My "Do Over"

Today starts my clear liquid to prep for tomorrow. I'm beyond excited there aren't any words...

I have a moment last Saturday while reading labels. I wasn't prepared for that I thought the first few weeks would be easy. I love yogurt and didn't realize how few there are with less than 10grams of sugar. But I got myself together and moved on to another store.

I chose this surgery because I'm tired, I'm tired of being fat, I'm tired of not being able to keep up with my kids, i'm tired of my feet hurting at the end of the day so bad that I can't walk, I'm tired of not being able to bend over and tie my shoes.

This is it this is my chance to live again this is my due over I'll plan to do everything that it takes to get this weight off.

Like many other people I have tried everything under the sun to get my weight under control my number,my number is 40, 40 pounds no matter what I do no matter how much I do how long I do it I will lose 40 pounds and not 1 pound more.

Several people have asked what my goal weight is and the truth is I don't have a goal weight I never cared what the number said on the scale it's all about how I feel and right now I feel fat I can't do things every day that I should be able to do that makes me sad.

So today I drink a bottle of magnesium citrate at 2 pm and still have yet to go to the bathroom.... Is this normal? I did puke my guts out for hours and now my belly is just rumbling and rumbling

So today's the day we are all in the lobby waiting for my buzzer go off- can I just say IM STARVING count down to the loser bench