CO2 Laser Textural Damage to Cheeks

I went in to get the laser for acne scarring on my cheeks. It was noticeable to me but not other people. Unfortunately, I am one of the individuals who has had very negative textural changes to skin that once was smooth. It has been the worst decision of my life and the psychological effects in the last year have been extremely difficult to say the least. I will post before and after photos. The left cheek has the more severe changes. The texture is waxy sort of crinkled. I have lines covering the front of my cheeks where she must have put more power. I think it is difficult to fully capture the damage in ay photo but in person and in specific lightings... it is horriendous looking. Everytime i look in the mirror I want to cry/kick myself for being vain and wanting the fixmy acne scars. The doctor did not give me adequate information about recovery time , making it seem like a simpleprocedure when I was house bound due to huge swollen cheeks and redness for months. When I had questions about healing she would write back and say things like she wasnt sure etc. Excusee me?! Anyways . my concern now is to get any advice . is there anything to do to fix this or improve it ? It has consumed me and made me so.. depressed. Going out of the house is extremely difficult constantly thinking about how my skin looks in particular lighting etc. Anyways I would really love advice PLEASE. in the photos the before are on the right and the after are on the left. again with photos it does not pick up the damage nearly asmuch as in person.

Lines and weird texture . Huge holes /pores