One areola is noticeably larger than the other, one breast is bigger than the other

Decided to check in after some years to see if others are experiencing the same thing I did some years back. YEARS of depression over my horrible breast reduction back in 2018. Dr. Reish offered to do a revision after I showed the various areas of being botched & I went in the ofc where they attempted to start a revision, only to have them do local anesthesia which was a nightmare since they didn’t completely numb the area. They had to stop, inject some more (imagine feeling a scalpel sever your skin, feeling the gut wrenching pain & burning of one’s skin)! I was terrified and was told to come back in, but I couldn’t bare to, after experiencing what occurred. Covid-19 hit the world, I had to deal with my Dad’s cancer and I just put myself to the side!
I’ve sent numerous pics to the doctor and called the ofc at one point, but became frustrated. I am so self conscious of my breasts- one areola is noticeably larger than the other, one breast is bigger than the other, there are dimpling indents on my inner breast area, the incision in itself isn’t symmetrical- looks like someone used a chainsaw to cut me, there’s bulging areas around my nipple and I have dog ears going towards my right underarm (total contrast from my left)! Should’ve sought counseling from this, however just been drowning my sorrows! Beware! All smiles, assurances, warm empathetic text messages, but in reality no genuine desire to rectify damages caused! Finally found the courage to share..