New Pictures!!! 2 1/2 Weeks post op! Nerve pain sucks!

I am 5"10 and fluctuate between 138-141 lbs. I am having a full tummy tuck with muscle / hernia repair and a breast augmentation. I am going with 350cc saline moderate plus implant filled to 410 or 420cc. I was going to go with 325cc moderate filled to 390cc but felt like maybe I should go a little bigger since I am a tall girl. I am in the best shape of my life and I look like I have the body of a 90 year old woman. No offense:) I have 4 kids all 4 years old and under! My twins are 4, I have a 3 year old and an almost 14 month old who is my little cling-on 24/7...yes I carry her constantly!!!! My anxiety is through the frickin roof!! I have help for 3 1/2 to 4 weeks and that is it! I have gone through such a range of emotions since booking this procedure...one second I am so happy then I start to feel insanely guilty and selfish...then I am terrified I am going to die and never see my babies again... then I feel nauseous...then I am happy again...then depressed. I feel like a crazy lady. I am trying to get 50 million things done for tomorrow like cooking lots of meals to freeze and getting all my supplies set out and washing all the sheets etc etc etc! So much to do. My doctor also recommended fasting the day before to avoid constipation?? I am really craving chocolate chip pancakes and just might have to make those for the kids of course:) LOL. I started taking pre-operative supplements from Make me Heal 2 weeks ago and have been eating tons of salads, vegetables and fruits. My doctor has been great so far. After I paid my fees he did tell me at my last appointment that I need a vertical scar too!!! Not to happy about that. I had my belly button pierced when I was pregnant with the twins and it stretched out the area above my belly button as you can see in pics. He said he may need to do that to be able to reach that skin:( I would REALLY love to be able to wear a bikini again! I hope the scar is not terrible. I guess I can always get a tattoo over it in the future if I come out of this alive. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I have surgery tomorrow!!! Sorry if typos I am trying to hurry before the herd of babies wake up.

Happy to be alive and doing well. The doc put 420cc in one breast and 400cc in the other. I was in surgery over 5 hours. My tummy definitely hurts much more than my boobies. I have my follow up appt Thursday and there is a small chance my stomach drains might come out then. Fingers crossed. The doctor pulled out my boob drains this am. The left one hurt a lot when he did it and right did not hurt at all. I am getting the best sleep I have had in the last 4 yrs. Thanks for support. Will keep u updated!!

So today I am 2 days post op. I had surgery Monday at 7.30am and stayed overnight in the hospital, which I highly recommend, especially if you have little ones at home. I am sleeping in my bed at home and it is not as comfortable to me as the hospital bed. It is a little tough getting in and out even with all of my pillows around and under me. It is amazing how much we use our abdominal muscles. I can feel them as I am typing this now. The ride home really sucked. There were so many bumps in the road and each one hurt like hell. It took us over 30 min to get home cause we had to get all my prescriptions filled. I really wish we would have been able to before the surgery but whatever it is over now.
It was tough last night because my baby wanted me to pick her up and hold her and I couldn't.
It is super painful waking up in the morning. I felt like I had just nursed about 100 babies through the night.
My goal today is to poop. I have been taking a stool softner since Saturday before the surgery and had some milk of magnesia last night and this am. Fingers crossed.
I just wanted to briefly explain my story. I have always fluctuated with my weight and was insecure with my body. I had a full ride scholarship to play basketball in college and still wasn't in great shape. My weight fluctuated between 151-163. I was very insecure with my body. My husband and I got married and wanted to have a baby. So I took a pregnancy test one month later on my birthday and it was positive. I didn't find out I was having twins until the 20 week ultrasound. Big Surprise! I gained 80lbs with the twins. I had preeclampsia which made me gain like 50 lbs in the last month of being pregnant. When the twins were 6 months old and I was still nursing I got preggers again. This baby was a 10lb baby and I gained 60lbs with her. When she was 2 I had one more baby and I gained 40lbs with her. My boobs went from 36 b to DD then back to an A/B then back to DD then again with the last baby. This cycle really ruined my body. My breasts completely deflated and sagged. My stomach looked terrible and I always felt fat cause of all the extra skin I had to tuck into my pants. I am really happy I did this....before the surgery I had major doubts. My emotions were all over the place pre-surg. I felt sick to my stomach beforehand and spent a lot of the day crying. Plus my hubby and I got into an argument the day before which made me an emotional wreck. I do not regret doing this. I an happy that I did. We only live once and I did not want to live with that body anymore. Maybe now I will feel confident naked in front of my husband and out in public in a swimsuit. Starting to feel nauseous and have a headache now. I will post pics once I follow up with doctor. I feel too exhausted and dizzy to take binder off to see myself. my husband is working today and now I have to take care of myself today. Wish me luck.