The Reconstruction Period

I had silicone injection back in maybe 2010 twice and didnt really see any results. so in 2014 i had lipo and a bbl. (of course i wish i would've did it this way 1st) no i wasn't truthful about my injections but i think the dr kinda new afterwards because he commented to my husband about some hard substance. Moving forward in these later years my butt grew cause what i didn't know with bbl that ole ugly fat that you take from one place and put it somewhere else my butt got even bigger and i HATED it! Im 5'7 and always weighed in about (before the big butt 165/170lbs) after 189/190 lbs and skinny legs run in my family so to me i felt unproportioned. i wanted a natural look and maybe with a lil more but never the KK look. i didnt suffer from any pain but i did have discoloration and a lot of lumps however i did have a scare in early 2021 and i couldn't walk cause of excruciating pain in my hip/leg area, i literally had to use a walker. again thank God it only lasted a week. scared the bejeeus out of me, lol so in nov 2021 i had the silicone removed for all the reasons mentioned above and now i need reconstruction. the dr told me i have to put ion weight so he has fat to pull from. my recovery went well had my tubes in for 8 wks and since then ive been struggling to put on weight. i know, i know somebody just pulled their head back like "really, thats your problem, lol) trust me if i didn't look so deformed in the butt area i wouldn't worry about it and not to say the dr didn't do a good job cause i think he did. but my butt is flatter on one side than the other and one side has a dimple and the other dont and i'm flat like a pancake all together. i'm still using the garment with padding just to give me some kinda of shape and im not going to lie its been extremely hot with all this (going through menopause as well) and frustrating and depressing at times. bathroom times feels so much like a chore, esp a work. i know a person that i mean had no fat on her and had a bbl (very natural & to me perfect bottom) where the heck did he get her fat from and i have fat but i was told that dr needs it from the love-handle area. that's the main place i don't have any but i got else where. im thinking i might have to consult with other dr's before my situation drive me to drink (sighs help, any suggestions)