Happy, Terrified and Hopeful for Good Results of Upper Lower Blepharoplasty... - Cleveland, OH

I'm sooo tired of this saga. If someone could have explained to me and I could have seen all I've been through I would not have done this.

I swear I feel like healing will take 6 months to a year for all this to settle down. No one really tells you that. My lids feel tight, tender, still swelled, and scars still very visible. Yes, I took my pics down...I'm just sooo sick of looking at it.

I'm still not happy with my lowers. I think they look hollowed around the orbital rim, and now that the fat pads are removed it makes the muscles of my eyes pop out when I smile. So I try not to. I think I said before, I just traded one issue for a another basically, and still owe a lot of money, so ...no, I'm not real happy here, but I'm still praying and hoping that some of this still resolves itself in the months ahead as 3.5 weeks out ain't really nothing for some of us. I seriously can feel everything moving around in there trying to heal and stabilize. It's a long, long, process.

I've seen an occuloplastic surgeon who thinks nothing "wrong" was done to me and that I still need to heal. And, I've been back to my doc for my 3 wks visit who was already talking about fillers in the future, then sent me on my way until my next visit...3 months from now.

This can happen to anyone. And does. No matter whom you choose as a surgeon, and no matter how qualified they are, you may not end up with the results you were hoping for. In my case, I really don't know if I could have gotten a pleasing result from someone else, or if it's just my anatomy and the way I heal that is causing me this distress. I most likely never will know. All I do know is that what I figured to be an easy fat pad removal surgery, was not so easy after all and produced a result I was not expecting, nor am very happy with.

On a positive note, I see some of the complications on here that seem far more serious then mine, so for that I am thankful and just hope that I continue to heal ok without my eyelid drooping or whatever. Also, I can say that the shape of my eyes haven't changed so that Is also a big win for me in this game of PS chance.

Lastly, Right now all I can do is nothing. Nothing can really be fully assessed or addressed until all this heals. So I have no choice but to wait this out till the 3 month mark. Then the 6 month mark at which point Im going to go again for another opinion on this result. If anything, just to see what... if anything ...went wrong.

At this point ...like I said... all I want to do is heal without any setbacks or further disappointments. I've already been pushed to my limits with this whole ordeal. I want this whole ordeal with my eyes to be over.





I'm sure some people at work thought wtf upon my return. Others didn't notice...or hid their reactions

Hi everyone. Thank you all for your words of encouragement. I very much appreciate it. I really don't want to post any new pics now, so I won't. I may even remove the ones I have posted because I find them difficult to look at. Anyhow I figured I'd give you all an update.

Over the last few days I saw and spoke to a friend and someone else very much in the know about procedures. My friend said she thought I looked ok, but noticed what my concerns were. The other person felt that what was done was done ok and needs to just heal more. Both thought I didn't look as bad as the pictures I took, (and posted here) but who really says the truth about that stuff anyway.

The scars are beginning to fade, and the new bags may have decreased by a teeny tiny bit, but nothing much. They are still there and what I focus on when I look in the mirror....just like my old ones. Funny, I still avoid the mirror just as much as before too.

My feelings on all this right now is that all the pain, anxiety, and money spent wasn't really worth it for me. Granted healing is still under way, but right now I really don't think I look any better, or feel any better than I did before, just different. The guilt I had before this, is still there too. Guilt that I wasn't comfortable enough in my own God given skin and that I had to make such a radical change and spend a lot of money (that could of been used elsewhere) to try to look better, possibly younger, or feel better about myself. And/or somehow try to cheat the aging process. To be frank, right now I just think it's stupid and feel a little ashamed I fell prey to all this superficial crap women do to remain attractive.

So that's where it stands. Back to work tomorrow. Ugh. Today I need to do a practice run on my makeup for the first time on these new eyes. You'd think I should be excited, but I'm really not.

Anyone considering this surgery should really do some soul searching prior. Sometimes all you think need, you already have.

I look at these pics and I am sick. Remember, I did this with no one knowing. What will my co workers and family say . How can I possibly explain this to anyone. I am so embarrassed. Why me?