I knew at a very early age that I wanted a breast...
I knew at a very early age that I wanted a breast augmentation seeing as good ol mother nature forgot to check off the boobs box when she sent me through puberty. Finally this year, the stars aligned and I was able to get my surgery! I went from a 32a to a 34c and couldn't be happier, I can't wait to see the final result after my waiting period is over :)
one week post op!
Well I am one week post op and feeling pretty good considering lol. I had a really tight chest wall which made placing the implants a bit more complicated and therefore more painful for me :( ive been looped up on muscle relaxants and pain pills all week so sleep has come fairly easy except at night. I am now counting down the Days until I can start to wear a real bra which shows off the beautiful work. I must admit I did buy one victoria's secret bra and had to try it on. I was to excited to not lol sometimes I wish I had gone bigger but than I realize how un natural I would look and that was not what I was going for. So in the end I am happy. :)
feeling regretful today....
I am beginning to wish I had been able to go bigger. But I know with my chest wall it would have ended up looking like torpedoes or bowling balls. Still, I wish all that money I paid could have given me my dream boobs...
Still not feeling entirely excited about my results.
Welp, I am 12 days post op, not as sore getting more defined cleavage but still not as excited about the final results as I thought I would be. Post partum depression type thing ya think? who knows. NO one responds to my posts anyway so I don't know if anyone else feels this way. Seem like the ones who go way big get all the attention. weird how that works. I will post more pics in hopes of someone reassuring me that I did not make a huge freaking mistake...
My before pic. The only one I could find for now.
Here is the way the girls looked pre op. Silly and childish in my opinion!
14 Days Post op today!!
Holy cow has time flown by! It seems like I waited forever for the day to come ( oh wait I did, 14 years) lol and now recovery is just flying by! I have received some very encouraging feedback and I can not express how wonderful that makes me feel so thank you to you all!! I am feeling a bit better especially when I get to take this surgical bra off lol. Still getting pings of pain on the tops but all nipple sensation I alive and well. When I look down at my chest that's when I feel down, it seems to look the same, but when I look to the side and front I can see the fullness and it feels better. I just have to keep reminding myself that they will be constantly changing for months and not to stress to much over it :) I rewarded myself with 4 new bras the other day that I cant wear yet... lol but I bought them anyway. I figure if I end up dropping and fitting into them differently it wont be a big deal they fit well now and I can tell there is still room in them for droppage and fluffage lol I posted some pics I took the other day so you can all see the difference now. :)
steri strips removed today...
OK so I had my steri strips removed today and I am terrified At how the incisions look!!!! My doc said they will eventually be invisible and I have faith in him, but OMG! WHY ARE THEY SO PUCKERED!!?? I am putting Emu oil on the incision sites now and still have to wear this surgical bra which I hate but I understand... luckily all my scars from previous injury induced surgeries have healed well and blend in with my pale skin, I just Really hope that these scars do the same. :(
Almost 3 weeks post op tomorrow!
I am feeling pretty good lately, a lot less muscle pain and I can use my arms when getting up from a chair without crying lol Sleeping on my side is still a bit uncomfortable and I the incisions are healing well I think. I still don't like the puckering but that will go away over time. I had my first glass of wine last week after 4 weeks! Oh my does pink Moscato taste good lol! I decided to re upload some of my photos that I previously took off after discussing it with my bf I think he understands why I need this site since I have no one else to talk to about this, no one else I can show my progress to and no one else to whine to if I am having an off week lol. There are still those times I wish I could have gone bigger, but when I try things on like old Halloween costumes that look awesome now and looked silly then, I feel better! Anyway, figured I'd post another update since its been a bit, I hope you are all well :)
4 weeks post OP
Well another week has gone by and I am still having my moments of regret about having spent so much money and getting so little out of it. I feel like I am dropping weird too... Maybe I am just being too self critical. At 5'5" 130 lbs my 235cc moderate gel implants just seem too small still :( I hate feeling this way since I know I look substantially better than I did 5 weeks ago, and my sister told me I look fabulous and my bust size finally matches my hip size. I always said I was twiggy on the top and Beyoncé on the bottom lol. My breasts are getting softer but in exchange they seem to not be as full as I was last week, which is really disappointing. Maybe someone else can tell me if I am just seeing things or if I am in fact dropping weird.
Just a quick update
So I am 5 weeks post op and feeling reasonably good. My birthday came and went with out much excitement. I spent the day with my son at his dentist appointment and then went to lunch and had Ice cream. I don't think I will post any photos this week seeing as not much has changed in a week other than I feel like I have lost quite a bit of the fullness I really loved, but I know that was the swelling and I shouldn't be focused on that. I am having some pain on the left side in the outer pectoral muscle. I think I am sleeping too much on my left side... I'm not sure. I have my 6 week po appointment next Wednesday so hopefully my doc can let me know if all is good there. I am seriously hating these surgical bras now... since the swelling went away they don't fit as tight as before so they feel loose and cumbersome. I wish I could just wear a non padded sports bra or something but he was very strict on the fact that I have to wear this one for 3 freakin months...
They have softened up considerably but still don't really move as well I had thought they would at 5 weeks. Maybe that is just because of how tight my muscles were to start so they are still trying to stretch to mold to the implant... all guessing here. Anywho, I hope everyone is having a great week and healing is going well for you all and for those who have yet to undergo surgery, Good Luck!!!
6 weeks post op today :)
6 weeks! Wow has time flown by! ok, so I am feeling better regarding my size now seeing as I know I really don't and wont have the resources to do it again and go bigger. Maybe someday, but for now, I can live with a 2 cup increase in size :) I still have some tenderness on the outside near my armpits, but not too bad, the scars have smoothed out and are just red now and after seeing my many other scars heal up, I know that in about a year they will be nearly invisible. I have my 6 week post op appointment on Wednesday, so I am anxious to hear what he has to say about my progress. Hopefully he will let me out of this silly surgical bra finally! I doubt it, he was pretty insistent on the 3 months. I would really like to just wear an unpadded demi bra, I have one I bought from VS that is really comfortable that I will wear once in a while for a couple hours just to put something less constricting on, but... I doubt he will give me the ok lol. Oh well. If it keeps everything in place and lets me heal without complications then I guess I will live for another 6 weeks. I posted some pics that show how I am sitting now, the one pic in the tank is in the unpadded demi bra. I am still small, but not nearly as small as I was and now I feel like I am much more proportionate than I was! Talk to you all later!!
before and after photos
I had my 6 week post op appointment today and my doc says I am healing very nicely! He also said my scars look good and will eventually be basically invisible :) He took some photos today so I got to see a side by side and all I gotta say is WOW! Whenever I start feeling down about not going bigger I will just look back at this picture and I will feel better seeing as the difference is pretty big!