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Sick for 10 Years and Want My Implants Out! - Cleveland, OH
UPDATED FROM don'twanttobesick
1 month post
Not looking good
don'twanttobesickDecember 15, 2015
$7,650
I'm not posting much, because I really am trying not to think about my breast. I'm so upset when I do. Here's the latest. I've been following all of Feng's instructions to try to press down the extra tissue and it's not working. It looks pretty clear to me that if the incisions had been lower I would be fine. I have no idea what happened. It's very depressing.
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UPDATED FROM don'twanttobesick
30 days post
So depressed.
don'twanttobesickDecember 3, 2015
I am so depressed the last couple days. I am sicker and in more pain than ever and I feel completely deformed.
Staying positive is impossible sometimes. I have days it's better, but days I feel so completely depressed and desperate.
I'm trying so hard to be patient, but I feel like I'm in a worse position now than I ever was. If something would change -- the pain from surgery, my illness, or the double bubble, maybe I could cope. But as it is, I'm really struggling.
I just want to know that there's a light at the end of this. I'm usually a strong, positive person, but this situation has cracked me.
Maybe if I could do something I could get my mind off it, but as it is, just a laying in bed all day, it's all I can think about.
I really don't have the energy to do anything, and trying to focus on my health instead of the way my breast look just makes me more depressed because I still feel so sick.
I'd love to hear from anyone else who took a long time healing not from the surgery. How long until you could resume normal activities? How long now until your prior health issues started to resolve?
Has anyone else had this double bubble? After reading some yesterday, I think that if I had gotten an internal lift it would have prevented this. Dr. Feng suggested I go buy a bra that put pressure on the "puffy" parts. I tried that, but it's not going to work. My incisions are very tender and lumpy and all the bras I tried that put pressure on the inner portion cut across my incision on the outer portion. The incisions are wider than the bra bands. It was so painful just trying then on that it hurt even the next day and now my incisions are all red and more lumpy.
Also, the size of my breasts were kind of a shock. Before implants I was a 34a or 32b, sometimes a little bigger. My breast are such an odd shape now, they don't even fill out a 34aa or 32a. The top of the cup is completely empty, but then I have all this flesh hanging out the sides - like all my breasts tissue is now on my sides, not my front. Has anyone else experienced this? Does it resolve? It was so uncomfortable I don't think I'll ever be able to wear a bar again unless it changes.
Looking for some hope. All I wanted was to be able to live my life again. I'm so scared I did the wrong thing and have ruined everything now.
Staying positive is impossible sometimes. I have days it's better, but days I feel so completely depressed and desperate.
I'm trying so hard to be patient, but I feel like I'm in a worse position now than I ever was. If something would change -- the pain from surgery, my illness, or the double bubble, maybe I could cope. But as it is, I'm really struggling.
I just want to know that there's a light at the end of this. I'm usually a strong, positive person, but this situation has cracked me.
Maybe if I could do something I could get my mind off it, but as it is, just a laying in bed all day, it's all I can think about.
I really don't have the energy to do anything, and trying to focus on my health instead of the way my breast look just makes me more depressed because I still feel so sick.
I'd love to hear from anyone else who took a long time healing not from the surgery. How long until you could resume normal activities? How long now until your prior health issues started to resolve?
Has anyone else had this double bubble? After reading some yesterday, I think that if I had gotten an internal lift it would have prevented this. Dr. Feng suggested I go buy a bra that put pressure on the "puffy" parts. I tried that, but it's not going to work. My incisions are very tender and lumpy and all the bras I tried that put pressure on the inner portion cut across my incision on the outer portion. The incisions are wider than the bra bands. It was so painful just trying then on that it hurt even the next day and now my incisions are all red and more lumpy.
Also, the size of my breasts were kind of a shock. Before implants I was a 34a or 32b, sometimes a little bigger. My breast are such an odd shape now, they don't even fill out a 34aa or 32a. The top of the cup is completely empty, but then I have all this flesh hanging out the sides - like all my breasts tissue is now on my sides, not my front. Has anyone else experienced this? Does it resolve? It was so uncomfortable I don't think I'll ever be able to wear a bar again unless it changes.
Looking for some hope. All I wanted was to be able to live my life again. I'm so scared I did the wrong thing and have ruined everything now.
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December 3, 2015
Here's the deal. Your breasts won't look the same preimplant. At least mine look drastically different. That is the price we paid for putting implants in. They affected our muscles, created internal scar tissue and thinned our existing breast tissues. Things will get better. Daily massage with coconut oil will help. I would ask dr Feng what can be done IF your double bubble doesn't resolve. Be honest and tell her you need to know that it is fixable of her suggestions don't help. Sometimes peace of mind that you can make it better helps! I'm one year post explant with results a million times worse than yours but I feel amazing!!!! You'll get there!!!!
December 3, 2015
I am so sorry to hear about your experience and understand how much of our self image is tied to our breasts. It seems that your doctor needs to do a revision! I was angry with my Cleveland doctor that did my original implant surgery in 1999! What a terrible experience that was! It has been 2 years now since my explant and lift surgery done here in California. I did not have the double bubble effect after, perhaps due to the internal lift, but my scars are still really ugly with keloids. They are still painful and itchy too. Most bras have an underwire that is painful to my scars. Keeping silicone tape on the scars is the only thing that helps. My PS is not happy with my scars either and has suggested a scar revision. For now, my budget will not allow anything. Has your PS had any suggestions for you? Are you still convinced that the implants were truly causing your years of health issues, or was there perhaps another underlying reason? My PS suggested lipo with fat transfer to my breasts if I was unhappy about my size. You look thin, but is that an option for you?
As upsetting as these things are, whenever I get overly down about how I look, I see the news and tragedy that is all around us and think, "At least I am alive, I am loved, I have wonderful family and friends, I am not starving, etc." We need to remain thankful for the blessings we do have. I also have a strong faith that gives me hope for the future. This forum has given us a wonderful place to vent, compare, console and support each other. If you are truly depressed, remember to keep a strong support around you and reach out to others. Your inner beauty will remain timeless.
As upsetting as these things are, whenever I get overly down about how I look, I see the news and tragedy that is all around us and think, "At least I am alive, I am loved, I have wonderful family and friends, I am not starving, etc." We need to remain thankful for the blessings we do have. I also have a strong faith that gives me hope for the future. This forum has given us a wonderful place to vent, compare, console and support each other. If you are truly depressed, remember to keep a strong support around you and reach out to others. Your inner beauty will remain timeless.
December 3, 2015
I'm sorry to hear that you are suffering and distraught. I agree with 2727 about calling the office and asking Dr. Feng what can be done if the bounce bubble does not resolve. As far as feeling worse, are you following a detox protocol? That may help to remove any toxins in your body that are making you feel sick. Try to stay positive if you can and rest if your body needs it. It must be frustrating but hopefully you will start to feel better soon. Believe in yourself! You can do this! You already did the most important step which was to get rid if those toxic devices in your body! Good for you!
December 6, 2015
Thank you. I've been in communication with Feng about it the whole time. She's working with me to resolve it. I was asked not to follow a detox until 4 weeks out, so my body could heal. I do eat very clean and take lots of good supplements. Starting with gentle detox now...
December 8, 2015
Hello,
Been thinking about you and hoping that you are feeling better. How's the detox coming along?
Been thinking about you and hoping that you are feeling better. How's the detox coming along?
December 8, 2015
Just checking to see how you are doing. Hope that everything is improving and you are feeling better. I am still new to all of this and have not got my implants out yet, but how and what do you use to detox? I ache all over and have burning pain in shoulders, neck, knees, all over really. It is so miserable and I'm so tired of it as I know you are too! It's depression to see what all your going through...wish we could get these toxic bags out and instantly feel better. I know some do. I feel that I will not be one of the lucky ones!!!
Take care, and let us all know how your doing when your up to it. Thanks!
Take care, and let us all know how your doing when your up to it. Thanks!
December 9, 2015
December 3, 2015
Honestly I think you should go to a PS in your area that has experience with revisions or reconstruction. I can't understand why your surgeon didn't go through the crease, I had my implants inserted through the crease and my scar is still on my crease. I saw another review where someone had an indent by her nipple after explant/lift and it was fixed by scar release surgery. In any case, it's still pretty soon after surgery and it takes a year to fully heal so the double bubble may resolve in time, I would just get a second opinion from someone just in case. Don't be hard on yourself or your body, your still healing. Good luck!
December 6, 2015
The reason is that I had my implants in through my armpit, so there was no original crease scar.
December 3, 2015
I'm so sorry you are feeling so depressed! I think we have all experienced what you feel at one time or another during this whole process! You are still so early in your healing! Like my doctor told me it is going to take months!! I myself am at 3.5 months and still have a long road to a full recovery! Most of my health issue resulted in pain caused by my implants. All of that pain was relieved right away! I suffer from depression and have my entire adult life. Most of that time, I have had implants but I know it wasn't caused from having implants! You may want to speak to your primary doctor regarding your depression just to be on the safe side! I have found that only looking at my breasts when I'm getting in the shower helps me to not obsess over them. Obsessing over my breasts only made me feel more depressed. Once I started not being so engulfed in the situation and how I looked, I started to feel better! I'm not saying that I am over being disappointed in how my breasts look but, it is helping me to cope with the waiting for everything to heal and hopefully get better. My out look is that after 1 year if my breasts are not looking in a way I can live with for the rest of my life, I will seek having a minor lift or something to help smooth out my skin. I don't ever want to go back to implants again. My doctor just suggested to me to wear compression as much as possible to help my skin tighten up. I also don't have a defined breast fold anymore and possibly the compression of a tight band might help. I think the key to this is too be patient (however hard it is) and remember it will take several months to see any real results! I'm wishing you all the best! I hope you feel better soon!!! xoxo
UPDATED FROM don'twanttobesick
26 days post
Feeling depressed with this double bubble after explant.
don'twanttobesickNovember 29, 2015
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November 29, 2015
I can understand why you're depressed. They don't look as bad as you think, but it's your body and your selfimmage, so if you are getting depressed about it, something needs to be done. Post your story and picture at Q&A on this website and see if any other docter comes up with a sollution. Maybe something like scar reduction. I wish you lots of strength for the future
November 30, 2015
Hi, i'm in the same boat as you. I explanted with Dr. Feng as well in June. I am depressed as well and have a long scar underneath with no fat left in my deflated breasts. I was thinking a fat transfer. Have you thought of it? It might even out your double bubble. I agree that the incision should have been lower. I would get a second opinion from a reputable surgeon in your area then have Dr. Feng fix it at no charge......
November 30, 2015
I can't do a fat transfer. I know to the core of me that my body can not handle the lipo. I'm four weeks out and still in bed everyday from explant. I sooo wish it were an option, but I just can't do it to myself. Were you sick with implants? Are you depressed about the size and scar or do you have something else going on? I keep telling my husband that this is hard enough already having to suddenly have no boobs - I have much less tissue than I did pre-implants, and have giant scars with no breast to hide them. But the double bubble problem on top of it has me panicked. Like I seriously can't function properly. I've been in communication with Feng and keep trying what she suggests. I told my husband I'd wait a month and then figure out what to do. I just hate this all so much. I wish I had a time machine and could never get the stupid implants in the first place.
November 30, 2015
What does dr Feng say? I have the same issue post explant. My scars are in the middle of my breasts! So weird. I need scar release and fat transfer to fix it
November 30, 2015
She did have me wearing a band and now says to go buy a bra that sits on top of the puffy parts to put compression on it. I asked her if it will change, but she hasn't really given me a direct response. She says she's very happy with my progress, but I'm not! This is really upsetting. Who told you that you needed a fat transfer? How long ago were you explanted? Did you do anything to re-train them? I'm so happy just to talk to someone else who has experienced this!
November 30, 2015
I haven't done anything to train them. I am using progesterone cream to try to fluff them. I've been told it is scar tethering. The only way to fix it is to release the scar and do fat transfer to fill in the area. I'm okay with it but need to find the right doc to do it since my explant doc doesn't do fat grafting!
December 1, 2015
Did your explanting surgeon ever say why they scars are not in the crease? Do you have any pics up?
November 30, 2015
Sigh. I am so sorry you are going through all this. I really can relate. I also had a less than perfect result and between how my right breast looked and the pain and no sleep I felt so depressed for the first 6 weeks. And then FINALLY things began to turn around. Early on people tried to tell me they saw a difference but it didn't help because I saw no difference. So, I will tell you that to me it looks like the incision pulls in less, but I doubt it will help. Sorry again. It does appear that the incision is just too high. So does it make sense to try to force the incision to be your new breast fold? Obviously I'm not a surgeon so not sure if that makes sense, but it might help to get another opinion from another PS in your area. Or to post to RS Q&A for opinions. It is good that you are getting out for some walks. Try to force yourself to do that every day to breath fresh air and move your body a little. You have such a gorgeous body. I hope that over the next month you will see enough improvement to lift the depression. Big gentle hugs ...
December 1, 2015
Wow, you've been through so much. Thanks for sharing all about it. I am 'behind' you had mine done on the 25th so it's day 6 for me. I have been taking photos since day 4, before that I was too scared to look. Your breasts are looking so much better now. I agree with the patience thing , we need it for sure...( shame I have none ! ) I can see though at day 6 it's better tahn day 4. I have a double thing/bubble on my right side , that was teh side that had slightly ruptured so I had a capsulectomy on it, the other one looks fine, tiny, but not as tiny as I had thought it would be...it's just a shame that mine now don't seem to line up :( I laid down today and took a photo and I can see (and hope) that with time the crease will leave and fill in or fluff out ( whatever ! ) I will post photos eventually, I wish I had taken some 'before'...I liked my last implants they were great I only had them removed because of the rupture . I too have fibromyaglia, dry eyes etc etc and I think that's from sillicone leakage from my previous implants, that I had from when I was 25 to when I was 52, they were awful, was glad to see the back of them...I had these last ones done in 2002 so had for 13 years, I am 65 now, but fairly fit and certainly still want to look ok/sexy/fit, even if for no one else than myself. I can't do any exercise for 4 weeks, no yoga for 12.....no walking for 4... sigh...taking it easy is driving me nuts and its only been 6 days so far !
You are so young your skin will bounce back in no time. They seem to think that mine will, so I'm hoping..I don't mind being small, but I would like to get them at least a bit more even, I'm doing as I'm told, time will help I know. This forum has been so good, if we all support each other it make sit less fearful for those still to do it, and there will be many I bet.
Wishing you well
:)
You are so young your skin will bounce back in no time. They seem to think that mine will, so I'm hoping..I don't mind being small, but I would like to get them at least a bit more even, I'm doing as I'm told, time will help I know. This forum has been so good, if we all support each other it make sit less fearful for those still to do it, and there will be many I bet.
Wishing you well
:)
December 1, 2015
Thanks for sharing. Yeah, patience is solo hard. I too, know I can get used to the size. Sometimes I even like them better. But this double bubble thing has me very upset. I just can't seem to get a straight answer wether it will go away or not. And I guess thats because no one knows, but the question has me going crazy. Only my husband and I would ever see it. And he is so sweet and supportive and says he doesn't care at all. But I feel very uncomfortable naked because of the double crease, and I really don't want to go the rest of my life being uncomfortable naked. :( I have been in bed for 4 weeks now. I've taken a couple small walks and still have pain so don't plan on doing much more. Although I think if I could do something other than lay here, perhaps I wouldn't be so obsessed and worried about my breasts. I sure hope you're fybro, etc... gets better now that you have no foreign objects in your body and it can heal. I'd love to see pics. It's definitely more reassuring for me to see how everyones explant os different and heals in different ways and at different rates. Blessings!
December 1, 2015
Truly I know there is a slight double on you but it hardly shows...I feel that it will go away/fill out over time, it's still early days for you. Sounds like your husband is lovely ( wish I had one lol ) Can you maybe take your mind off it by planning a couple of little things to do each day. Just a little bit at a time... I hope your pain goes soon...Can your doctor help with that...you do sound a bit depressed, try and do something positive to cheer you up, paint/draw/take photos of nature/puzzles/colouring/etc... I will do a story and put some photos up...they are not pretty...:( but I am positive that all will be well.The one on the right looks like the incision is higher than the left, I have the bubble thing and swelling too, quite badly bruised on the right.
Ah well another day nearly over...
take care
:)
Ah well another day nearly over...
take care
:)
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