250cc L/300 cc R silicone moderate plus

Last week I finally made the ultimate decision to get breast augmentation. Meaning that I booked my surgery and paid my deposit - so this is really happening!

I have been seriously thinking about BA for over two years now, actually I think closer to three at this point. The first time I started truly thinking it was an option is when I learned someone I worked with had them done AND had a complication that is still affecting her today. Believe it or not, instead of it scaring me away from BA, I actually started diving in to learn more. To learn as much as possible.

At some point around that time I discovered RealSelf. I didn't officially join until today though. I've been getting the email updates and reading reviews for years. I've read the best stories and the worst, I've read about all the complications, what kind of implants, incision site, the good the bad the ugly and the "so freaking worth it." At this point what more could I learn? And yet I still continue to read everything I can.

I am 24 years old, 120lbs, 5'2'' and I hardly fit into an 34 A cup. There is a gap between my breast and the bra, padded or not. Especially on my right side as it is much smaller. I'll be honest, when I was young I used to pray NOT to have big boobs - I was terrified! And yet here I am, my prayers came true, and I am ready to go under the knife to change what I have. Of course, what did I know when I was eight years old?

I'm still not trying to go too large. So often I read that girls always wish they went a little bigger and I am a bit back and forth on this. As of the past two months I've finally decided to lean towards the bigger size of the two sizes I'm considering, because I do believe the "wishing you are bigger" thing is a thing. However, my thoughts are anything more than what I have now is a huge change and will be amazing. I would like a Full B - Small C. I really don't care much about bathing suits, though I imagine afterwards I will actually enjoy wearing them, but my bigger concern is all the normal clothes! T-[RS bleep], dresses, tanks tops, even PJs! I'm self-conscious because being so small chested means a lot of work trying to just look proportional. Most dresses are tough to wear because they all hang lower and my bra will show because nothing is there to hold them up. If I lean over in a v-neck or anything that doesn't reach my neck - oh boy! You see my nipple.

I do love my body, I am happy with my boobs, and if I had to spend the rest of my life like this I'd be fine! But I don't have to. I can enjoy feeling more like myself. I believe once I have them I will feel more like who I really am. I would try to explain that but I imagine most of the women on here understand that feeling. It just feels right to have...more.

I did see three Surgeons. One in AZ when I lived there over a year ago, and 2 in Beverly Hills. I knew for sure I would not go with the AZ one, I didn't like his approach, but I was having debate b/w the CA ones. I decided in the end to go with Dr. Vishal Kapoor. The other doc I saw was Dr. Kim who was really great and I read a lot about, however after seeing Dr. Kapoor I knew that there were a few things I just didn't love about Dr. Kim that I felt more comfortable going with Dr. Kapoor. Dr. Kapoor and his staff were very welcoming, calm, laid back, patient, and just great. Also, my friend JUST had her BA surgery with him 2 weeks before and she was happy. I saw her recently (a month after her surgery) and she says she is SO happy and would go to him again. Knowing someone in person who went to a doc is really comforting and I think I knew right away when I saw Dr. Kapoor that I would go with him.

Fortunately my mother and my friends, and actually everyone I have told have been very supportive. It seems that people either "get it" right away, or it takes them a day or two to understand. It's not something you can really explain in words to someone, I think they just kind of have to "know." I was shocked my mother was supportive so quickly, and to quote her from the first time I brought it up, "Yeah, I don't know why you are so much smaller than [the rest of the women in the family]." HA.

Anyway, I tried on sizers and it seems like 300 cc Silicone (not sure profile, I think moderate) will be best for me, but at my pre-op I will try sizes again just to make sure. It's a little bigger looking than I would want, but they said you probably are about 10% smaller after surgery. Which is perfect.

So I will keep you updated. I'm in a very calm state at this time as it still is about 2 months out, so I'm just going to the gym to get in the best shape possible and daydreaming how all my favorite clothes will look once I am proportioned. OH - with the sizers and seeing myself with larger boobs I actually looked Thinner. That was really interesting. Not with every size of course. One I tried was way small and looked like a tennis ball and the other was huge and top heavy.

I'll post my before pictures as I get closer to the date.

This is me now, 2 months before surgery. How a VS padded bra looks in a shirt, how the gap looks, ha, and my actual size. You can see the size difference between breasts a bit, and from the side view my body looks a bit larger than I actually am. As I mentioned, it's totally a portion thing I am looking for with BA. Well, and feeling full and womanly and thrilled all the time :)

Sheesh, it's funny how often I read when girls tried posting pictures and they didn't go through and now I get it 100%. So here goes take two. I'll finish the rest in a third post.