to begin with, but I was afraid of how my body would do with implants. Plus, I'd heard horrible things. Unfortunately, my TRAM flap came at a price as well. I ended up with fat and skin necrosis, in addition to wound dehiscence. I feel like I look like a freak show. My stomach looks terrible and recovery has been slowed down quite a bit by it. Perhaps a year from now I can look back on this and feel more confidence that I made the right decision, but right now I do have a few regrets. I wish I was better informed prior to this procedure. It feels like there's an elephant sitting on my chest. My belly is a wreck. At first I was entirely dependant on my husband. It's been a bit more than I had anticipated. I suppose I expected something similar to a c section or hysterectomy....not even close!

I have included my before, week 1, and week 4 pics. I go for debridement surgery tomorrow so pics of wound progress to follow.