Laser Tattoo Removal - Buffalo, NY

Thanks :) Same to you, and thanks for all the support!!

I'm trying, thanks!!

Thank you!!

Thanks for your support! Are you planning on removal?

Thanks!! Whats SW Ontario? I am actually from Ontario but my spouse is American. If I am going to go through with removal then it needs to be Picosure... I feel it would be my only chance for removal with all my ugggggly blue and green. I think any other route would be a waste of time and money for me. What clinic does the doctor in Michigan work at? Does he use Picosure? Unfortunately its not available in Canada yet so of I do begin the process it will be some major traveling for me!!

SW Ontario = South West Ontario.  As for the picosure, I'm waiting for the jury to be out on that one.  I know it all sounds so wonderful, but the reviews from people (right here on this forum) are that it is more painful, more dramatic on your skin.  The healing can be slow.  My technician is going slow and steady so as not to damage the skin and I do see fading.  I want to be rid of the ink, not my skin. As for the doctor that has picosure in Detroit, just google him through Cynosure website, you'll find him.  Good luck!  aloha...k

I hear ya... I always keep mine hidden around my family. I guess I have this strange thought that is no one sees it then they will all forget I have it. I havent been wearing my skin sleeves lately because of the weather but once I go back to work in September I will definitely be wearing it again.

I wish I was that brave. I havent been going out in my home town or been seeing my friends. Ive been hiding. Even seeing my family is getting difficult. My mother and sisters are so beautiful and I feel discusting.

A fabulous attitude to have, no one is perfect out there.  We see people and we may think they are perfect, but we only see what we don't have.  I see beautiful hands and wonder why I've done this to myself.  I think I'm my own worst enemy.  But when I feel positive, I feel fantastic.  I try to ignore the ink, which can be a challenge some days (like today) but then when people ask me about my tattoo and I tell them it looks weird because it's in the process of being lasered and I say "we all make mistakes but technology is helping to correct it", they often agree with me, they tell me about their flaws.  I've also used the positive tactic of saying "yeah, it's a mistake, now that's a lovely t-shirt you have on" and it deflects.  I know I'm in the long haul, it's gonna take years to get this tattoo...this horrible offending ink off of me, but it's just the way it is.  Will I feel better if I mope around...no...I believe, kinda like Tena G thinks, it won't always look like this, it's gonna be okay.  I simply made a mistake.  

I checked out your review!! Is it really going to cost you $10,000 just to lighten yours??

That's what I was quoted with picosure, but I ended up going with a qyag because I am mostly black ink. So no, more like 5000

Are you going to try for full removal? I was quoted $5,600 for 6 treatments with Picosure and then $180.00 for every additional treatment after the 6. After looking at others reviews it seems like I was quoted pretty high. I justp one morning awould be gone

The last sentence of my msg got all messed up. It was going to say... I just wish I could wake up one morning and it would be gone. Im just not me anymore.

I think that's a good price, I was quoted for 1250 per session per HALF of my arm. And no not full removal, just lightening to cover. Don't worry, it is possible. You just need to accept that what's done is done and you can't beat yourself up anymore. Youre gonna look back and be pissed that you wasted so much time being upset over something. Believe me. It will take time and money but it will be fine and use this as a learning/strengthening experience. I bet half of your blue and greens will come out in one treatment from the pico.

Honestly, I feel like Im dying inside. All this ink on my arm consumes my every though... Even when Im thinking about other things its right there with it! I wish I had the money to start the process now. I work for the school board here and make good money, but with just getting a new house I dont have it. Im going to have to find some kind of night job serving or something because theres no way Im gunna do financing for this... I already have $2000/month in bills!! Today has been a really bad day, especially because I feel completely alone in this. I feel like a prisioner in my own skin. I wish I could be happy right now but I cant seem to focus on anything else. Im so glad I have this site, and you guys.

I dont mean to b discouraging but u seem to focus on the negative a lot. U prolly wont make any progress by sitting there feeling sorry for urself for the rest of ur life. Get out n motivate urself to be positive. Exercise! Do anything but continuely complain bout somethin u cant ddo anything bout rite now... U r beautiful. Stop beating urself up. Chow.

Actually... that is kind of discouraging. Everyday I try to be positive, get out, enjoy life... which you would know if you read my most recent update. I don't really think it's your place to tell me that I'm feeling sorry for myself, I focus on the negative, and I probably won't make any progress. I'm on this site for support from others and to help others too. You don't know me, so please don't judge me... that's the last thing I want.

Sorry u r right. That was pretty rude of me and i appologize. Its not my place to tell u how to react to ur own personal issues. To be honest i think its huge of u to get on here and share your experience w us and i thank u. U really are makinf progress by unraveling your feelings everyday and sharing them w others. Maybe the pain of my own recovery is getting to me. I am the negative 1 ? Deepest appolgies. Danielle

Sorry, I don't mean to intrude on your conversation, but I must say that I don't think jayjay84 was trying to be rude, or discouraging, I think it was meant to be helpful. Geamrok, I am so glad you are on this site so that you get some form of support, and trust me, I have, and so many others have been exactly where you are and felt the same way. I still have moments of anger and frustration over this, but I have found a way to move on, and jayjay84 is trying to encourage you to do the same, and getting outside, or exercise is a great place to start. None of us really know exactly what the other is feeling, but we sure can relate. That is why being open and honest, and sometimes right out blunt is needed. I recall my husband telling me to stop feeling sorry for myself, and was sick and tired of watching me sob over this tattoo regret, and I got so angry at him for not understanding...but people encourage us to help us, not to be negative. I don't think anyone on this site, or anyone who cares about you would purposely say anything to make you feel worse. The intent is to help. Please continue to try and focus on positives in your life, you got a new house, you have a great job, you have someone who loves you in your life, and really...your tattoo is nothing to be ashamed of, again, I understand YOU don't like it, but it really is not a bad tattoo. I understand that money is tight and you don't have the funds right now, but you know what, I believe that the more positive energy you put out there, the money and happiness will find you. Laws of attraction. I really believe there is a force in our universe that listens to us and guides us, and gives us what we ask for, and sometimes what we don't want...and that usually happens when we are in a negative state of mind. When you change to a positive state of mind, and I mean really positive, you will get the help you need, the money will come. Do you realize the power of your own mind, we are extremely powerful, and when we get in tune with our mind and calm and focus, life changes. Now listen up, this is important....It is proven that when we are in a long term negative, stressful state of mind this causes sickness, the mind can not distinguish between different types of stress, lion chasing you down or a ruined dinner party, or a bad tattoo..to the mind it stress, when your brain is constantly bombarded with stress...it feels in danger, and it reacts just as it would in any other stressful situation, releasing the unwanted stress hormone cortisol - did you know that if this is on-going it can actually decrease the number of brain cells impairing your memory, premature brain aging, it affects your blood pressure and the fats in your blood, this can lead to heart attack, stroke. Prolonged stress is simply not good for you, it is proven that when there is depression there will be an excess of cortisol in your blood. I don't mean to sound like I know it all, but I want you to understand how damaging this is if you don't get over this.

Trust me... I know all this. I also believe that you can manifest good or bad for yourself. I never thought in amillion years I would ever be in a dark place like this. Its been extremely

Damnit, my messages keep posting before im done. Anyways, this whole situation has turned me into someone I dont even know. Im sorry ive been venting, I just feel lost and dont have anyone I feel comfortable discussing it with.

Bb11 and jayjay84 have both typed similar to what I would've... We are here to encourage and support each other and honestly I think part of that support is letting each other know that we do have the strength to pick ourselves up... Believe me I know your pain and disgust over the tattoo... Have you seen my review? I have almost my entire right arm consumed by ink... The top portion I'm keeping but seeing this added outline of ugly makes me hate the entire arm... I get it, I truly do... And you will have hard days, but I promise you it gets easier.. Probably once treatments get started since I know that helps me deal and cope, and talking to others helps to... I hide only to my grandparents... But it has also become second nature to cover my arm when I leave the house but its because of my darker skin tone and I don't want to impede treatments in any way... Don't hide out of shame.. I get it, I feel ugly especially catching myself seeing others with beautiful ink, or even better with beautiful clean skin... I see old pictures of myself and long for that part of my body back... Then I have to snap out of it and realize I have my life, family, daughter.. I will be ok::: you will too... Hang in there... Hugs -barbiedoll90

Good Morning Geamrok, I hope you are feeling better today, I thought of you last night and wished there was some way I could help you more,  help you past this part of the regret. No need to be sorry, I am glad you are getting out your emotions, that is the first step to healing...I did it, and still do, and so do others. We all will have our aha moment and start to feel better at different times during this process, AND we, or at least I know for me, even when I did start to feel better it was up and down...and again, I am not perfect I still feel the anguish over this regret, but the only difference is I have learned to deal with it, and I understand the importance of my health and the health of my family, and how one negative person can impact the environment. Negative energy is more powerful than positive energy....have you ever been in a room where there is a bunch of people who are happy, laughing, then one negative person walks in and the energy in the room shifts...you don't want to be that person, neither do I. Remember who you are, the real you is more important than this tattoo. All of my better days started outside, on a walk, running, yoga...I always felt better, I remember the day, one of the first in the spring...I live near the beach, that day my husband said to me..."That's enough lets go for a walk to the beach" On the way there I remember trying to explain to him how hard this was, and like you mention, how uncomfortable I felt in my own skin, I felt ugly, powerless in my situation, disbelief that I could have done this to myself, like you...I was not the same person and like you, was in a very dark place, one I had never visited before. Those are horrible feelings but are real, and I commend you for being honest as again they are real feelings, and I know them all to well. I remember that day my husband kept reminding me that as much as I feel different I wasn't, he never even saw the tattoo, he saw me, (well he said he doesn't the real me anymore cuz I was so sad), but he knew I was still in there, and he was not going to give up on me. We got to the beach, I smiled as I watched my dog run through the water for the first time (he had never been near water) I was shocked that he didn't even question going in, he just ran in and he played, that lifted my spirits, then I grabbed a stick and I started drawing patterns and writing positive sayings in the sand, I started to feel good. My husband watched me and just let me be, the healing had begun, I felt how proud he was of me, and for a moment I felt normal. I said to my husband, "I hope that my words in the sand will inspire someone else walking by that may be feeling down to feel happy". I must have written a dozen of saying one about every 10 steps so that whoever needed those words would see them as they walked. There is power in words. I think I might have written about that day on my review, because I remember wanting to share that moment with all on this site to encourage them to move on. Geamrok, you can do this, I know you can, you are a beautiful person no matter what you may feel, we all are, beauty comes from within. Our true beauty shines through our smile, our eyes, our words and actions, not what's on your skin, or how much you weigh, or what you are wearing. Your tattoo is part of you now, just like mine is a part of me. Even when it fades away it will still be a part of me, as this experience is a part of my life's journey. We all will have something happen to us that will cause us to suffer, maybe multiple times, but that helps sculpt who we are. I never imagined that so many people were going through the regret of a tattoo or a cover up ( I thought I was the only person in the world that covered up one tattoo only to have a worse one) but then one reply and review after another I suddenly realized OMG, I am not the only one, I wasn't alone and my feelings of regret and disbelief were normal feelings that accompany this situation, I am thankful for this site, as with  each review and post I am able to connect to others, and being in the place I am now, help them. Please look past your tattoo and at who you are, and love yourself, that's where it all begins - look in the mirror and say to yourself that I am beautiful and I love myself, smile at  yourself and be proud of who you are. Have an amazing weekend. Your friend, B11

Ya know Geamrok, it's okay to vent.  We have all had those horrible feelings.  After I got my offending ink, I cried and cried.  I really thought there was something wrong with me, something mentally wrong with me.  How could I do this to myself?!  Why did I do this to myself?  Why didn't I speak up?  But finding this forum really helped me.  And then having the consultation helped me, doing something about it helped me.  And therapy helped me also.  I learned that it was just a mistake, I feel bad about it because it was something I did.  I deliberately did this.  But I did it thinking it was gonna be beautiful, but it isn't...well not to me anyways.  And my opinion is what matters the most.  Just like your opinion matters.  If you can't finance the removal now, and that is what can really suck big time, then maybe a tattoo cover, they come in all kinds of skin colours.  I know many people here on the forum that cover them up, it gives you a bit of relief from the ink.  I use mine, and just tell nosey people that it's for arthritis.  I do just about anything to make myself feel better.    In the meantime, venting is good, knowing we are here for you, knowing that eventually laser removal will erase the mistake.  Good luck.  aloha...k

Ya know Geamrok, Blackberry11 is so right.  I'd like to add a few things that I have learned over this past year.  I realized one day that it takes a lot of energy to be negative, it takes a lot of energy to get out of the black pit of negativeness.  But once you pull out, it is easier to be positive.  We, here, all of us have made mistakes with our own offending ink.  I did a cover up, planned it out, thought it would be beautiful, but it wasn't.  B11 also thought her cover up would be stunning...although I think it's gorgeous, she does not.  I think your tattoo is stunning, but it's more important what you think.  I decided one day that I had enough of feeling negative.  I decided I would ignore the ink, it was hard to do in the beginning...I mean, come 'on, it's on my hand.  If I look down right now, I'll see it.  But instead, I focus on what the hand does, its strength, the good it can do.  I buy beautiful bracelets and wear them on my wrists, ignoring the ink.  I've trained myself to do this.  If I didn't, I would be so miserable.  And you know, I'm worth far more than a miserable life.  I'm healthy (and I've had a few bouts of the big C), I'm alive (I know some women who have lost the battle with the big C).  I just couldn't live a miserable life.  So I chose to be happy, this sounds so stupid and so wishy-washy, but it's something I chose to do.  Of course, I get sad about the tattoo, especially after a laser session but it's part of the healing process (my technician said it's perfectly normal).  I wish I could wave a magic wand and it would be fixed, but it simply won't be.  I have no control over the process, but I do have control over my life, my feelings, my thoughts.  And so I chose to be happy.  I also chose to share my story, my feelings, because with every one I meet on this site, they have helped me.  I see the beauty in them and I share with them this beauty that I see.  I hope you try what BB11 suggests, standing in front of a mirror, saying the good things about yourself and being proud of who you are.  Good luck. aloha...k

Thank you

Thanks. Unfortunately, I'm my worst enemy... I really don't care what others think of me as much as how I view myself.

Thanks!!

Go outside and find a dog to play with? LOL