41/42 Years Old. Saline Implants for Two Decades. Hoping to Feel Healthy and Natural. - Boca Raton, FL

I am 41 and will be 42 this year. I had small breast that did not even fit an A-cup. At 21 I had saline implants put in under the muscle. I was so happy to be voluptuous and to look so good in and out of clothes... I have always loved full, shapely breasts since I was a little girl and was disheartened to find that mine never grew past the prepubescent stage. After I had a child at age 24 and breast fed successfully, I developed the double bubble, because my implants were too large for my body, that the bottom crease was lowered.... during and after breast feeding, my natural breast became bigger, so the natural crease was evident, causing the double bubble effect. On a positive note, the extra breast tissue caused a more natural feel to my breasts but only on the portion of my breast that was actually real. Beneath and surrounding my real breasts, was the evident hard distorted muscle and the hard saline implants. My breasts were "half hard, half soft" as my last girlfriend put it. In certain positions, my breast really looked deformed and weird, like bending over, because the real breast would dangle around while my chest muscles and implants remained hard. So it very weird, and I had always been careful from then on what positions I found myself in in any situation. But with clothes on, or a bikini, I still looked beautifully full-figured.
About ten years ago, I was ready for a breast implant removal and a lift, knowing that I would be very small-breasted, but wanting my health back. I was already feeling the effects of having toxic stuff inside of me. As well, I had had (around age 25) a dental implant that contained titanium, which also contained some nickel, which I found out I was allergic too. Just last year, I had that thing removed finally when I met a wonderful dentist who showed me that my mouth was infected by it (previously, dentist after dentist told me it was fine, even thought my head wanted to explode). The dentist who told me the truth is a dentist who specializes in non-toxic dentistry, and I am grateful for him for having saved my life and for his honesty. I still have a cap that contains nickel and I look forward to getting that out as soon as possible, when I can gather the money. So, on with the story.....
around age 25, when I was ready to try to feel healthy because I knew the implants were toxic, I didn't have enough money for the procedure, so here I am years later, looking toward student loans to be my help and healer. I have just my implants drained on 4/21 of this year. I went to Doctor Pozner in Boca Raton, who has a vibrant, positive energy and seems to usually be in a happy mood. And I like people like this. Now, don't expect him to understand that breast implants are toxic, because he is either in denial or who knows what.
I knew that the best thing for my health would be to remove the implants enbloc, that is, to have the implants removed with the capsules entirely as one item per breast, because this minimizes exposure to further toxicity. However, I opted for the drainage first because I knew that this would allow my skin and tissue to do some healing before deciding on what to do next, for aesthetic purposes. I am paying the price health-wise for this decision, as I know I have been exposed furthermore and more directly by the drainage procedure to 20 year old toxic saline. Lately, since the drainage, I feel sicker than ever. But I try to be a pretty positive person, and I know that the toxicity will eventually be healed when I have had a chance to have all toxic stuff (including toxic dental material) out of my body, and my body will have a chance to detox. So, after wearing a big B-cup (although I looked like a C-cup), I am back to not even fitting an A cup. I like it when I touch my breasts and I feel soft breast tissue (although very little of it) instead of all that hardness. I will wait out the time to see how my breast skin and tissue heal and look to see if how much fat transfer I can do and how much of a lift I might need. My hope is to take out enough student loans and to find a doctor who will do the breast implant removal, fat transfer, and lift if need be, hopefully for a very good price. I would like to talk to some doctors about an internal lift, as pictures on the internet of this procedure look wonderful with minimal scarring, as opposed to traditional breast lift procedures.
The drainage at the office of Dr. Pozner cost $500.00.
If you all have any questions or advice, feel free to hit me up, because that is why we are all here.
I love you all and all your breasts, small, medium and large.
Thank you for your support in being here and sharing this site, and blessings to you ALL!

I am posting 11 photos today, that I took earlier today, so that is exactly two months since drainage (note, implants are still in, they were drained of the saline two months ago)....
I have retracted very well, but am still droopy...
The doc who did the drainage has quoted me with some options:
A. implant removal alone..........................................$1,700
B. implant removal and lift.......................................$6,200
C. implant removal and fat transfer to breast.........$5,310

a fourth options, which would be implant removal, fat transfer to breast, and a lift (which would be optimum aesthetically, would be about $9,200 ... and that is out of the question.
My parents and student loans are helping me out with this, not some rich philanthropist.

The 11 pictures I am posting include some of me holding up my drooping skin, imitating what I would look like with a lift (without any fat transfer to the breast).
You may notice that I have gained much weight, and this is because I was hoping that the new curves would go to my breasts.... but, if it did, only a little bit did.
I would like to gain some more weight and do the fat grafting option... I know my breasts will still be droopy, but why do I need to have perky breasts anyways??? I am 42 and have breastfed a child...
So, droopy but fuller seems like the happier option for me.

What do you guys think?????? :D

Hello friends.
My surgery is on Monday.
My sergeon, the delightful Dr. Pozner, has aided me in affording three procedures:
The explant of the bags, the fat transfer (which is like two procedures, actually; lipo then transferring the harvested fat), and the lift.
Dr. Pozner feels that I will not be happy without a lift, but knows that the fat transfer was most important to me. So, He made everything affordable so that we will both be happy.

I have nervousness/anxiety about doing all procedures at once, hoping that all can heal well, hoping the fat cells that will be transfered to my breasts will mostly remain... And, I am really worried about breast lift scars.
When he spoke of a lift, he mentioned the lollipop procedure. I really don't want the vertical scars. I don't even want to be overly perky. I would love a benelli lift... and have that incision around the areolas be the only incisions, for the implants removal and for the lift.
I don't even know in what order the procedures will be done (??????)
Like, explant (which can be done by incisions through the areolas) first, then (somehow with areolas held in place) the fat grafting, then the lift (?????)
My surgery is on Monday and I don't even know these things!!!! Yikes. I'm nervous.
But I have a real positive feeling about this. I really love my body, and it will be amazing if the results are good, I will look so incredibly good, its nuts.
OKay, I hope all goes good. thank you all who have read and/or commented on my review, and thank you all whose reviews have given me hope and inspiration.
Until my next review, friends, and I'm looking forward to being on the other side.