37 Yr Old, 116 Lbs, active mom of 2 Kids! Trying to decide 200or250cc- Boston, MA

So even though I went for my consult and it was wonderful and all I kinda feel like I'm in limbo at this point. I'm wondering if anyone else had these "stuck" sorta feeling when you know you def don't want to forget about getting a BA but at the same time you aren't moving forward for some reason.........maybe these are normal feelings during the process???? Kinda feel like my feet are stuck in the mud.... I think that if I could picture some of what the outcome would look like I could push forward....I love the dr I saw and really don't want to do anymore consults but I feel I at least should bc it would b the responsible thing to do , also, the game kinda changed when not one but at least one of two lifts would be necessary to ensure the best results, then there is deciding on size, b/w 200cc&250cc is my range. I don't want to exaggerate my chest I want to excentuate it by adding volume not so much size. Ideally I would luv the flexibility to wear a cleavage bra if I want , a bralette to be comfy and less noticeable and maybe even no bra if I feel like it too... This way my boobs can be sexy, conservative or relaxed depending on what I wear if that makes sense.......I'm just trying to be realistic but I'm wondering if in fact what I want is not really attainable....

Let me first say Dr.Seckel and his staff were warm and welcoming ! From the moment I walked through the door of their office I was pleasantly greeted. The vibe was calm, which put me at ease. I was more nervous than I thought I'd be. The most memorable part was when I had finished my paperwork and went to hand it in at the window . I looked up and there was Dr.Seckel, cute as a button with his bow tie on a great big smile, he cupped my hand in his and said " well aren't you beautiful"! .......Now the actual consultation ..... Again, let me reiterate Dr. Seckel and staff were knowledgable,professional, pleasant, and very thorough. I'll try to keep my thoughts in order but let's just say there is an overwhelming amount of information given during a short period of time( 1 hr to b exact! Mine 2 1/2!) Like I said they are thorough???? Dr. Seckel and his partner explained to me in detail how things would or could potentially go . Based on some of my measurements I would need a lift in addition to the implants( estim.200cc or 250cc which would give me a full C or small D). Wasn't too happy to hear about the lift even though deep down I kinda new it was coming. Grade 2 ptosis that would require areole mastopexy or lollipop.... I can maybe wrap my head around the first but not so sure about the second.....I tried on implants, showed him some of my wish pics and explained how I wanted to regain what I once had and that I didn't want to go bigger. Basically, Fill the pocket of breast tissue that I have with out ending up high projection or being too round and unnatural looking. My only hope is that I accurately portrayed and communicated to him my wants and needs which is tough when speaking "layman's " terms to a Dr.who speaks in clinical terms... At this point I think I'll just need some time to process and digest the info given so that I feel 100% with what ever decision I end up making..

This profile pic is in my old bra 34D VS bra w 1 1/4 c rice sizers. This is how I used to look... Lord help me get back there somehow!