Silicone breast implant removal- Out one month to the day California, CA

I never obsessed over getting them, looked into a few years ago and then backed off, then thought of it again and contacted the same PS..things went fast from there. All in the same day I was scheduled for a preop, set a surgery date and made the $500 non refundable deposit. I guess from there I felt like there was no turning back.
I was fine the first few days as I was drugged up pretty good but once I was lucid again I quickly realized I did not want these bags in my body. It wasn't that my PS did a horrible job or anything.
I'm happy he agreed to take them out, although I fear they're "upset" that I already want them removed. As long as they're nice when taking them out and are sure not to hurt me, I'm fine lol.

I'm just ready to move on and start putting this behind me. I am so lucky to have a wonderful husband that has been by my side the whole way.

I can't wait to have my natural body back!

The next 11 days cannot go fast enough. I think the waiting is the worst.

I will keep everyone updated as I come toward the end of a horrible mistake.

Thank you for your support :)

I'm not sure if I'm 'brave' or if it's the simple fact that I want them out so bad that 45 minutes of nervousness or uncomfortableness doesn't seem so bad. Trust that I'm really nervous though...because I'll be awake but the general made me feel gross after my BA that I'm willing to do it under local to avoid that again. From what I've read and heard, it's very safe, pretty common and I've even found another woman on here who had hers removed under local and she said the worst part was the needle numbing you, which only felt like a bee sting and the rest was a breeze. I hope I have a similarly easy procedure like her :)
I promise to post..probably as soon as I get home afterwards and share my experience. I'll do my best to make sense as I'll be taking Valium before and Percoset after lol
Thank you for your encouragement. It truly means a lot to me!

Oh my gosh. I know all too well...and I don't know how you've lived with it for a year when you seem to really want them out. Definitely look into explant. It's worth it. Like I said, my procedure will be next Monday and I cannot wait to be free of this. It was definitely a lesson learned...an expensive one, but a lesson nonetheless.
I actually just heard from the receptionist at my PS office and she explained what they're going to do in detail. I am to take 1 Valium and 1 antibiotic an hour before my procedure (half hour before I leave my house), no makeup, no jewelry, dress comfortably. Upon arriving I will go into the room and get changed from the waist up- putting on that beautiful paper coverup lol. My doctor will inject me in the hip with something to help me relax a little more (that combined with the Valium should do it, I hope), then they will inject me at the surgery site (previous scars where the implants were put in), once I'm numbed up they will take me back to surgery where he will open me up, remove the implant and sew me back up. The nurse/receptionist said she will be there with me holding my hand through the whole procedure. That really made me feel at ease. I'm still hoping they'll let me bring my phone/earbuds and listen to my music softly during, music has always helped calm my nerves. Actually getting a step by step description as to what to expect has now helped me calm down and I'm completely ready for this. Now it's just the waiting that really sucks.

I recommend that you look into it. Since it's only been a year, you too might be able to do it under local and have a simple explant. Couldn't hurt to look into. Again, mine are only a little over 3 weeks old so I'm doing it super early on and am not sure what the differences are that can make it more difficult to remove under local but I have read other stories on here from women that had them in for many years and the implant was fine, they just wanted them out, so they too were able to get them removed under local and did just fine.

Try not to be too hard on yourself. As long as you learned something great about yourself in the end, not all has been lost. Sometimes it takes something like this to gain a real sense of self worth and appreciation for our REAL bodies. At least that's how I want to look at it :)

I'm sure you're relationship will be fine. If he really loves you he will be able to get past the initial healing period and you should be able to get back to normal or close to it. Watching my husband these past few weeks take such great care of me and supporting me, the worry in his eyes when I'm do down about this, I know without a doubt he's not going to care. He's always loved me for me, that's why I can't figure out why I felt the need to change myself at all.

We're all here for you! ♡

Thank you very much so glad I have all of u to talk to. Really need that now .I already went in for my consultation . Just trying to get the strength to make the appointment :/ I just need to make that call . They are talking Sept

You're very welcome. Trust me, I know it's not an easy process and out could be rather scary. To be honest, the only thing I'm a little scared about is the actual procedure but I know I can do it...and so can you. How nice it would be to be free of this. I'm sure your mate will fully support you and always remember that you have me and the other amazing ladies on this site. We will be there for you through it all :)

Thank you! Did you have yours removed under local or general anesthesia?
I'm so happy, and nervous...but mostly happy to be getting them out :)

I'm so happy for you that you didn't proceed with the BA. If only I had found this site before going forward with it...
All I had know where old high school girlfriends that had theirs done and had nothing but good things to say about them. I'd see their photos on FB on a daily basis in bathing suits at the river and low cut tops & dresses and they seemed super happy. I asked a few about their experience and they kept assuring me that it was all sunshine and roses.

The actual procedure wasn't bad. I felt fine afterwards and the healing process began. Other than a few sharp pains here and there in my left breast, I felt perfectly fine. Then a few days later I was off the pain meds and had the WORST pain ever in my left breast...and then it went numb. From the left of my left nipple to the side (below my armpit)..and it's still numb :(

I HATE having these foreign objects in me. After reading other stories on here I have more of an understanding about the health risks as well.

I despise having to go outside. I left the house this morning to go shopping and already had anxiety before leaving the house; this was made worse when a random guy whistled at me and yelled "all day, everyday". I was mortified! I text my husband as soon as I got home, in tears. I just want to hide away until these are gone. I don't want anyone to see the mistake I made.

I really hope my story asking with many others can help other women think harder before doing this to themselves. You are very lucky to be wise enough to not do this to yourself. I feel so stupid for putting not only my body and mind through this but also putting my husband through this emotional roller-coaster.

I am SUPER nervous about the explant but know it truly is the right decision. I'd rather go through a little discomfort (even a little pain) now rather than carrying these toxic bags inside of me for years because I was too afraid.

I'm trying to chalk this up to a life lesson...an expensive one, but at least I learned from it. I don't NEED huge breasts to be beautiful. I've always gotten a lot of attention from men; much of it unwanted, especially since I began dating my now husband...and he never once made me feel bad about my smaller breasts. It was all in my own head. May sound crazy but I actually miss my smaller frame and I cannot wait to have it back.

My main hope in getting these out exactly one month to the day from implant is that my breasts have a better chance of restoring themselves back to what they were pre BA.

Thank you for your kind words :) I have met so many amazing and supportive women on here and that's helping make this process easier for me. I love that we can all come together, the way it should be in life. Help building each other up, instead of putting each other down; maybe more women wouldn't feel the need to do this to themselves. If only...
:)

Yes! I completely agree that sometimes when we see friends and family going for implants it's quite easy to get washed away in that feeling of "Oh, I guess we are all doing this now." I know it all too well. But it's quite refreshing to go against that trend - and it is a trend. Fake boobs were big (pun intended) in the 70s and 80s and then out of style in the 90s and then back and forth. They will always go in and out.

Why cut up my body for a trend? It takes a lot of self-patience and soul-searching to wrestle with this question.

You're lucky that you've realized it right away and that your natural shape will be more likely to bounce back quickly. Wishing you a quick and healthy explant. Cheers to healthy natural breasts.

Thank you so much for your support. It's people like you that are helping me stay strong and giving me the confidence that even though I'm nervous I can do it :)

You girls are really smart that you realized this soon.

Thank you sorrrell. Just wish I was smart enough to not have dinner it at all lol. I'm trying not to beat myself up over it and think of it as a life lesson. It's hard not to feel guilty or stupid sometimes.

Thank you so much! I know some people think I'm crazy for taking them out, especially so fast but you're right, we all react differently. Now I know lol
Yes, he's one of the good ones, I sure got lucky :)
xoxo

Thank you very much :)

Thank you so much. The seconds seem to be ticking by so slow lol

Thank you so much! Yes, it's sad that sometimes it takes things like this to realize we're all beautiful the way we are. Society pressures us to believe that we NEED to look a certain way to be liked our loved...that's so not true. Looking at both before and after pictures side by side, I really like the "old" me so much better. I don't know what I was thinking :/ lol

Awe, thank you very much, you're too sweet :)
I honestly cannot wait to get them out of me. I feel gross with them inside of me, and looking at my 'before' pictures, I love my before look. Wish I could have seen that before I put myself through all of this :/
We live and learn, right? Lol

You are super cute ;). Those implants need to come out. My surgery is on August 11. Good luck to you. I've had mine in for 12 years. I hate them. Caused me so many health problems.

Hi. Thank you! :)
Good luck on your explant! We're making the right decision and we'll get through this. I'm happy that you'll be taking back control of your health and happiness. I'm sorry to hear about your health problems. That's another reason I want these out of me asap. If only I had found this site before I did this to myself...
Are you going under local or general anesthesia?

Maybe a little bit of both.
I didn't like them. The way they looked, the way they felt, they were making me feel sick; my body was rejecting them...it wasn't worth it to me. I'm much happier now that they're out and I can get back to living my life now.