Took 4 months to drop and fluff!

I am only 2 day away from my BA and I've decided to post my journey only because I have been so thankful reading all the posts on this site! I've read the good, the bad, and the ugly on here and it's ALL been so helpful! Thanks ladies!!!

Well, I've been an A cup all my life and like all flat-chested women out there, its been pretty hard in the self-esteem category. However, after nursing my 2 children, to see what little I have completely disappear.....uh, hhhmmmm, kindof hard to explain how that made me feel as a woman! I am now in my late 30's and decided to go for it! Tired of not being able to wear a real bra. Tired of not finding ANY swimsuits or bikinis! And just plain tired of not feeling very woman like. However, my husband loves me exactly the way I am and is not 100% for me doing this. BUT, he is supporting my decision to fulfill my dream of having breasts!!! (what all women already have!!!)

I am pretty tiny: 5 ft and 100 pounds. So clothes shopping truly is a nightmare. Especially when even the teeny bopper A bra cups dont fit me!
I am scared to death of going too big. My PS didnt discuss with me any CC options because when I went it, I was just adamant of just having my body restored to prepreggo days. I would be happy with my originally God-designed A cup. But told him I would be OK with a B cup. Not a FULL B cup! I am a runner and I work out regularly. I dont want anything bouncing around much, and esp dont want them hitting my arms.

Another concern I have is loosing nipple sensation! My hubby would be devestated if that happened! What did you ladies experience? Did it come back?

I am only going to have help the day of surgery. After that I am on my own until hubby comes home from work. Would REALLY appreciate some survival advice on recovery from you ladies!!! I am busy now cleaning the house, and prepping lots of fruit and veggies I can easily access. Getting the living room ready to crash in. My 2 kids are in elementary school, so when they get home, they can help some (I'm hoping!!!)

Well, would really appreciate some comments and input ladies!!!

OK, my BA is today at 1:00! Sooo excited and nervous. However, I had a really good nights sleep which solidified in my mind that I am at peace with going through with this procedure. The house is clean, laundry done, couch is set up with pillows and blankets, table is set up with meds, and I have my bags of frozen peas :-) Healthy fruit and veggies are cut up and in the fridge. Got some frozen meals but I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to reach up to open the microwave door. Its above my stove.
I've got help today, a girlfriend is coming over to check up on me tomorrow, then I'm solo on Friday. I think I'll be OK.

I am getting salines under the muscle. Yikes, just thinking about getting cut open (electively) gives me the hibee gibees!

OK, will be updating as soon as I feel up to it!

SSSOOOOOOOO frustrated with my stupid computer! I just wrote like 2 pages on my update and my internet went down and I lost everything I wrote!! So, sorry ladies this will be a condensed version of my original!
Day of Surgery
When I arrived at the Clinic for my BA I was greeted by friendly, kind, and helpful staff! They were so fantastic and made me feel right at home. That lessened my nerves a bit, as I was so on edge. The nurse that took care of me in the pre-op room also had a BA done 6 years ago and was very pleased with her outcome. Her only regret was not getting it done sooner! She was great and reassured me that it was all going to be worth it! Off to a great start. Well, I was scheduled for a 1:00 surgery but wasn’t wheeled in until 2:30!! Way too much time to have second thoughts and think about all that could go wrong! So I forced myself to daydream about what I would look like in my new bras (non-padded), new swimsuit, and new clothes! It worked! Plus my hubby was there as a sounding board. He had the same concerns as me, however he told me he supports this personal decision, as this was for ME and for my confidence as a woman.
The 2 nurses that was going to be in the OR room with me came to visit me. Both took my hands and said they promise to take good care of me! So sweet! My PS has been a surgeon for 30+ years. His nurse has been doing BAs with him for 20 years!! So I knew I was in good hands and I felt at peace.
So the Doc comes in and marks me up. He explains how my chest cavity is uneven, so my boobs wont be totally symmetrical. That’s OK with me. No two boobs are exactly alike. Even on the same chest! Plus, I wasn’t looking for perfection. I was just wanting BOOBS, period, to feel like a confident woman! I took the time to tell my PS again, that I was looking for CONSERVATIVE natural looking breasts. He knew from our previous appts that I am a runner and avid athlete and wouldn’t be able to deal with huge breasts. I emphasized that I was looking for an augmentation that would put me close to my pre-pregnancy days: 34 full A or small B. He said no problem! So in I am wheeled!
Surgery
I get wheeled into the operating room – wow, that was totally a nerve racking experience! Being wheeled down a "scary" white corridor passed other operating rooms and doctors in the middle of procedures. My room was white and bright and scary looking. However the people in there were joking around with me putting me at ease. They also had some good tunes playing – Hotel California. So I dozed into LaLa Land dreaming of being on the beach in Cali.
Recovery
HORRIBLE!!! Coming out of anesthesia was really hard for me. Which was surprising since I’ve had major surgery before, and that was not a problem. I was very nauseous and weak. I couldn’t make sense of what was going one since I kept dozing in and out of sleep. I did hear the nurse say she was concerned because I was so pale. She upped my morphine and anti-naseua meds. My chest hurt really really badly. She held my hand and stroked my hair and told me it was all going to be OK. I’m telling you, the staff here was just amazing!!! Well, I don’t remember much other than I felt like crap! I remember getting home and walking into the house. I was so dizzy I almost fell twice even though my hubby was helping me. My kids were concerned. But I just laid down on the set up couch and went to sleep. I woke up 2 hours later and felt so much better! Whew! I ate some crackers and drank tons of water. My throat was really sore from the breathing tube. Warning: do NOT eat pineapple with a sore throat!! I took some Percasset and just sat on the couch in and out of sleep. My breasts didn’t really hurt much. Just lots of pressure and tightness. They felt exactly like when they were engorged with milk while breastfeeding. My poor hubby. He looked so concerned for me. He warmed me up some chicken noodle soup which I wolfed down in like a minute! And really started to feel even better. I had some frozen peas I put on my breasts and it was instant relief! Yup, just like my breast feeding days!! My kids were both glad I could have conversations with them! They told me about their school day and what they did etc. etc. Just like normal. After hubby put them to bed, together we checked out what the new girls looked like. We were both very very pleased with what we saw! Beautiful! No real frankenboobies, yet anyhow. We sat back and watched our favorite shows and just chilled.
I set my timer on the phone to take my meds every 4 hours. The nurse told me NOT to try and tough it out. I’m a health freak and usually try to not take any meds of any kind. I try and stick with healthy whole foods, juicing, and smoothies to treat my day to day ailments. The nurse said this is not the time to do that! I’m glad I listened to her because I had a wonderful painless night! So you ladies out there, if you want to rest easier the first night, TAKE YOUR MEDS!! I also took some ExLax in case of constipation.
So my first night was actually fantastic. No pain, good sleep.
Day 1 Post-Op
Woke up feeling great! I mean no issues at all. A little sore getting up out of bed. I couldn’t even sit up on my own yesterday. My husband had to push me from behind to get me up. Today I can do all that on my own. No nausea. My family said it was good to have mommy back. I feel totally myself and have had no problems moving around. I couldn’t pack lunches though. Too much reaching for things and opening things. So I just sat on the couch and talked to my family as my husband took care of the household mommy duties this morning! It was nice!
I did set my alarm to take my meds every 5 hours instead of 4. We’ll see how that goes.
Oh, one strange side effect: since waking up yesterday, my skin is very very itchy! I mean VERY itchy! Its definitely not dry skin. Feels like allergies. So I’ve been taking Benedryl every 12 hours. The nurse said it might be from the Percesset and that I could try taking Advil instead. NO THANKS! I’ll stick with the narcotics for at least another day. Anyone else have this itchiness???
Will post pictures when I get over being too scared to actually see them LOL. Probably after my Post-Op which is not until next Monday. So far, I am pretty pleased with the whole experience. Praying that will continue my recovery and for the rest of my life! Any questions? Ask, ask, ask! Real Self has been AWESOME!!!!! Take advantage of asking questions. I did, and it really helped!