Ready (kinda) for my transformation

Tomorrow this time, I'll most likely be finishing up my surgery. Just my luck, I started my menstrual cycle yesterday :( doctor says it's okay, just put a tampon on. But usually my body aches and hurts already while on my period so I know tomorrow's pain from surgery will be heightened.

My emotions are coming in waves, excitement, fear and nervousness. My worst fear is not waking up from surgery :( I keep staring at my 2 babies and husband today, feeling guilty that i chose to have this surgery. But again, I bet it's due to my pms that's causing my anxiety lol. I'm really confident in my doctor (Dr. Castor) he's done quite a few BBL's and has been in the practice for so long with no malpractice issues.

Plus this isn't my first surgery (Breast Augmentation, 4 years ago) I just wish these nerves would go away.

I'm currently Post Op Day 6, and I can't say just yet that I'm feeling better. Day 4, I cough a flu and did everything I could to fight it. Luckily, Yesterday I didn't feel any more flu-like symptoms however I woke up with an extreme neck strain (in addition to all of my body sores from the surgery). My husband massaged the area of neck and it feels more mobility today however, my upper back is really sore from sleeping.

I can handle the soreness, and definitely won't say it's "painful" but I have like zero energy. It's hard to get up just to go to the restroom without coming back feeling like I ran a mile. That's the hardest part of this ordeal, my energy levels. My caretaker (mom and sis) left yesterday so I'm taking care of my 5yo and 8month old alone while my husbands at work and it's been extremely rough because I'm so out of energy.  I keep telling myself that everyday I will feel better but for the past 6 days, I don't. I feel as bad as I did the first day and I just don't know what to do..