6 Months Post Op! I'll add update pics soon

I thought I would add a couple of things regarding my procedure. I will have 4 drains and he emphasized that I WILL wear them 3-5 weeks. I will have the diastasis recti repaired, he said it may not be "Barbie" but it would be dramatic lol. I'm hoping he means in a good way. He also said he does all abdominal work with the pain ball. He started talking about my scars and mentioned wearing a bikini. I can't even imagine that. I had my first son at 20 and I have not worn a bikini since. I am sooo tired of the granny suits to try and conceal my wrecked tummy. He laughed at me in a knowing manner and said I will certainly be able to wear one when he is done. He said my scar will be circumferential with the booty arches in the back, my words not his lol. My hubby thinks that is too much scarring, but I have watched my mother be miserable with the same butt and flanks for 30 years. I do not want to do the same. And speaking of my mom....I have yet to tell her! I think she will be supportive but has been known to surprise me. I also have been working on loosing more weight prior to my surgery. Dr. B says it is not necessary but every little bit will improve my results. I have been following the Dukan diet and I have lost 10 lbs since 5/2/12. I still have until 6/21 for my preop and until 7/10 for surgery. My goal is 20lbs or better. :)

Just a quick note. I'm working on dropping a few pounds and my hubby is on board which is great. I realized recently that I have an unhealthy association between food and the hubby. We both like to cook and we love trying new foods but are diehards for good Mexican. He's an engineer and works in the oil fields and is gone for about 30 days and home for about 5. I have been doing super well with my eating and even though its very regimented, I've had no cravings and no issues. And then, Kelly calls to say he's on his way home and immediately I noticed my mind fixating on foods and restaurants. It was crazy even when he got home I was having these thoughts about getting the kids and heading out for dinner. Not what you woukd call cravings, rather just that's "what we do". It's crazy! So instead he is cooking for me according to my diet plan. That is sweet and still gives us something to talk about and I can tell ye feels like he is participating in my goals.
K, one last thing. Has or did anyone notice the negative-non-stop bombardment of self-deprication stop once you knew for sure you were getting the mommy makeover? Don't get me wrong, I'm not thrilled when I get dressed, or at the idea of a swimsuit. And I still don't like a mirror, especially naked, but now instead of an assault of horrible things I'd punch my best friend for saying, let alone a stranger, the voice just says, "well it won't be long and that will he gone". I'm just wondering if anyone else experienced this too. I have lost 12 lbs since the end of April and that helps, but previously, I'd still beat myself up and super analyze my every flaw, but not so much now.