Only 2 Days Left!!! - British Columbia

My story.....Alot like everyone elses. I had my first baby at age 19 and over the next 12 years she was followed by 8 more (one passed away as an infant so I only have the pleasure of raising 8). Yes ladies I had 9, the last 4 being c-sections. I have since been divorced from my husband of 18 years and found the true love of my life and now am a happy mom of 4 stepsons as well. As kids are finally getting older and starting to leave home, it is time to take some time for me.
I have always been very active and tried to squeeze running and workouts into my daily life. I am at my heaviest weight right now (aside from post prego) and weigh in at 146 lb and am 5'7" tall, and age 40. pretty average I guess. I have always wanted to go ahead with this and my husband told me he loves me the way I am but if its important to me then its important. So he is making this dream come true for me. I'm so nervouse excited I can hardly wait till Saturday!
I am going ahead with a mini TT, my Dr says I don't have enough skin to do a full, so sadly I will still have my stretchmarks. I actually shed a few tears on letting that go. And a breast lift and augment with a 300 implant. I wear a 36B right now and should end up with a 36 C, (I hope) I have lurked on this site on and off for the past 3 years and have loved following all the stories. Me joining this group is very unlike me! But I figured I lurked for so long that I owed to anyone out there looking into this to have another story to compare too. So.....its nice to meet you all :) I will try figure out the picture thing as soon as I can

So its now day three. Back at home doing the mommy thing. Pretty tired and feeling super impatient to get just get better and move along with life!! I Took off my bandages from the TT and wanted to cry, its just a lumpy ugly mess!! I knew I couldn't get rid of stretch marks so it was just to tighten up the pooch. But its just so puffy and ugly :( I am just being impatient I know, I thought the swelling on a mini wasn't supposed to be so intense?
How long doe it take for the breasts to drop? At the moment they are still very high, Still kinda hard to take a deep breath, like an elephant is sitting on my chest!! Pain is managable with just T3, but they wreak havoc on my stomach. Most of the pain is intense burning sensation at incision sites. Can stand up nice and straight again, so thats good!
I have a question about compression garments. Why do some ps says yes non-stop for 6 weeks and some for a week? I don't even have to wear one for my tummy (but its more comfy so I have been anyways) and he said a sports bra is fine for the breasts, is this normal? Maybe I should've asked more questions....

Hmmmm, well now I'm a week post op. Actually pretty good week. Still strugggling with the swelling :P But I have an awesome binder from walmart that sems to keep it under control. Remember I only had the mini with noe muscle repair so my recovery has been pretty quick. My surgeon also did no drains on tummy or breasts so it was awesome. Breasts are still pretty tender but not as bad as I thought they should be....Is that normal? Also I have a major nasty bruise on the side of one.

I have never worn a sports bra in my life and the thing seems to be killing me!! Is it just too small or are they supposed to be super tight? I think thats the worst part right now, it feels like theres an elephant sitting on my chest! Is it the bra or the implants?

Physically I am healing well, PS said things went textbook awesome. But I have been struggling more with the emotional side of things. My dear hubby was not for this at all. He has always told be I am beautiful in every way. But when he saw it was so important to me he said go ahead, if its important to you that makes it important. But it almost feels now like he is resentful or something. he will not say anything about wether he thinks it looks good or if he likes it, in fact he's kind of distant. Not at all like himself.He is usually sweet and attentive and complimentary. I have wanted this for so long, thinking always that it was all for me. But what if he really just doesn't like it? I feel beautiful and kinda sad all at the same time. Honestly in my clothes you can't tell a bit of difference, my jeans don't have to adjust for the poochy tummy so they are comfyer but not enough to change sizes or anything. But naked?? Big difference
As you all know, when we go through this it is absolutely all consuming, right? I think it, dream it, everything. But when you can't voice it at all (no one else knows) it gets overwhelming. So today feels dreary! Anyways, be strong ladies, take care of yourselves, I'll post a picture of my new bikini shot at one week post op. Take care

At 9 days post op, I feel fabulous! Still the swelling and all but really so happy I went through with it! I actually ordered 4 bikinis from VS today, I live in the frigid north, where the heck am I gonna wear these!!?? It just feels good to be positive and happy.

I had a tiny bit of lipo on my tummy, no bruising or anything but man oh man is that tender...Is that normal? Breasts are nice and soft already, I have been doing massage everyday, and it sure has made a difference on how they feel. Tummy too, cuts down on the swelling, I'm wearing my compression garment only a couple hours a day, just for comfort sake. I probably look like a prego always rubbing my tummy!
Sorry no picture this week yet, I'll get my daughter to do it for me (technologically handicapped here) Have a good day all, be happy, your beautiful!!