5’6, 140 Lb, 36A constricted breasts to saline 375 R/395 L Sub muscular Mod +

I had my consult on 9/4 and was disappointed the doctor was booked pretty much for the rest of the month, but I was able to secure a surgery date four weeks out on 10/2. I am so excited! I already started prepping for my surgery even before I’m cleared via pre-op (is it weird that I’m paranoid I will somehow “fail” my pre-op and not be able to proceed??). Pre-op will be Monday 9/28. Crossing my fingers.
I’ve so far bought Hibiclens, several (I know, I went overboard) large sports bras w/ front zips, palmers cocoa butter, arnica for bruising, silicone tape, and will probably pick up some bio oil just because.
I am looking to be a full c/small d, and want cleavage and side boob, and stupidly only looked at 300 cc and 350 cc at the consult. I really liked the 350 but think I want to go a little bit bigger, but 400 scares me for some reason. So I’m splitting the difference at 375. In the end, 25-50 cc is probably pretty negligible but I’m torturing myself over this decision? I think I will need to look at sizes again before my surgery - I wonder if the doctor will allow that?
I wish I had my boobs already!!

I must be frank - I initially was lured to Dr. Khalil for a special that he was advertising on Google. I had been a long term lurker on RealSelf and seriously considered a BA approximately 4-5 years ago, but financially and likely emotionally, was not in a position at that time to have gone through with it. I had never gone to a consult before, and the consult was free. So I thought "why not?". I had Friday, 9/4 off and booked an in person consult. Before going, I pored over his reviews on Yelp, Google, RealSelf (of course), Vitals, and even stalked some of his patients on IG. I found that I knew some of his prior patients on a 2nd and 3rd degree. I scrutinized his before and after pictures. I was impressed with his website and results. He also has experience with tuberous/hypoplastic breasts. I have not been officially diagnosed with hypoplasia, but my boobs have the classic asymmetry/wide apart/puffy nipples/dense tissue at the tip which creates the conical shape. Basically I'm 80% nipple and 20% boob. I always felt like my chest looked like a chubby 13 year old boy's. My boobs just looked SAD. And what I saw from Dr. Khalil made me excited for, well, BOOBS!

His office is in Beverly Hills, just a stone's throw from Rodeo, and is beautiful. His coordinator is amazing and sweet, and the doctor himself was very professional and patient with me. I told him I wanted saline, and was prepared for the up-sell to silicone, but he never once questioned my decision to go for saline. He did tell me that right now, because my breasts are small, the asymmetry will be more noticeable once I have implants in. He noticed one chest stuck out more than the other. He asked where I wanted my incision, and I told him the nipple, and he agreed with the areola. I have very realistic expectations from my BA. I understand I will not have perfect symmetry or shape. But honestly, with what I have now, anything the doctor does for me will be an upgrade! The only comment he made was reciting a factual statistic that 1 in 4 women thought they went bigger. That was it. I never felt uncomfortable or pressured. The coordinator also advised me that the doctor has privileges and the surgery will be at the office I visited. (I was concerned that the consult would be in Beverly Hills and then SURPRISE the actual surgery is in Downey (nothing wrong with the city of Downey)). I felt so at ease and so excited that I booked my surgery on the spot. I did mention in my earlier post that I was disappointed that it was four weeks out, but my bf told me it was good to have time to think about it more, plan and prepare, so it didn't feel like a "rush" decision.

So, I decided to go with saline because I have pretty bad anxiety and don't want to deal with the stress and hassle of yearly MRIs/mammograms and the constant fear that "my boob has popped and silicone is dripping into my insides." This was one of the main reasons I chose not to go forward with BA four years ago. I know saline is more of a fake look, and I'll have issues with rippling, but it gives me peace of mind knowing that I will absolutely KNOW when it's been deflated, and that the saline solution will not harm my body. I have watched enough Botched to know that complications can arise with saline as well, but those usually involved implants decades old.

In any event, I am super excited for my upcoming surgery. It is in two weeks! I am crossing my fingers no issues with being cleared for pre-op!

I completed my covid test and blood work on Friday, 9/25. Called into the office today and was told they had my covid results in (negative - yay!), but didn’t have my blood labs back yet. I hope everything comes back OK so I can proceed this Friday. I have been watching a ton of YouTube vlogs to prepare myself. It’s fascinating how some look like they’ve been hit by a train and others are going about their daily routine as though they didn’t have major surgery right after. I wonder what camp I’ll fall into. Will I also puke on the car ride back due to anesthesia? So many questions. Also, the age old size question had been raging within me. I think I might be willing to go up to 400cc... but I’m not sure. I think I will defer to my PS’s recommendation and go from there. I know I want to be a full C, max small D. I believe my rib cage will fit the mod plus, but again, will defer to the expert. I’m so nervous and excited. Work has been extremely emotional and hectic, so this has been something I’ve really been looking forward to for myself. I will do one last gigantic load of laundry Thursday. Ugh I hope my labs come back normal!!!