I am heartbroken and afraid that my face has been permanently ruined

Had a Buccal fat reduction and micro lipo with Dr Ridgeway in June. I expressed being concerned about being left gaunt to which he assured me that he was skilled in this procedure and would not leave me looking that way. At first when I was out of surgery I loved the way it looked, I should have known that if I already loved it with all the swelling I had that it was going to be bad once the swelling went down. I went to the one month post op and still felt good about my face. It takes sometimes 4 month for all the swelling to settle. I’m now 6months out from the surgery and I couldn’t hate my face more. I’ve always wanted to change little things on my face or slim down my cheeks but I’ve never felt like this before. I am gaunt and hollow and weirdly uneven so that my mid face looks distorted and old. I genuinely feel sick to my stomach to look at my face at this point and have anxiety about going out. It’s so extremely drastic. I am heartbroken and afraid that my face has been permanently ruined. At this point I’ve been meeting with other surgeons about my options but it’s very hard to correct something like this and there is no permanent solution that won’t require some kind of filler or fat transfer for the rest of my life