Regret skinny BBL - now have rippling around belly button & loose skin

This “Skinny BBL” procedure is the biggest regret of my life. I came to Dr Torres because I really didn’t like the square shape of my bum & was interested in a BBL. I knew that I was thin (120lbs) but wanted to see if he thought I had enough fat to graft in my side booty. He insisted that I did… in retrospect I can see I clearly did not (with no results in my backside & out $8000) My first round of Lipo left me with a doughnut shaped mound of left over fat around my bellybutton and the Dr Torres had to go in for a revision. Unfortunately the revision made things worse. I now have rippling around my bellybutton, loose skin and the inability to gain any weight in my midsection. This has resulted in me gaining weight only in my arms, legs & viscerally. I am consumed by fear of gaining weight and no longer wear a bikini’s because of the uneven appearance of my stomach. I’m currently 40 years old and now I have random panic attacks thinking about what happens if I gain any weight as I age. We all pretty much gain weight as we age so don’t listen to the “liposuction is great for people with a stable body weight” BS! It’s honestly no way to live. If I could go back in time I would never do any cosmetic procedures at all! I have found that the beauty industry is insidious and manipulative. They have scrubbed the internet of negative reviews and force unachievable body images on to us as children. It’s horrible. I can see the beauty in the natural yet “imperfect” body shape. Natural is beautiful ladies. Trust me. Learning to love yourself in an unnatural form is a much steeper hill to climb to self acceptance. You are freaking gorgeous the way you are. Save that money for a home or your retirement.