POSTED UNDER Breast Augmentation Reviews
23 Yrs Old, 245cc Anatomical implants , 120 Lbs and 5'5"
UPDATED FROM bennii
2 months post
The good and the bad
benniiApril 5, 2016
$4,700
So it's been a while since I updated this review. I have started a new one on the implant removal section because I'm probably going to explant. But I wanted to this review too, because I believe the more detailed and complete a review is, the more it can help somebody.
So let me start with the good things:
1. I don't have any pain or discomfort.
2. I can sleep on my tummy. I actually started doing that about 1,5 months post op!
3. They are getting a little softer.
4. I'm in a better place mentally. I still regret my decision, but I can think about other things and have fun.
Then the bad:
1. I hate how I look. I know I picked the wrong size and probably the wrong PS. They are just way too big and too low.
2. Flexing or using my pecs is really uncomfortable and my boobs look even worse when I do it. My biggest regret is actually going under the muscle, because when the muscle is cut to place the implant, the muscle is damaged and can never be repaired. Even if you remove the implants, you will still have muscle animation! I don't think you loose any strength or function of the muscle, but your boobs will forever move and look weird when you flex with or without implants. I was never told this, so I feel it is important to share this, so anyone that considers going under the muscle knows the consequences. I'm kinda disappointed that there is so few reviews even mentioning how they look and how they feel when they flex (and even fewer pictures), despite the fact that the wast majority on this site get implants under the muscle. I think i'ts an important part of getting implants under the muscle. I mean a lot of girls share so many pictures of their boobs through
their recovery and of the final result, in every angle, with or without bras/bikinis, but not a single one of how their boobs look when they flex. I have a feeling that's it's almost a taboo. I know I wish I had read more about this, before I made my decision on whether to go over or under the muscle.
I'm now in the process of deciding what to do. I can either just remove the implants and not do anything else, or remove and let everything heal, and then get smaller implants probably over the muscle. It's not an option for me to get a revision and place smaller implants with internal suturing to raise the fold and make the pocket smaller. I just don't think I will have a pleasing result doing that. I have a consultation with a different PS on Thursday so I will update after that :)
So let me start with the good things:
1. I don't have any pain or discomfort.
2. I can sleep on my tummy. I actually started doing that about 1,5 months post op!
3. They are getting a little softer.
4. I'm in a better place mentally. I still regret my decision, but I can think about other things and have fun.
Then the bad:
1. I hate how I look. I know I picked the wrong size and probably the wrong PS. They are just way too big and too low.
2. Flexing or using my pecs is really uncomfortable and my boobs look even worse when I do it. My biggest regret is actually going under the muscle, because when the muscle is cut to place the implant, the muscle is damaged and can never be repaired. Even if you remove the implants, you will still have muscle animation! I don't think you loose any strength or function of the muscle, but your boobs will forever move and look weird when you flex with or without implants. I was never told this, so I feel it is important to share this, so anyone that considers going under the muscle knows the consequences. I'm kinda disappointed that there is so few reviews even mentioning how they look and how they feel when they flex (and even fewer pictures), despite the fact that the wast majority on this site get implants under the muscle. I think i'ts an important part of getting implants under the muscle. I mean a lot of girls share so many pictures of their boobs through
their recovery and of the final result, in every angle, with or without bras/bikinis, but not a single one of how their boobs look when they flex. I have a feeling that's it's almost a taboo. I know I wish I had read more about this, before I made my decision on whether to go over or under the muscle.
I'm now in the process of deciding what to do. I can either just remove the implants and not do anything else, or remove and let everything heal, and then get smaller implants probably over the muscle. It's not an option for me to get a revision and place smaller implants with internal suturing to raise the fold and make the pocket smaller. I just don't think I will have a pleasing result doing that. I have a consultation with a different PS on Thursday so I will update after that :)
UPDATED FROM bennii
1 month post
The ugly truth
benniiMarch 8, 2016
I've dreaded so much to update my review. I feel like I just spread negative energy every time I update, but I feel I have a responsibility to share my experience. I hope it can be of benefit to someone.
I am now 5 weeks post op, and have realized that getting a BA is the biggest mistake I've done in my life. I can not stop looking at pictures of my small and cute pre op boobs. I wish I had understood that I was good enough as I was, and did not need any surgery. Right now I look horrible. My boobs are too large and sit very low relative to my nipples. I have sent pictures to my surgeon and asked if he agreed that the implants sit too low, and he answered that he "understood what I thought" but we had to wait and see before we could judge the result .. I feel so depressed and have no idea what I should do. If I should remove the implants completely or get smaller placed higher up. I'm going to end up with two 4.5 cm long scar well below breast folds either way ..
If you are reading this and have not yet had your BA, I advise you to think carefully about how you will react if you get dissatisfied. I was absolutely sure I was going to be happy with the result and I was therefore completely unprepared for this. I think it has made this situation even more difficult. I'm not saying don't get a BA, but I think it is important to be aware of that everyone doesn't end up happy.
I've added some photos of how I look now, and some of how I looked before.
I am now 5 weeks post op, and have realized that getting a BA is the biggest mistake I've done in my life. I can not stop looking at pictures of my small and cute pre op boobs. I wish I had understood that I was good enough as I was, and did not need any surgery. Right now I look horrible. My boobs are too large and sit very low relative to my nipples. I have sent pictures to my surgeon and asked if he agreed that the implants sit too low, and he answered that he "understood what I thought" but we had to wait and see before we could judge the result .. I feel so depressed and have no idea what I should do. If I should remove the implants completely or get smaller placed higher up. I'm going to end up with two 4.5 cm long scar well below breast folds either way ..
If you are reading this and have not yet had your BA, I advise you to think carefully about how you will react if you get dissatisfied. I was absolutely sure I was going to be happy with the result and I was therefore completely unprepared for this. I think it has made this situation even more difficult. I'm not saying don't get a BA, but I think it is important to be aware of that everyone doesn't end up happy.
I've added some photos of how I look now, and some of how I looked before.
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March 9, 2016
As of right now all you have/need to do is allow the time to go by and the negative thoughts to pass. There is nothing you can do except work on acceptance and wait until your doctor says he can either fix them or take them out. There is always a way out so don't worry about that. Your pre op breasts were indeed cute and beautiful. if you want to remove your implants you can, and you are young so your skin with go back and your breasts will be as they were. Yes there will be little scars, but you can put a lot of love and care into them and in time they will be barely visible. So you can undo what you did, but you just have to wait and little longer, and in the mean time work on accepting the healing process, as it is both mentally and physically taxing. You will get through this, believe that.
March 9, 2016
I really think as more time passes you will feel a lot better about your new boobs. I am really thin like you, and my BA looked very similar post-op. I'm now almost 3 mos out and they look and feel totally natural. Half the time, I forget I even had surgery. You will feel a lot better once you can resume normal activities and an exercise routine, too. Yes, your old boobs were OK but I actually think you will like your new ones even more in a couple of months.
March 10, 2016
As much as I hope you just end up loving your new boobs, I honestly don't think it's going to happen at this point because, aside from the size, the positioning is bothering you also and I can understand how you feel and see what you're saying (you're not crazy :) and THAT isn't going to change even if you do get use to the size. The only advice I can give is to 1, try not to obsess/dwell at this point and know that you will get to a place of happiness with your breasts again whether it's explanting or a revision with different implants (I know easier said than done, but don't let this define you..) 2, after maybe a couple more months of letting them settle (because they say it takes up to 6 months to see final results), consult with another ps, or even 2 or 3 more, ones that are experienced with revisions, just to get input from outside sources even if you don't feel like you would want to spend the money to use a new surgeon and end up sticking with your original surgeon anyway...at least you'll be getting outside, professional insight/opinions and there are of course many surgeons that offer free consults with no obligation (you said that your surgeon lowered your fold to center the anatomical behind the nipple and on one hand that makes total sense, but on the other, it seems he did lower it too much and I just havn't noticed other women with anatomicals having their folds lowered significantly like that) And 3, look for women on here with similar situations and reach out to them for info/support...I came across a women just the other day who explanted due to symastia (I wish I could remember her screen name to tell you..if it comes to me, I'll let you know) but she posted a 2 week post explant pick and her boobs looked almost identical to her breasts pre-ba..beautiful, I was shocked at how great they looked! Another one is lunamarie (I think how it's spelled) and I believe she just had her creases raised recently because her ps had lowered them to where she was unhappy with them...Maybe follow her progress and/or reach out to her.? I just want you too know that there is hope and there are stories with happy endings even when the course was rough..I'm really hoping the best for you, you will get through it.. :)
April 4, 2016
Hey girl, please give it time. I also have anatomicals, 225 cc, 3 months post-op and I can tell you they go down in size A LOT. They look so natural now. I have the opposite problem. I love them right after surgery, and now I think they are too small. My boobs keep getting smaller each month, so you might be happy with the size in a couple more months!
December 7, 2016
I'm wondering why you still have surgical tape on your insision sites at a month out? I'm also wondering if you're happier now?
UPDATED FROM bennii
23 days post
Still depressed, but coping
benniiFebruary 25, 2016
Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Just been really sad and regretting my decision to get a BA. I know I picked the wrong size, should probably got no more than 170cc.. But there's nothing I can do whit it right now, my PS said I had to wait at least 6 months before I can downsize. I don't know if I will, I hope I will learn to love them before that, but if I don't I have to. I'm also really worried about the position of the implants. The almost look like they have bottomed out, but they haven't actually gotten any lower (my scar is still right in the crease) since surgery. This is just how my PS lowered my fold and positioned the implants. Do you think they look too low?
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February 25, 2016
I think you had a great outcome. My Surgery is in April and have been on some many different sites and have seen so many pictures. I think you look great! I think you need more time to adjust to your new breasts. Good luck!
February 25, 2016
You look so great- I know that you are having a difficult time adjusting but just thought it would be nice to hear some positive feedback :) I know that most people say that it takes up to a year to really get a sense of how they will look and for them to really look how they are supposed to. Have you discussed with your PS about them still being swollen?
February 25, 2016
I think you look fabulous! My surgery was February 18 and I have wondered if I went too small...but I know in the end I will find them perfect! I would encourage you to just allow yourself to heal and adjust to your new body. They will change over the next 6 months and you can always change things later if you truly don't like them. That said...you look beautiful and you will look great this summer in all those new clothes you can wear!!!
February 26, 2016
Let me first say that I don't think they look too big at all. I think they couldn't be better of a size that goes with your body shape and size. And so perky and don't look like they are bottoming out. But I'm so curious to how you think they look too big? I know that may sound weird/- but is it because you just wanted them smaller to begin with? Or you think they make you look fat? They absolutely don't (you're so petite I think it would be impossible) but I know that when I tried on bigger sizers I thought I looked chunky--. Or is it because you don't like how they look in clothes? Or you feel too self conscious now? Or is it because you think everyone notices??
I just would like to understand why you think they look too big. Don't get me wrong- I know it's a personal choice no matter how great we tell you that you look, but maybe if you/we understood in what way you feel they look too big maybe there is something to help make you feel better about them.. Like maybe a certain bra to keep them looking smaller, or maybe if you could see your Pre photos every day, maybe that will make you feel better about the size..? Maybe we can help make suggestions.
I just would like to understand why you think they look too big. Don't get me wrong- I know it's a personal choice no matter how great we tell you that you look, but maybe if you/we understood in what way you feel they look too big maybe there is something to help make you feel better about them.. Like maybe a certain bra to keep them looking smaller, or maybe if you could see your Pre photos every day, maybe that will make you feel better about the size..? Maybe we can help make suggestions.
February 27, 2016
Thank you for your kind words! Well, the reason I think they are too big is mostly that I wanted them much smaller. But also all the other reasons you mentioned. I realize that the are not huge, and that many girls would be happy about the size, but I did not want big boobs. Just a little more fullness and roundness so I didn't have to wear the 2 sizes up bras anymore. I know I can't live with this, so I either have to explant or downsize. Don't know what is the right choice for me.
February 27, 2016
Ugh..I feel for you. It sucks you feel this way. I'm so sorry that it's that bad. I get it in the sense that I wanted what you describe- very subtle BA- a little more fullness. I got what wanted even though I have moments of mine being too small- and then I remind myself that I would have been very stressed if they were any bigger. So I can imagine your stress. I just wonder if you wore a sports bra perhaps- I know it's not comfy-- but maybe they will feel and look smaller? Or perhaps there are other bras with that purpose?
When I look at your wish pics, I find several look like the size you are now. Do you see that? I wonder if you're having the right perspective or its just that the change was so dramatic that they FEEL huge to you when they actually aren't?
One thing you may want to remember if you don't go through with downsize or explant-- you are young. Very young still. Your body will change a lot by the time you're in your 30s. Your bigger boobs may make you feel sexier when the rest of your body is less taut and fit- which comes with age- no matter how much you work out- you're only in your 20s once;-).
Btw do they bother you as much we your pre BA breasts, did?
If so then yes.. Perhaps you need to do something about it. It's not worth feeling so down about them.
One last thing/ another option could be to see if you get used to them over the next 10 years and then change them if they still bothered you? It's possible your PS will say you need a revision by then anyway...
When I look at your wish pics, I find several look like the size you are now. Do you see that? I wonder if you're having the right perspective or its just that the change was so dramatic that they FEEL huge to you when they actually aren't?
One thing you may want to remember if you don't go through with downsize or explant-- you are young. Very young still. Your body will change a lot by the time you're in your 30s. Your bigger boobs may make you feel sexier when the rest of your body is less taut and fit- which comes with age- no matter how much you work out- you're only in your 20s once;-).
Btw do they bother you as much we your pre BA breasts, did?
If so then yes.. Perhaps you need to do something about it. It's not worth feeling so down about them.
One last thing/ another option could be to see if you get used to them over the next 10 years and then change them if they still bothered you? It's possible your PS will say you need a revision by then anyway...
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