375cc. Smooth Mentore..partially Under Muscle..been in Since 8-16-2000...I Want to Be Implant Free Without a Lift... - TN

My desire is to be implant free without a lift or removing capsule...I have had no problems with implants...im chronic fatigued due to the wt of implants and the pain I feel everyday in my neck and shoulders that I feel is due to the ligament strain. .I started out as a beautiful lifted 34 D..now im a 34 DDD E..after a hysterectomy and gaining 15 lbs...I dont have the energy and motivation to do the active fun things like I use to prior to BA ..BY THE WAY I WAS A PERFECT 34B PRIOR...from the very first day getting my BA I regretted it..I felt constant chest pressure that zapped my energy level....oh the boobs where beautiful and looked sexy in bras..I loved the look...that soon wore off...the boobs felt so heavy without a bra I couldn't stand it..never again could I wear backless things like sundresses due to the discomfort from the wt pulling me down....and never again was able to buy a swimsuit that tide around the neck for the wt cause neck strain...and the ones with shoulder straps also cause shoulder pain..it was heartbreaking...so I usually wore spandex workout shorts with matching sports bra...now im almost 56 ..5.5ft tall and wt 140...WHICH I HATE BEING OVERWEIGHT..my normal wt is 1 24 ..I wear a size 8 ...my boobs are now bottom heavy for sure and I feel I need to get implants out if im gonna want to stay active..BY THE WAY I DEVELOPED FIBROMYALGIA SINCE BA...right now..everything active I do causes me neck and shoulder pain...even simple hikes..due to pressure of bra straps...its so frustrating...I continue to be active as possible but as im doing things. ..instead of enjoying myself..im constantly thinking of the pain im feeling...OK SO AFTER THIBKING LONG AND HARD AND DOING HOURS OF RESEARCH ON REMOVING IMPLANTS...I MADE AN APPOINTMENT WITH THE PS WHO DID MY BA... the appointment is in 3 days for consultation...like other ladies..my fear is the deflated look at first...I have no stretch marks and had plenty of tissue room prior to my BA so im really having faith that I will bounce back looking decent enough ...I feel that I will be bigger than a 34B I started with since my breast size increased 2 cup sizes after my BA from 34D to DDD.E...SO MONDAY IS MY APPT..WISH ME LUCK...HOPEFULY HE CAN REMOVE IMPLANTS only.. without the capsule...with LOCAL anesthesia...

the doctor looked at me checked out my breast implants he said I did not have any capsule constrictions nor did I have any rupturesso he felt the explant would go well.. He did not try to talk me into getting more implants nor having a lift.he did say if I was not satisfied in 6 months then I could have a lift if I wanted tobut he did not see that happening.I told him I was just tired of been in pain and I wanted to be active again and be able to breathe so that was my reason for wanting to get an explant.he said we could do the surgery in his office and he give me a great price that it was very satisfactory and I was very happy.so off I went to the schedulers office and scheduled my appointment for September the 11th at 830 in the morning.I don't have anything planned for September that is very active and I can stay at home away from other people so they won't know that I had surgery.I'm wanting to keep it secretive for right now because I figure most people will want to see my results and I know at first it won't be so pretty.probably when it's all said and done I won't tell very many people anyway I will just get me one of those pretty little push up bras and I expect to be at least a C cup when its over with so I figure not too many people will notice anyway. it made me feel good after the doctor left the room the nurse told me that she thought I was making a good decision for my frame was very small for my implants and they were pulling me down.I told her as I told the doctor that I'm just tired of carrying these things around but they are hurting me and I'm tired of being in pain and having tightness in my chest I want to be active again and be able to do the things did I used to do.affirmed to the doctor that my implants have always been beautiful and I have loved the look of them its just the weight that I did not like. I feel damn I am plants make me look bigger now and more top heavy since I have gained 15 pounds.the doctor and nurse said that the surgery it with everything would be less than an hour and I didn't expect any complications and I could go right home and I could use my arms but just not over my shoulder area for about a week and just take it easy.they tell me I would probably go home with a surgical bra but it wouldn't be too tight nor would they put top bands around the chest that he did not recommend that because it cut off blood circulation and when you do that you don't heal as fast. I have read a lot of things on Sat and I know that I need to let my capsules shrink and my pectoral muscles grow back together and then I will start working to build them up again strength wise.the nurse also tell me about possible complications like maybe flood getting in the capsule area as it was healing and possible unexpected bleeding during surgery but they didn't expect though.the nurses for some unexpected reason that fluid in the castle area that the doctor to go in with a needle and drain it out but that wasn't likely that that would happen.well thats all I really have to say for now I will keep you posted as things keep going.I did go on a long aggressive hot today and I was thinking man these boobs sure are heavy and I can't hardly breathe cuz my sports bra so taht trying to hold these things up so hopefully when all this is said and done I when I'm hiking up the mountains and really straining I won't be carrying 5 pounds on my chest plus I'll be able to get full breath and my stamina will be better...my next biggest wish is I hope my fibromyalgia gets better after the implants are removed and I get rid of a lot of this pain in my shoulders and neck area...I'm posting a picture of me in a Bra Top one piece deal and then I'll post it again after my implants are removed and healed some to, compare and see how it looks.

I guess this is normal..today I feel very anxious..I think its because im not admitting to myself that my explant surgery is bothering me..I suppose it is..im scared..not of the pain but of my looks afterwards..until im healed..trying yo keep this surgery a secret from everybody except my boyfriend is hard on me...I just wanna talk about it as we as women like to do to feel better about stuff...I have a psychiatrist and I wont tellhim or my therapist...maybe I feeling shame or guilt about the situation..I not sure..so im just gonna cry alone and maybe ill feel better....do any of you ladies seem to feel emotions like this also?