A New "Me"! - Florida, FL

Hello Ladies. I'm new to Real Self but have been browsing the site and reading all the reviews for several months. Decided it was time to introduce my self so I can have some one to talk to who understands what it's like to have a BA.
I am 32 with 2 daughters 4 and 2 1/2 yr old. I am done having children and decided it was time to get me back. I have always been small chested, 34 B with a push up as an older teen early 20's. I am a slender person 5 ft 3 inches 115 pounds. i have a 32 band with. the girls went to a 32D/DD when I was nursing. I loved them! I nursed my girls for 18 months each and thought about pumping forever after they weaned... LOL. I don't want to be "bam! In your face", but would love a 32D. I finally scheduled my surgery last week. I am undecided between 300cc right/325cc left mod profile plus silicone or 325ccR/350ccL. I think I'm going to order the Purlz sizes to test CCs before my pre-op which is early Sept. I have a great support team at home. My husband has always said when ever I was ready ( have wanted a BA since teen years) now that the time is hear he is awesome and not pushing for bigger CCs. My mom is a little unsure but she's never had to think about small boobs as hers and her mothers are huge. My mother in law is great. She wants a total body makeover so she's totally understanding. Anyway, enough of my rambling. I'm excited for the future and hope to make a few friends here :)

Thanks ladies. My actual BA is Sept 26th. I'm now having selfish mommy guilt. What if I have a complication and need more treatment, what if the anesthesia doesn't agree with me and I don't wake up? What will happen to my two girls? Will I leave them mommy-less? Oh my, the scary what ifs are too much. I really want to do this for myself, but what if?