Reflections of One Week and Beyond

Boy, I hope I'm in a post-op funk! I went to my 3 week post op appointment on the 3rd and was told two things. One, I'll even out in my hips or they'll fix it in their office. Two, I have a little dog ear on the right hip that is driving me crazy. Somewhere between the swelling and the dog ear I guess I got bummed with the way I look now and for some stupid reason, I can't decide whether I like my new body or if I'm mad at myself for letting vanity get in the way of an imperfect but okay me.
I'm very sore again. I just starting sleeping flat and I love it going to sleep but I wake up pretty sore. On top of that, I feel so disproportionate, I've swelled up in a few places again, and I'm so sad about laying around (my leg might be playing into this drama).
Ugh...I hope all these feelings are normal because right now I regret just feeling like regular ol' me. I read through my previous posts and I can see the emotional roller coaster I'm obviously riding but it can stop now; I want off!
I have such a hard time being patient with recovery! I'm discovering I'm a "rather have something now than more of it later" kind of gal! Patience may be a virtue but waiting is not!!!!

I hadn't really realized that I actually love working out until I broke my leg and found myself laid up. I'm really glad I decided to make my TT part of my overall recovery process. For those reading this early in what can be a frustrating and overwhelming journey, I was able to do a mini-work out today (18 days post op)! I couldn't run in place or do the abs section, but I did sit on the couch to work out my arms and I was able to do the leg exercises on the floor, even managing a few push ups! There was a tiny voice in the back of my head telling me I could manage a few sit ups, but common sense prevailed. 17 days ago, I couldn't imagine feeling this good! :)

I found a picture of myself in a bikini someone must have managed to take without me getting feisty (i.e. probably drinking on the beach). All the roundness in the front was jiggly skin that I could bunch up into a little "baby butt." I've tried on these same bikini bottoms and both my vertical and horizontal scars are completely hidden.