Explant of 421cc Sub-muscular Silicone Gel Implants - Transaxillary incision - After 8 Years

I originally got my 420cc silicone gel implants when I was 24 years old, most likely out of some type of insecurity. After many life changes, and personal growth. I felt that I had outgrown my implants. I also didn't like how they moved around under my skin, and make me feel tight in the chest (sometimes I felt it contributed to not allowing me to fully expand my chest & lungs). At only 5'-3" and 110 lbs, I also felt that the size of them make me look/feel heavier than I actually am. I had them removed two days ago, and I am having mixed feelings about it. I guess it is just a bit of a shock, and I am hoping that My skin will retract adequately. However, overall, I believe I have made the right decision. I can't wait to see the final result after healing.

4 days post-op, and this week has been full of emotional ups and downs, from having feelings that I have made a horrible mistake, to feelings of greater self worth and inner strength. Right now, I am feeling like this was absolutely the right choice. The first time I took off my surgical garnment, I cried at the sight of my bare chest. Now I am feeling really good about it. I really wish I had never decided to get implants in the first place, but I am happy to have them out of my body. Now instead of feeling like a comical cartoon, I feel like a beautiful artist rendering. My breasts are a little smaller than they were before my ba, and not as firm, but I'm hoping that will improve with time. I still feel a little sore, though I have stopped taking the pain meds. And my upper inner right arm, underarm and right breast are still feeling numb. And it feels like I have a pinched or pulled nerve when I straighten my right arm, but I am hoping that is temporary.

1 week post op, and I have to say trying on clothes has been kind of sad. None of my clothes seem to be fitting or looking good on. But I'm hoping that will change once I get out of my compression garnment, and can wear a bra with a little padding. Upside, my chest looks much more symmetrical in a bikini top. I am also looking forward to trying on some new clothes that I could never pull off with big boobs (plunging necklines!)