Completely Let Me Down

I'll try to keep this as short as possible but believe me is a lot to it I went to Dr Corbin in 1991 how to breast augmentation and 25 years later I noticed they didn't look quite right so I thought it's time to do a revision I went back to Dr Corbin long story short very long story short he simply replace the implant with larger ones he did not alter the pockets he did not fix the bottom doubt pocket I had a Snoopy deformity in one breast and the other breast with bottomed out is capsular contracture in the left breast he was extremely vague I saw him from maybe 3 minutes during the consultation and I did not get to try on a bra with sizers I simply guess that what size I should get I currently had 450 CC's and they look small because they were so deformed looking and I had nothing to go off of I Never Had It implant in my hand so Dr Corbin said 700 ultra high profile silicon round I knew something was wrong in my gut and I called him at least five times before surgery his exact words Maria stop obsessing you're driving yourself crazy I paid him $11,000 is and the day of surgery I was very apprehensive I wanted to back out of the surgery he said there would be a fee and I felt an enormous amount of pressure on me I continued to ask him what are you going to do to reinforce the bottom of the pockets so they don't bottomed out? I asked him about the dermal Matrix material he told me that stuff the internal bra is a scam he said I am overthinking things and that's when he ordered the anesthesiologist to put me to sleep he said please put her out of her misery and put all of us out of the misery of her. I woke up four and a half hours later very confused I was freezing cold I was completely naked there was no ace bandage around me there was no bra on me I had to put it on myself needless to say the results are not good and he refuses to give me any money back of course and I would never go back to him again I'm just going to leave it at that most likely he'll be retired this year his license expires in November and he has a lot negative things on his record with the medical board and he was recently sued for and and the plaintiff was awarded $400,000 this was in 2017 not to mention his conviction of smuggling implants in the country when they were banned by the FDA the list goes on and on if you want to go to him it's a roll of the dice

I have fallen into a deep depression never felt like this in my life. I'm done,,! Lost hope and can't afford another 11 grand . I actually paid 11 grand for this ! I cry daily don't leave my house and am filled with anger and confusion why? Why?