Regrets depression possible implant removal

I’m 24 years old. 5’3 and 114 pounds. A natural 32c. I got 350 moderate plus implants. They are massive on me.
I cry every single day since my augmentation.
I’ve considered downsizing but also am considering removal all together.
From other people’s experiences’s I want to know if you felt sexy after removal (I was never insecure about my natural boobs) or if you downsized and felt better about your augmentation. If I decide to downsize I would drop down to 200cc moderate implants.
My doctor says he thinks I have good skin that will retract nicely but honestly I have no idea what I want to do.
I use to swear I would never get implants but after entering a new relationship and moving to a new country I suddenly felt insecure about my boobs (I only wanted implants for 3 months) I was too insecure to back out of my surgery and ended up going through with it and immidetly regretted it and realized that my insecurities were all in my head and had I addressed this issues with my partner, we could have just talked it out, but instead I underwent a medical procedure that has destroyed my self confidence. I have never been so depressed in my life. I cry every single day. Every single day. And miss my natural body but don’t want to remove the implants all together and feel insecure.
I’ve never been a “big boob person” and I didn’t get this surgery at all for myself.
So Keeping my current implants is not an option.
Thoughts, opinions??
Should I downsize or remove?
I’m truely torn.

This has been one of the most painful experiences of my life.
Today is the day I get rid of these things though and put the past behind me.
I know that this is just the beginning of the road to recovery but I am definitely ready to at least move forward at this point.
I am currently 3.5 months post op from my original breast augmentation.

Here are some last photos of the implants

So I now have really bad anxiety about surgery so prior to my surgery I cried the entire time and woke up out of my anesthesia and said to the nurses “I change my mind I don’t want to have this surgery” but it is like I was imagining going into my original breast augmentation (because that was my last thought before I fell asleep)
Since I’ve came home from surgery, I’ve been an emotional wreck. Continuously crying and getting upset with my partner...
Back to my surgery details, turns out that during my surgery, my surgeon realized that my implant had bottomed out.
So I had to get internal stitching to repair my natural fold.
I am making a follow up appointment for a couple of weeks from now.
My boobs aren’t wrinkled at the top,
I’ve taken small glances; they are definitely loose.
I’m pretty nervous at this stage because they look much smaller than before my breast Augmentation but I think this could be because of the loose skin.
My partner is helping me remain optimistic and reminding me that this is a time for healing and if for some reason I am upset about volume, I can start pounding the carbs down and do a fat transfer to my breasts lol
I’ve already called a dermatologist about laser treatments on the scars which I am going to start around 2 months post op!
I am physically in a lot of pain. And I feel like it is giving me flash backs of how I felt after my original breast augmentation.
I will take photos for you at my 2 week appointment! Until then I am trying not to look too much.
Hopefully I will be feeling better and more optimistic at my two week mark.
I’m still very very regretful about getting the implants to begin with.
I’m actually having to go back to the states for a bit to heal and be around friends and family because I feel like I keep taking out my regrets and resentments on my partner which I don’t think is fair to do to him :(
Our relationship was so amazing before this. He keeps saying it still is but I know it’s different :( I’m different and it sucks.
p.s. sorry for the negatives ladies. I’m hoping it starts to get a lot better.