36-year-old mom of two, 5' 4", about 130 lbs., getting 300 cc Sientra HP form stable ("gummy bear") implants

I have been thinking about getting implants for > 20 years, ever since I hit puberty and did not develop. I have VERY LITTLE breast tissue. My breasts have always been my biggest disappointment and dislike about my body. I don't if I have hit an age where I no longer care what other people think, or if I'm running out of things to want, or what, but I finally just decided to stop dreaming about this and go for it. For years, fear of general anesthesia and scary stories about silicone have held me back, but I'm tired of choosing inaction out of fear--that is no way to live!--and I am tired of hating my breasts. My breasts are so tiny and ugly, I don't even like my husband to look at them. Again, that's no way to live, right?!
I consulted with two doctors and chose Dr. Baxter. I heard of him from this website and from Skin Spirit in Seattle. He's the doctor in charge there, and I have been going there for years for IPL and laser hair removal. Dr. Baxter and his staff (Robin and Lori are great!) made me feel very comfortable and confident about the process and the surgery itself. They really spent a lot of time talking with me. I talked with Robin (nurse) for an hour about every little question I had, then spent another hour with her and Dr. Baxter to do measurements, 3D imaging, and (back with Robin only) implant try-on. My impression is that Dr. Baxter will bring the right combination of skill and artistry to the table. And his bedside manner is excellent. I also feel extremely comfortable with him because he's been in practice for so many years--I trust his experience, and that of his anesthesiologist (25 years!). He uses a nurse anesthesiologist rather than an MD, which I have some misgivings about since my biggest fear about this entire process is going under general anesthesia. I have never done it before and it terrifies me. But fundamentally, I trust the years of experience more than the technical credential, and that has calmed me down a lot.
I still have a lot of thinking and researching to do before my 12/15/16 pre-op appointment in order to pick my final implant type. Dr. Baxter suggested either a silicone round of 275 ccs or a form stable silicone implant if I wanted to go up to 300 ccs. I'd like to be a full C or small D. Any bigger and I'm afraid I'll just look chubby (my build is somehow petite and thick at the same time, and I'm very short-waisted, so I'm prone to looking "boxy"). I want my breasts to be round and sexy, and balance out my rear end, but not be ridiculous or "overdone." I am a mid-career professional and don't want my breasts to be the 1st thing people notice about me.
I have virtually no breast tissue whatsoever; there is no way I'm even an A-cup, currently, and I'm relatively athletic for my age, so I have pecs and not a lot of tissue to cover up an implant. Dr. Baxter uses a split-muscle technique to minimize the likelihood of animation deformities and I am stoked about going that way. If anyone has input for me on round smooth v. form stable (which are all textured, as I understand it), I'd love to hear it. I would be all for the form stable ones (lower capsular contracture and "rupture" risks), but I have two concerns: 1) are they so solid and in a fixed position that I couldn't create cleavage with a bra and 2) since they're firmer, will I be constantly aware of them, like two foreign objects stuck to my body. I'd particularly love feedback/comments on form stable implants from anyone who has them!

I am afraid both of going too big and too small. I want to go big enough that it really makes an impact, and I don't want to have the typical "boob greed" after and end up having them upsized. But I apparently have a relatively small base to put an implant into, and since I'm short-waisted, might just look chubby if I go too big. I'm thinking a C will be good, but then when I look at other people's before and after pics, it looks like they're (a) starting w/ more breast tissue and (b) using larger implants than what I'm looking at (265-300 cc range) and often look about the size I want to go, which makes me think either I want to go bigger than I realized or the implants might not be large enough to get the look I want. Tough decisions!

I have to say how great it is that this site is available. I have been really grateful that over the past few months I've been able to read so many other people's stories so that this process could be de-mystified for me. I have been thinking about getting implants for decades and then after the FDA moratorium just figured "well, that's out, never going to happen," but started looking into it again after any tiny boobs I had just disintegrated into my base fat layer after having my second child. This site has really "normalized" the process and made it less scary, and has been imperative to making me comfortable proceeding with a BA myself. I just know after I get mine done I'm going to ask myself "Jeez, why did I spend so many more years than I had to having ugly non-breasts?" I am not looking forward to the recovery but other than that, I am SO EXCITED.

On the issue of recovery, I am having surgery on a Friday and don't have to be back in the office until the following Friday. I just can't be on pain pills by then because I am a lawyer and have to be in court! I would love to hear from others if a week is enough to be off any fog-inducing pain meds (over-the-counter pills like Advil won't impact my court performance).

I'm adding some wish boob pics that I've borrowed from other people's posts!