4-4- 2012 is my Date - Chicago, IL

well i have about eight days left, and thanks to this site i've calmed down a little bit. i'm a little more confindent now. i'm still a little nervous but confident that it will be worth it, and ill look great afterwards. my wt is now 198 to 200 but im even all over, excluding the tummy and arms, man i hate m arms, even when i was skinny my arms were thicker than another woman with the same body type and shape. im glad that i have my husband's support finally. he was against my surgery for years. he even tried to convince me that i looked fine just he way i was:( he's 167 pounds and 5'11 he doesn't know what it's like to feel trapped in a body that you hate i've always had a really nice shape, even after five children i looked like i had none. i still don't have stretch marks but my stomach has just grown, after my hyster. l3-2010. cant seem to loose the belly fat. I am cool with being what is considered obese, now i do want to get down to about 170 no lower than 160 but if i don't im oook with loosing the arms and the belly, i like my butt and thighs and my boobies. well april 4, 2012 is the day i start my life again. i've done my physical and blood work, i received my perscription, and I have to be at the hospital at 9 am my surgery is at 11. now that i dont like, but it is what it is, well ive tried to put photos up, guess ill get it right one day

well it's about 11:18 and im on here still reading reviews and looking at all the wonderful pictures and i can't wait til next week gets here. i've prepared my mind for this adventure. i know what to expect, and i know what to look for. I'm no stranger to pain, uh i've had nine children and they were not easy. one c-section, a tubligation and a hyster, so i know what pain is from my hyster it was horrible. well i guess ill try to shut my eyes now. till tomorrow